I've been thinking about my life lately, and I've started to realise that this year is ending, and there will be a new year upon us.
I've been wondering, what will this mean? What will I be doing? Where will I be going next year?
I've never really given this much of a real thought before, I've sorted always just gone with whatever I've been told to do or suggested might be good ideas.
Thing is, doing exactly that has rarely been a source of keeping stable and finding happiness in life.
I've been wondering, what I am good at and what exactly, I am good for, besides waxing philosophical about the nature of this chaotic reality, but I don't really do anything useful per se, at least, nothing useful that allows me to maintain a decent income.
Sure, I make enough to get by and have a bit of fun, I maintain a healthy outside lifestyle, but I want to see more of the world. And I want the world to see more of me.
You see, for a long time, I've always wondered what it was that I should do with my life.
I've always been *good* at a *lot* of things, but I've never really been *great* at anything, mostly because anything serious I try and do usually gets ruined by the people that try and teach me it, and so I find it hard to stick to any sort of profession that I can stand any longer for more then 6 months.
I've been an IT administrator at a university, I've been a door to door salesman, I've been a telemarketer, I've been a job recruitment "officer", I've been a Bussy in a night club, and I've made websites, been a volunteer firefighter, and have been behind my parents cash register for most of my life.
Lately though, I've redeveloped an old love and dream of mine t since childhood, that was mostly crushed back in primary school by my teacher who refused to let me put on a magic show for the school for reasons that still confuse me to this day. (I have suspicions though it might have been the fact I managed to get two girls curious about my show who then begged to be volunteers for the show, and the fact I asked for privacy to practice with them might have set off alarm bells with my suspicious teacher. What a bitch, I swear, it was completely innocent!)
Anyway, I'm hoping that with time and a bit of luck, I should be able to start putting on shows professionally, I've had a lot of people been asking me for a business card lately, which is a pity because I really need to make some so I can actually appear a bit more professional.
Its just mostly at the moment, a lot of the shows I do are completely for charity, but I've been getting a lot of beer and hopefully soon, I'll be getting free entry to certain gigs where they want entertainers like me.
But I have to be realistic, I need to make more money, so I'm pondering what I should do as a part time job until I can start making some real cash with this serious hobby of mine.
So I suppose what I'm hoping to do and what my goals are next year, in a nut shell, is, improve my showmanship, get some business cards printed up, get a job that pays something decent that won't drive me crazy, I still plan on studying though as well, though I've sort of taken a semester off this year to work on my showmanship and I'm still debating with myself if I should take another semester off next year.
I'm planning on going to a crater in the middle of australias desert for new years and tripping out on some cactus to do some soul searching.
I'm hoping on making some big changes next year and I want to start traveling more.
Also, I've been thinking, some of you guys are some of the best people I know and can ever hope to imagine and meet, and I want to try and see as many of you as possible and hope I can all brighten your lives in some way and annoy people we dislike in other ways.
I know I can be a bit of a egotistical and annoyingly narcissistic at times, I can seem to be a bit of a sleaze, but I have to admit, I've been pretty young and immature, because I am young and immature, I'm trying to make it a goal to be a more positive and mature person in the coming years, while still remembering to be young and fun.
What about you guys, what are your plans for the new year? What do you hope and envision and hope to change about your life?
My thoughts for the new year.....
Kill my husband....
Divorce my husband.....
I'm debating but will keep you posted! :wink:
right now my resolution is that this will be my last year on the east coast.
I want to move to Portland, OR. soon. like maybe as early as this spring.
I don't think Portland is this magical land of smiles and wonderment and free drugs
it might be even shittier than the east coast
but I'm using it as a symbol of a new life
Hopefully still be employed whether it is in my current job, or the job I just interviewed for, or some other job.
Be a good father for 2 starting sometime late March/early April.
That's pretty much the bulk of next year.
-Aquire a car
-Keep my Job(s)
-Afford nonlatex birthcontrol
-Learn some new massage techniques
-Finish (and begin) 2nd draft of my YA horror fantasy novel
-Destroy the last of my superstitions, beginning with Mercury Retrograde.
