« on: September 28, 2015, 09:51:26 am »
3 weeks and change after being back I sent out emails /gchat invites to the guys from my old division as well as a few I was in seps with. Have chatted with a few of them, and in an unexpected way it's helped. Makes it real I suppose.
It could've very well been caused by the above, but I woke up from dreaming about the fucking cadence the other morning. I dread when I wake up from dreaming about rev, though that'll probably be me jumping out of my bed in sheer panic.
This Thurs marks 4 weeks since I flew home. I'd say I'm pretty much adjusted back to civilian life, as douchey as that sounds. I'm also pretty much out of the "wah the Navy doesn't want me wah" funk. Granted I'm still in a this town is shit and I can't fucking handle the imposing jesus all the fucking time funk, but eh, I'll be out and moved on early 2016
I have a consultation for lasik on Tues, which is my final consolation for it not working out, especially since the government fixing my eyes was one of the many reasons why I joined in the first place.
I'm incredibly homesick for Colorado. Unfortunately I feel I have to be closer to my parents for the next few critical years until their long term health is known. I just wish they weren't so damned rooted in a place where I'm miserable. The culture here is fucked and it's killing me. Can't handle the anti-intellectual backasswards bullshit that happens in this town.
And don't even get me fucking started on this rebel flag nonsense. Christ I fucking hate Tennessee. Yet here I'm living until at least March or even a few years from now, if I stayed in state to finish out the degree versus moving to NC and waiting a year for in state tuition.