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Why did you live in a tent for 5 days?

Anyway, I do think you have talent, you should definitely continue with your artwork. I just feel like the subject matter is a touch predictable. Did you go to Catholic school?

I did indeed go to catholic school....

oh and living in the tent was required of me, lets just leave it at that.  I don't really want to get into it all that much...  because it is a personal mindfuck of mine. a clashing of ideals I don't want to release at this point....  

Once I get some more inspiration, I will definitely cook something up.

i like 'em

some more then others

though i dont know much about painting and stuff, just a budding amateur myself

some of those are from art class, but most of them were just done for fun.  fun and quick.

i've lived in a tent for 5 days with a negative 36 degree windchill temperature.  a definite traumatic experience in my life....

I know living in that fucking tent definitely made me appreciate the little things in life a whole lot more.

I have been beaten up, but never by my parents, I've been malnourished, but thats because I was amazingly lazy (stupid).  Never been raped, and if I was, I was not aware of it. and my parents have never abandoned me.  although there was a girl who I guess abandonned me, but who can blame her, i'm screwed up.   I can't really say that I am poor, even though I do come from a lower working class family.... but never a "holy fuck im on the streets poor."  thankfully.

I'm just saying, not trying to say I have depth or anything.  a lot of what I have went through is nothing compared to others.

I particularly like this one:







don't take hunter too personally wzrfe. he's just all cantankerous 'cause Wizards of the Coast isn't buying his Full House RPG.

thanks.
I painted that with black ink...  The reference I used for this is a sculpture titled "Portrait of a Roman"

Yeah, I'm getting the feeling you have zero perspective on life.

Like you think that getting your I-pod stolen is worse than starving to death in the desert.

if I have zero perspective on life, describe to me what a little bit of perspective on life is.  And, what exactly is a lot of perspective on life?

If someone broke into my house and stole my possessions, honestly, I would be angry enough to kill the mother fucker. probably jsut because I am jsut anotehr one of those "average cabbages."   And if I was in the desert left to die, I would hopefully have some knowledge stored away up in my "no perspective on life" head of mine, which would assist me in finding some hydration, just long enough to live another day. 

It is what it is.  being wronged and being left out in austere conditions are two completely different things, I dont see the point in comparing the two situations.    obviously being left in the desert is a lot more physically/mentally demanding then some fuck wit stealing your possesions.  and I suppose...  both situations could potentially be life threatening, that is if you are being mugged at gun or knife point. (from an armed homeless person)

You certainly have some artistic talent, but the subject matter... 

the story of my life... 

^^^ that one is the VIRGIN BIRTH...






^^a self portrait in black ink pen....   That was done over a year ago now.

no i was just pointing out why anybody might give you the emo label

ok.

hahaha. SEEN.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=poUoCggQZd0&feature=related

I don't ever expect to have any fulfilling type of relationship with someone anyways. I'm broken...  too far gone...  mental.

  I am one sorry individual, I must admit.

meh...  that's my current appraisal of self.      if anyone 'knows' why I posted my 'self appraisal' hopefully your smart enough to ignore it.

You are a liar.

Yes, you.  You and every single other human on this planet.  All of us have told some lie or another at some time in their life.  A little white lie here, a small fib there, a sin of omission every now and then. Why do we do it?  Because we can't help ourselves. We lie to our friends to make them feel better.  We lie to our enemies to place traps in their way.  But most of all we lie to ourselves to protect us from the bitter truth.

Now, imagine what would happen if every single person on this planet had to tell the absolute truth for one day.  Every man, woman, and child. Every politician and lawyer. Every priest and holy man. Every salesman and haggler. What would happen? How many marriage would be destroyed? How many wars would be started? How many people would riot in the streets? Would all of society be reduced to rubble in less than a day? Maybe we need all of these little white lies and slight embellishments to glue our civilization together.

Being honest is over-rated.

If a women ever asked me if I have ever been to a brothel, I am screwed because I hate to lie...  Then again, I don't ever expect to have any fulfilling type of relationship with someone anyways. I'm broken...  too far gone...  mental.

  I am one sorry individual, I must admit.

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For everyone to be honest, I suspect everyone should also be a little less judgemental as well?  (for my sake)

why am I emo?  I dont have the stupid "emo haircut"  I sport a number zee-row buzz-cut.

everyone has emotions, but why do I get the emo label...

hehehe   fuck yeah!

all the kings horses, and all the kings men, couldn't put humpty back together again.

:'(

yeah, that's it.
I remember becomming aware of this about one year ago, and here I am today, still the same old zombie.

I recall the start up to the iraq war, when the war beats were getting louder all I wanted was the war to start, just so I could watch videos like this.

http://www.theync.com/media.php?name=793-execution-of-11-security-force-members

http://www.theync.com/media.php?name=2449-isi-execute-and-slaughter-an-entire-compound-of-iraqi-national-guard

http://www.theync.com/media.php?name=418-machine-gun-execution

I don't like it, but that's how it was.  I was 17 at the time the war started and I wanted it to start just so I could watch the videos.  pretty pathetic i know.  All I wanted was the videos, I never cared if it was right or wrong to go to war.  It was one year ago when I realized how fucked up my reasoning was, and apparantly still is.



ah well, what in the goddamn fuck does this have to do with what I said in the first place?