Fuck personal improvement, I'm gonna hang out with perverts.
Quote from: The Good Reverend Roger on December 22, 2009, 06:07:43 PM
Fuck personal improvement, I'm gonna hang out with perverts.
:lulz: :lulz: :lulz:
Acquire a car is also on my list. Other than that, I'm gonna' keep plugging away at school.
i will not kill anymore
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i will not kill anymore
i will not kill anymore
i will not kill anymore
*sharpens ax*
I PROMISE!!
"new years" is a completely arbitrary mark in a fairly arbitrary calendar, and as such I feel no need to attach any special personal import to it.
it is, however, still my favorite holiday since it's the one day of the year that EVERYONE is expected to party.
also, Lys, if you make it to the states before I make it out of the states, I expect your itinerary to include a few days in the PNW.
I'ma get shitfaced drunk and kick the living crap out of an motherfucken eagle
My goals for the next year:
Survive exams without shitting self too many times.
Get on the radio more.
Get laid more.
BDS,
Optimist.
Quote from: BDS on December 22, 2009, 06:30:43 PM
My goals for the next year:
Survive exams without shitting self too many times.
Get on the radio more.
Get laid.
BDS,
Optimist.
Fixt.
Quote from: P3nT4gR4m on December 22, 2009, 06:29:32 PM
I'ma get shitfaced drunk and kick the living crap out of an motherfucken eagle
:lulz: :lulz: :lulz:
Fuck, rumbled.
My goals for 2010?
See The Residents,
care for my friends and family,
have lots of sex,
smoke some pot
and survive to see 2011.
Best of wishes, Lysergic.
You too, everybody else.
So, for the past few years I've done up resolution lists, and promptly forgotten about them three weeks later. 2009 was an absolutely awesome year for me, though, so I think my New Years' Resolution this year will simply be "keep doing whatever the fuck it is that I'm doing". I'd be cool if I finished the art piece I'm working on, but I'm not going to rush it.
Quote from: P3nT4gR4m on December 22, 2009, 06:29:32 PM
I'ma get shitfaced drunk and kick the living crap out of an motherfucken eagle
Best ever.
I'm with ECH on the "arbitrary line" thing, but I like celebrating another year of fuckedupshit going down the tubes...so that's what I will do yet again--celebrate another year going out the do' because I have been through too many years this decade wishing each year would fly by faster than the last.
usually I resolve to make no changes whatsoever in my kickass lifestyle.
until a few years back, when I realized my last three hookups were with chicks that even I didn't approve of, and I vowed to raise my standards across the board.
(incidentally, that's when I started going out with DCup, btw)
I plan to record an album with Frost Heaves, finish a second album for a side project none of you spags are ready for yet, publish the Chao te Ching, stay employed, enjoy life, and fuck with people.
I'm gonna make no resolutions....My daily life is a fucking resolution why pick just one thing once out of the year.
However, I will drink, drink, and drink oh and I'm with LMNO-fuck with people more.
I plan to get a car and my Driver's License.
Finish one of the books I'm writing.
Find a band to play in.
Keep my job OR find a better one.
Start learning another instrument.
And try to remember to call my Grandmother more often so she won't freak out by my long gaps in correspondence.
Quote from: Chief Uwachiquen on December 22, 2009, 08:52:27 PM
And try to remember to call my Grandmother more often so she won't freak out by my long gaps in correspondence.
Call her AT midnight! (she'll love it!)
stop smoking
get drivers license
get eyes laz0red
get a job I can do 20h/week (only managed 12-18h last year cause of burnouts)
buy more furnitures
erect some piece of art in the middle of the roundabout near my house
Quote from: Triple Zero on December 22, 2009, 09:42:15 PM
stop smoking
get drivers license
get eyes laz0red
get a job I can do 20h/week (only managed 12-18h last year cause of burnouts)
buy more furnitures
erect some piece of art in the middle of the roundabout near my house
(http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3554/3783688190_a7aef7c352.jpg)
This year I'm gonna kick some ass.
