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Or Kill Me / Re: Campaign 2008: The Stupidest Election Ever
« on: November 02, 2008, 12:13:24 am »
Didn't they also post signs that he would just kill you?


Is it too late for me to run for king of the world? I think I just found my ticket  :lulz:

Or Kill Me / Re: Campaign 2008: The Stupidest Election Ever
« on: November 01, 2008, 04:02:28 pm »
Thomas Jefferson promised to teach rape, sodomy, theft and Satanism.


Or Kill Me / Re: Campaign 2008: The Stupidest Election Ever
« on: November 01, 2008, 03:10:39 pm »
Its a question of perfectly ordinary, run of the mill politician v's The all singing, all dancing first evar black presidente of the USA who, if he gets in will just keep doing ordinary, run of the mill politician shit.

Personally I'd back the rapist just so I can watch videos of white supremacists getting all mad and ranty on whatever sites muppets like that are allowed to post on.

Vote Barack Obama for great shits and giggles on nazitube. Fear not the status quo will not be affected.

Or Kill Me / Re: Rude People
« on: November 01, 2008, 11:27:12 am »
I couldn't agree more with this. Rude people are cunts and I don't mind telling the bastards to their face.

Even if they just look rude I'll give them torrents of abuse. I just feel so strongly about this issue.

Or Kill Me / Re: Fun with depression
« on: October 30, 2008, 11:15:11 pm »
...Try not to hurt yourself, somebody out there doesnt want that, be it a relative or friend. Get better man

erm ... fread title is Fun with depression

Am I the only one who doesn't think this situation is lulzy?  :?

Or Kill Me / Fun with depression
« on: October 29, 2008, 01:24:29 pm »
Who's fault is this?
Was I dealt this hand or did I pick it?

I'm sure I remember having dreams and hopes and aspirations but it was so fucking long ago now I've forgotten what they were. Nowadays I'm killing time as furiously as I can, patiently waiting for it all to be over. Someday, hopefully soon, I won't wake up and have to wade through yesterday's bullshit again. That's the nearest thing to an ambition I have.

What is it with those fucks on the teevee that tell you to "never give up on your dreams"? So a few of them got lucky but, for the majority, dreams are dangerous, dreams give you hope and hope is nothing but a higher height from which to fall when, inevitably, your dreams come crashing down.

Life is pain. There's no caveat in that statement. No one said "life is pain but it's worth it", or maybe some idiot did, maybe one of the lucky teevee fucks who got the life they wanted. Good for them, I just wish they'd keep it to themselves. Life hurts and that's about it for most of us poor dumb bastards, the silent majority who make the lucky ones feel so great cos they don't have to put up with our shitty existence.

I wake up most mornings, way before nature designed me to, I sit in an office staring at a screen and try to remember what being drunk feels like, anything to take my mind off where I am, where I'll be tomorrow and the day after. Then I get my two days of bonus time and spend them drinking as much as I can swallow, just to numb the pain of realising this is all I have to look forward to.

It's a vicious cycle. Drudgery leads to oblivion, leads back to drudgery.

I get barely enough currency to buy the shit that everybody tells me I need. If I don't listen to them, I'm sure all I need is enough alcohol to explode my liver but apparently theres more to life. There's a house and a car and a holiday in the sun. There's matching bath towels and devices you plug into the wall to make the room smell like summer fucking meadows. Is this the meaning of life? To trade the time you have for dishwasher tablets and razors with even more blades than last year?

I'm sure this is wrong but, at the same time, I'm fucked if I can think of an alternative. It's friday soon. I think I'll get drunk and wake up monday, keep those dreams at bay.

The Richard Nixon school of ballet and the arts / Re: WOMP-ertainment
« on: August 13, 2008, 08:37:27 am »
Not sure which I feel more disturbed by.

How many deaths, human rights violations and miscellaneous criminal acts is cyclops baby guilty of?

Bring and Brag / Re: Tardive Dyskinesia lyric help needed
« on: August 08, 2008, 12:55:14 pm »
Help yourself...

Talcum foundation and lips by sharpie
My earing shaped like a snake
I try my best to look mean and scary
but I'm as skinny as a rake

Come out at night where the sun can't get me
parade my heroin chic
In the clubs where the chicks look just like me
and all the decor's ultra bleak

The mating rituals a study in indifference
too cool to look like I care
I sip a cocktail from a fancy flute glass
and flash a look that says 'beware'

I'm spouting Nietzsche from the cover of an album
my friends all think I'm really deep
Dispassionately musing over how I'm going to kill myself
and how I never have to sleep

The Richard Nixon school of ballet and the arts / Re: Cram's Game Corner
« on: August 07, 2008, 06:51:24 pm »
Even when I turn off all the symptoms some shithole island country always closes their borders before I can infect them.

