I'm sorry to hear about your friend.
I appreciate this.
I just not sure if distance from Corey was good or bad. I think good for notloki and bad for Corey.
But what if Corey would have changed? Distance began long time ago. Could have changed decades of Corey life.
I think I don't forgive enough. I cut away friends too quickly.
I have recent experience with feelings like this. About two weeks ago, my ex husband died. He died from a common stomach bug, but of course that's not really why he died. He died because years of drug abuse and homelessness had taken a toll on his body too deep to repair, and when the stomach bug came along he just didn't have the physical defenses to combat it. His memorial service was today.
I left him a long time ago, and if I hadn't, the toll he might have taken on me is unknowable. But I had those thoughts as well, that perhaps if I'd been more forgiving, he could have changed, could have had a chance, could still be alive. But the reality was that I left, I chose not to forgive him and allowed him to cut himself
out of my life in order to avoid being taken down with him. Because that's how these things really go, isn't it? Your family gave Corey the chance he needed to thrive, and it is ultimately not you who rejected him, but he who rejected you.