Quote from: Cardinal Pizza Deliverance. on June 15, 2011, 02:44:56 AMand
It's the sort of tired that builds up in your bones. It accumulates until you can't even twitch a finger to change the channel or pull a trigger or point and blame someone else. It just weighs you down, all this tired. No sleep, no pill, no energy drink can fix it. Can even dent it for more than a few days.
It's a powerful tiredness that goes beyond exhaustion and beyond apathy. Depression doesn't hold a candle to this kind of tired. 'Worn out' is 'Spring chicken' compared to this. It's a kind of tired that crushes bad days and worse weeks. It's a kind of tired that makes you wonder if even laying down and dying would ease it at all.
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Maybe the ghosts that haunt me are weighing me down a little. Maybe that's bullshit. Maybe I've seen too much - or I saw too much once long ago and I just never learned to process it. Maybe I've been alive too long and for some reason haven't stopped living yet. Maybe I'm just weak, having spent my allotment of rage too early on. Hormones, brain damage, whatever it is; I'm tired.
resonate with me most. And they do it really well. Good job, CPD. Let's go find a shady tree.