It's just like every time I try to wipe out the human race IRL - the odds are stacked impossibly high against me :argh!:

The Richard Nixon school of ballet and the arts / Re: ITT: You find LSD
« on: August 07, 2008, 07:05:35 am »
That wouldn't be ironic. That would be someone else  :lulz:

The Richard Nixon school of ballet and the arts / Re: ITT: You find LSD
« on: August 06, 2008, 09:34:12 pm »
Insofar as LSD messing you up, I may have to go with the opinion that it will if you were already going to suffer a mental break in the first place. I say this only after sitting in a state run mental hospital for about 9 days after a particularly intense LSD experience.
It was only after said experience that I became aware of my families history with depression, and mild schizophrenia.

I had tried LSD in the past with some mild side effects that generally lasted up to a week or so. These side effects were as I said mild, but still weird. I would see trails and be unable to shift attention quickly in situations that required multitasking. Also I was more so attracted to shiny objects and was prone to see a 'deeper meaning' in most anything. This lasted for a period of up to one week and then diminished all together.
My next few trips were not as intense and were very nice. I had a great time and was eager to try LSD again.

However my last trip was not so fun. Well the trip was great actually, I felt wonderful but the problem was I felt too wonderful and for too long. The trip went on and on it seemed. Well after all my friends had come down and went to sleep. I did not sleep for more than one hour at a time for up to three weeks. My behavior was increasingly erratic and made no sense to those around me until finally my family urged Tim to bring me to a mental hospital.

During the 'trip' that lasted so long I felt extreme empathy to everyone and everything. I could not stand for my friends to talk about anyone in a negative light, (even people I really did not like) because I immediately recalled those negative traits within myself and everyone who ever lived. My ego was gone, I was everyone and no one all at once. I could not watch any movies because I kept 'knowing what would happen'. I would see meaning in everything, profound truth and what not. Ultimately I would empathize with someone, or a concept so much that I became that person/thought for brief periods and would act as if I was indeed that thing which I imagined. Needless to say that was pretty fucking crazy.

I was diagnosed as a schizophrenic and made to take all kinds of drugs, but eventually I got back to 'normal' or as normal as anyone can be I suppose. I just want to say that before my last trip I had been researching the LSD experience, but through Terrence McKenna and his ink. I was sure I was at a place where I could not only handle the trip, but could benefit from it as well. (I was fucking wrong  :D )

When I did come back to 'reality' I found whole swaths of information missing from my recall. I have had to re-read most of my books, but even now I have trouble recalling the information as rapidly as I once did. I can compare my journals from before and after and I can say it's like I am a completely different person now.

I'm not saying don't do LSD, or LSD will fuck you life up, but really I feel that no matter what you do or how you prepare for it LSD can cause you to go batshit insane. If you or your family have any strange mental tendencies, or you are under any kind of emotional distress, pick another drug, or not it's up to you. Everyone is different and all that. I still have some left over from that 'experience'. I seriously doubt I'll do it again unless Armageddon comes in 2012, but by then I'm sure it may have lost it's potency.  :lulz: I'm not at all saying DRUGS ARE BAD NEVER TAKE THEM, but I am urging caution with this particular drug. It sucks cause I used to have a good time on it too.

Question: Now that it's been and gone, was it worth it?

I've been batshit insane myself and I wouldn't have missed it for the world. I'm always interested in the perspectives of fellow travellers.

Literate Chaotic / Re: LMNO-PI
« on: August 06, 2008, 09:10:46 pm »
Awesome! One tiny problem tho ...


Think for Yourself, Schmuck! / Re: Vs. Organized Religion
« on: August 05, 2008, 10:20:24 pm »

That's the religion I was brought up with, btw.

Dirty fenian bastards  :argh!:

Propaganda Depository / Re: H propaganda
« on: August 05, 2008, 05:00:31 pm »

some animated ones

The Richard Nixon school of ballet and the arts / Re: ITT: You find LSD
« on: August 05, 2008, 11:05:52 am »
Or shrooms by the sound of it

Shrooms: Good trip. Mellow. I can still drive to and from the show.

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