Oh, no, no, no, I like this. I like this new train of thought. I've just figured out that our entire philosophy is bullshit, and not only is it bullshit, but it was helpfully pointing out the fact that it was bullshit the entire time. But I couldn't see it. I was so fixated, so desperate to have something to anchor myself to, even if it was the deliberate rejection of the usual anchors, that I swallowed it all even as it told me what it was.
And how magnificent is that? The audacity! The genius of it! How beautifully recursive, how self-contradictory it all is. In suckering me into buying into it, it has made me the ultimate example of everything it was trying to say about humans from the beginning. And so, even in demonstrating itself to be bullshit, it demonstrates itself to be true.
Just because it's bullshit doesn't mean it isn't valid. There's no need to wander off into nihilism.
Oh, no, it's valid. But I find it hilarious, because it ties in perfectly with something I found a bit of a mindfuck from the beginning. A single sentence: All dichotomies are false. Which doesn't make any sense if you try to follow it logically, because if all dichotomies are false, that includes the true/false dichotomy, rendering the statement totally meaningless. But then the meaningless/meaningful dichotomy is also false, which is itself a meaningless statement, and things get all infinitely recursive from there and I get a headache. And I figured that was chaos, in a nutshell. And it's coming back again.
And I just got a call from the refinery. My lead mechanic has mashed himself pretty badly with a lifted load.
SON OF A BITCH.
That's terrible. I hope he lives and gets better.