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Apple Talk / Re: WOMP CABAL 2007: The Year in Review
« on: Today at 02:57:47 am »
am i the only one that was disappointed to find out that "womp womp" didn't have anything to do with "WOMP?"

Think for Yourself, Schmuck! / Re: Recent Jailbreaks
« on: June 21, 2018, 02:43:44 am »
Morning fellow inmates,

I spent all day yesterday in the cell, just rattling my tin cup against the bars. I immersed myself in the news and felt all the things I was supposed to feel. And now I've felt them, but I'm still stuck in this body with the feelings. Some of them are mine, but some of them are injected. So maybe I'm not a prisoner, maybe I'm an in-patient and they medicate me daily with information.

And by the way, the feelings that I think were mine---I chose to act on those feelings, to let them into my inner sanctum and motivate me. And that feels good, but I don't feel free yet...

Let's talk about our recent jailbreaks. If we share how we got out of the cell, maybe it'll help each other do the same.

One of my recent jailbreaks is money. I am really good at saving money. I'm actually kinda bad at spending it. I was taught at a young age that there's a payoff to putting off pleasure -- not buying candy today so you can afford a video game at the end of the month. I dutifully save for retirement and investment. But this also means that I don't enjoy things in the present, I'm always thinking about money and agonizing over spending it - after all, isn't something better coming? So any time I spend money, I feel guilty.

I currently have two vacations planned, and I've been living real thin (almost like a college student) so I can afford them. My girlfriend asked me, "what vacation do you want to go on AFTER THAT?" and I felt the anxiety well up and flood my inner world... I had to say it -- I want to take a break from scrimping and saving just so that I can enjoy something months down the road. I want to enjoy the present moment and stop focusing on something months away.

I am recognizing the need to draw a line and say "that's enough." --- and give myself permission to order the cheese fries instead of regular fries. I recognize this is a first world problem. But cash is a significant source of anxiety in my life, which is weird considering I'm responsible, employed, and stick to a budget.

have you escaped your cell recently?

if not --- why not?

i'm the same way about money - i've found the only way i can enjoy spending money on a vacation is if I budget a certain amount of dollars per day - way more than i normally spend in a day - so I always come in under budget while also am treating myself.  that's like a win-win.  roll the unspent money into the next days budget and pretty soon it's "hookers and blow" for everybody!

i just got out of my own self imposed "prison"- i finished my bathroom re-model project.  new bathroom is fabulous, but i've been a tiling, wiring, plumbing, sheetrocking, painting machine for a very long time - feels good to not know what i need to get done next.

Apple Talk / Re: Open Bar: Free Russian Orphans with Every Purchase
« on: June 08, 2018, 03:09:20 am »
So its two am and im channeling spirits through half a bottle of jameson. Work are still embarrasing themselves down at the bar as is right and proper to do. I dont feel right, nothing has felt right in so long. Theres no one thing i can put my finger on. Its like five or ten years ago i stumbled into a world that isnt my own. Close to real but only an approximation.
There's no real point to this message  other then I am lost.

""If you find yourself lost in the woods, fuck it, build a house. 'Well, I was lost but now I live here! I have severely improved my predicament!'"" - hedberg

Think for Yourself, Schmuck! / Re: Why apples are oranges?
« on: June 08, 2018, 03:03:56 am »
how come orange juice is yellow?

Apple Talk / Re: Theology as an Exercise in Management.
« on: June 06, 2018, 02:11:59 am »

I was thinking about this on the drive home today, and I have come to the conclusion that all of this mess is a crisis in management, rather than labor.

as above, so below

Apple Talk / Re: Open Bar: Free Russian Orphans with Every Purchase
« on: June 01, 2018, 05:01:00 pm »
Fuck it.  It is what it is.  Or as Cain quoted like 8 years ago:

What is true is already so.
Owning up to it doesn't make it worse.
Not being open about it doesn't make it go away.
And because it's true, it is what is there to be interacted with.
Anything untrue isn't there to be lived.
People can stand what is true,
for they are already enduring it.
—Eugene Gendlin

That's a fabulous quote.  Proof is that you remembered it for like 8 years

Aneristic Illusions / Re: More bad water, as predicted.
« on: June 01, 2018, 04:44:59 pm »
It's turning the frogs gay!

Apple Talk / Re: Thread split from What's the Matter, Bunky?
« on: May 31, 2018, 05:08:12 pm »
yes, you are the slippery slope

sounds kinda hot

Apple Talk / Re: Thread split from What's the Matter, Bunky?
« on: May 31, 2018, 02:54:49 pm »
is this what censorship feels like?

Apple Talk / Thread split from What's the Matter, Bunky?
« on: May 30, 2018, 03:20:20 pm »

Apple Talk / Re: Has It Really Come to This?
« on: May 05, 2018, 03:52:09 am »
you're saying, things were pretty great, but then a couple of dead kids went and fucked it all up

Apple Talk / Re: Has It Really Come to This?
« on: May 04, 2018, 10:43:14 pm »
I wonder what happened

Apple Talk / Re: Has It Really Come to This?
« on: May 04, 2018, 04:48:11 pm »
You mean it hasn't always been this way?

Apple Talk / Re: Has It Really Come to This?
« on: May 02, 2018, 01:55:43 pm »
Zero tolerance is ALWAYS a stupid policy.
i have zero tolerance for stupid policies

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