So, for some unknown reason, over the past couple of days, I've reverted to the forms
of Catholicism. I'm still not a Catholic, nor any sort of Christian. Fuck the Pope. He made Anakin turn to the dark side. Also, he was a Nazi. But there was this... just this sort of thing inside me that said "pray the Rosary." (hence the Gozery beads comment in the band names thread).
I prayed it in English, and it made my mind shut up. I prayed it in Latin, and it made my mind shut up even more. It wasn't the content. It was the formula. Catholic prayers are very formulaic. They're incantations. The Rosary is a very long incantation. Now, your conscious mind is following a set of instructions, and focusing exclusively on the rote instructions. Conscious thought is bypassed. I tried it with other Catholic prayers, in both languages (the Latin is superior. Even though you can rattle off a Hail Mary in English without thinking, some words here and there are going to distract. An Ave Maria is in a dead language, and therefore processed elsewhere, which can be easily ignored, as long as you are reading it off the page and not remembering it. Again, different programs).
I will admit, I did feel something odd when praying the prayer for Reparation for Blasphemy Against The Trinity (by Christian standards, I am damned regardless. I have blasphemed against the Holy Spirit, with the intent of doing so. But I felt pretty nice saying, "hey dude, sorry for talking shit about you." It wasn't enough to make me believe, but I think I hit a good combination of programs there to give me inner peace. I made peace with who I used to be, in two senses. The former Catholic, and the Pagan rebel. Don't need either anymore (my religion will probably remain Irish Paganism, but I feel good at not thinking of myself as a Pagan. As a matter of fact, resisting it. I should shun all labels). Or at least to make peace with my former god. And that's the important thing, no? Apparently my OS is Roman Catholic, no matter how many contrary downloads I make.
But back to the point. It's much easier for me to whip out the beads and run rosary.exe than to go, "Ok Brain. Let's make a deal. I'll be quiet if you be quiet." "OK." "No dude shut up. Don't respond." "Noted." "
" The Latin removes meaning. It is currently useful to me. Feel free to experiment with it too, and let me know what mind hacks you use because I find Catholic morality repugnant on many levels, and would personally love to see the cult die. Note though, doing the Rosary properly
is distracting. That is, meditating on whatever mystery that the day is set aside for. You're supposed to be running a blind program. Meditating (which has a different connotation in Christianity than its Eastern counterpart) on the events of Jesus' and Mary's lives aren't going to help the hack. They'll get in the way.