Do YOU have a drug? Is there some person or thing in your life that you project all your problems onto, to avoid the drudgery of actually trying to figure out what's going on? Can you admit - to yourself - that you have this sort of addiction? And if so, can you bring yourself to walk away from it, or are you merely going to spend the rest of your life in the monkeyhouse?
This one stopped me short. I don't know the answer, which means I'm not admitting something to myself. I'm going to have to take some time and think about this.
I was going to post pretty much exactly this. Going to think long and hard about it, too.
I do got some potential suspects though. Though they're all variations on what LMNO added later, "myself": myself as I want to be, myself as I think I can be, myself as I think I should be, and the most suspect "myself as I was 12 years ago".
I don't know if it's as simple as just walking away, though. I might need to kill them first.
That said, other replies ITT make it interesting to see that apparently this is not something that's like this for everybody. Somehow that's hopeful.
Maybe he comes from a long line of ghouls. Probably stole heads off the spikes of London Bridge or something.