Quote from: Nasturtiums on December 23, 2009, 04:56:20 AM
This year I'm gonna kick some ass.
PIX PLZ
Sis in law and I have decided we're rickrolling 09' out the door. :D
I'd like to have a different job.
im going to get skinnier cause im superficial like that.
annnd i dunno...stop being a loser
Quote from: BAI on December 23, 2009, 04:45:25 AM
not have a massive day killing hangover on new years day for once.
What is this mythical "new years day" you speak of? I've heard rumours about its existence, but never actually witnessed one myself.
Quote from: Squid on December 23, 2009, 06:22:21 AM
I'd like to have a different job.
YES YOU FUCKING DO
because we all love you!
Quote from: Triple Zero on December 22, 2009, 09:42:15 PM
get a job I can do 20h/week (only managed 12-18h last year cause of burnouts)
:crankey: I'd be happy having a job where I work less than 50h/week. Next year is probably going to suck because the Old Dude that Knows Everything is going to be retiring after 44 years. I'm doooomed!!!
As for resolutions, I don't do them in January. I usually wait until the beginning of February and pick something interesting to pursue during the year. It's worked out pretty good for the last 2 years.
finish As. laugh at results. start A2
play in a few bands
be drunk at the beginning of the year just to be completely different to every other person (oh wait...)
sleep more often.
1. Multi-orgasmic Mondays
2. Learn to 360 my bike
3. Move up in the design world
4. ***** ** *** ***** ***** * **** *******
5. Systematically cover Portland in posters
Quote from: Iason Ouabache on December 23, 2009, 08:33:40 AM
Quote from: Triple Zero on December 22, 2009, 09:42:15 PM
get a job I can do 20h/week (only managed 12-18h last year cause of burnouts)
:crankey: I'd be happy having a job where I work less than 50h/week. Next year is probably going to suck because the Old Dude that Knows Everything is going to be retiring after 44 years. I'm doooomed!!!
i know, I should not complain, but currently I'm on welfare which comes with its share of problems when living together with someone who does have an income. also I just don't want to be on welfare. it's just, I started at my previous (webdesign) job with 6 hours a week, couldn't do more at the time (boss was a cool guy that he let me manage my own hours), carefully increased the amount of hours, but at 18h/week I started getting panic attacks :(
be in a band i thoroughly enjoy playing in/write more musics
set up some a series of DIY art/music events somewhere in D'ham
make sense of the utterly confusing relationship I seem to maybe be in
terrorize Portland, OR sometime in August
Build another art guitar. Need to find a big old block of mahogany though, and learn how to weave willow effectively.
Have some sort of epic canoe trip
send books to people
oh.. and not fail at uni :p almost forgot
At least get this fucking game playable.
Stop being a sniveling little bitch and just be a bitch.
Quote from: Ne+@uNGr0+ on December 23, 2009, 09:53:06 AM
4. ***** ** *** ***** ***** * **** *******
Is there an "S" ?
1-start my rly rl adult career
2-gtfo my house (take 2)
3-more physically active since I have no hrosie to ride anymore
4-get new hrosie to ride
5-resume ballet lessons (re: 3)
6-not go back to working at preschool next year.
1- Get another degree or two (because why not?)
2- 8 minute mile
3- Do something new and ridiculously awesome.
Oh. And obtain and learn bass. My roommate is a drummer and says that he'll cover half the cost just so we can start a band. XD
Quote from: LMNO on December 22, 2009, 07:32:25 PM
publish the Chao te Ching
WANT
Quote from: P3nT4gR4m on December 22, 2009, 06:29:32 PM
I'ma get shitfaced drunk and kick the living crap out of an motherfucken eagle
Have you yet????
- Gym 5+ times a week.
- Carouse with interesting women.
- Do somehting pointlessly stupid I can laugh about later (just becasue).
- Fight the horde, sing and cry
Get laid.
Tkae care of child.
Lrn to speel while tirrd.