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sorry, this one wins for me, hands fucking down.

 

old but good yo

yes. Calling a wheel a frog and expecting someone to know what you are talking about is not the way forward here.

I'm still waiting for the OP to get back to me on the definition of psychosis.

If not I may rant that shit right up!

I am reluctant to define anything. In that particular context I was using craziness as a forfeit of currently-held ideas and routines, crumpling under the pressure of so many unknowns which, like a forest fire, could clear the way for something more productive, important and generally pleasant. You could say the original post was me giving a seal of approval to the BIP pamphlet - it resonated with ideas I've had for a long time.

I am aware that a disconnectedness with consensus reality can also be unpleasant, I've experienced the plus and minus of it, as I think everyone has, in certain degrees. Fuck the idea that you either are crazy or you aren't. Fuck "yes or no" being applied to anything. A spectrum is more often appropriate, I think.

Go ahead and flame if it'll get your rocks off, but at least be constructive about it.

well from the actualy psychotic and about to start taking antipsychotics, and a low dose at that cos i have had to fight it tooth and nail mentally for 5 months now, thats not a bad definition, I am very aware of the sliding scale of the the nature of a psychotic illness.

where are the plus sides from having your conection to reality fucked up?

I havent had any. trust me, my breakdown was spectacular.   The only bonus points was my already having a rational mind and being stubborn as fuck. I have been in an almost daily battle with this shit since January.

I'm still waiting for the OP to get back to me on the definition of psychosis.

If not I may rant that shit right up!

I'm about to get my meds so I'm hoping things will get easier soon.

Being able to tell if the shit is real or not helps a fuckton.

I just read all of these, and fucking awesome work, pent! The part about you om nom nomming about an eighth of moroccan mid psychosis was kinda horrormirthy. I know myself that the recreationals just seem to lock you in to the psychosis harder, and that's after a few tokes.

I shudder to think what ingesting would do to the headspace.

I think I can tell you all a little about the diagnosis lottery, especially when there is a psychosis involved.

Depression is the easiest one for them to pull out of the bag, in terms of stigma, dealing with it yourself, everyone gets the blues to one extent or the other.

Then there is bipolar, again, that is a little harder to get around, my mate Dwarf just got diagnosed with that, and is about to play the what meds do I want lottery, well he is already on Olanzapine, an antipsychotic which can make your cognitive processes quite dizzy, and make you gain a fuck ton of weight. That's the thing with meds that fuck with the dopamine receptors in the brain, things like sex and food don't quite hit the same mark as they used to. He has also been told that he has to research a bunch of other meds including Lithium. Lithium is a fucker. You need regular blood tests for toxicity. You need extra salt on everything to help your body retain fluids. It also permanently rewires your brain chemistry. Manic phases can be fun, especially for those along for the ride. I know this from personal experience with the Bigamist.

Schizophrenia is the diagnosis you do not want. It is the one I am most likely to get, with the family history and the pathology of the way I went nuts. It is also the most misunderstood and stigmatised, violent cases of this are rare, but you see this shit in the news all the time. The Yorkshire Ripper called voices in his head once he was caught. Numerous sick fucks have gone with the Voice Of God shit. That's the more acute end of the wedge. This is the public face of the schizophrenic, mostly unwarrented, and most of the dangerous cases are male. Getting an understanding of how it works for the non violent is where the media and general public usually fail. The stigma is hardest on the tapped.

My big sister is schizophrenic. She is always been in denial, tells people she is bipolar, rather than her diagnosis, it came about with post natal depression, and she is now getting a divorce.

Here is the kicker with Our Kid. In her moments of being irrational she can get all invasion of the bodysnatchers with her son, she doesn't believe that he is her son at times, is not doing anything about her divorce that will help her keep joint custody and doesn't understand how my nephew is so upset. My sister has attempted suicide once already.  Her soon to be ex husband has stuck around for years, taking the weight of it mostly solo, and not really communicating to us how bad it gets.

Schizophrenia tears people and families apart. I am the luckier of the two of us, cos for one I do not have a concrete diagnosis yet, and I do not deny that there is a problem. Using logical reasoning and the fact that I referred myself to the longest wait to see a shrink (5 months, in total) means that I have had to figure out my own reality filter without medication, and am being put on a low dose of antipsychotics now, rather than being dragged kicking and screaming to a doctor, not being a danger to myself or others, I can't be sectioned.

I am one of the luckier psychotics. I know this, and since I got back from Scotland to visit Payne I have felt much better. The symptoms are more residual now, I have had time to adjust to them, to put them to occams razor and shred the bullshit.

Hell this could have been its own thread, but I figure it fits here.

I wouldve taken pictures but I have currently no way of uploading them.

Me and Payne looked scrubbed up to fuck.

Fake fashion pages would be funny,

However only having internets on my phone means I cannot work on stuff.

I am in two minds as to rip his second paragraph a new one about the mental health stuff. There is no pun intended but first I need the posters definition of psychosis.

Also prohibition = violence.

Prohibition of alcohol in the US caused a hell of an organised crime problem.

Would the social problems with gangs and drugs be lessened by legalisation?

Also, tax it, and use the proceeds to pay for proper healthcare reform.

Would help the economy some also.

Decriminalisation is where you can have a certain amount without being arrested or having it confiscated. Its still technically illegal tho.

That was how it works in Holland anyway.

I have 2.

I'm pretty much a masochist in that respect.