Weird semi-story

[LMNO]

From what I've experienced, when it hits you hard, you don't have much of a choice.

You can't be objective when your own brain becomes a traitor.



These days, when my brother talks about the break, he realizes that if he could have seen himself, he would have known something was wrong, but he simply couldn't see it from the inside; he had absolutely no control over his own brain, and even refused to believe his wife or myself when we told him what we were seeing him do.


In his case, the door to his Black Iron Prison was locked.

[The unimportant one]

REALLY avoid institutions (hospitals, placement, treatment, etc.)
they  will fuck you on paper long after when your conscioussness  advances, and if you end up in a arbitrarily labeled"healthy" state later on, you will stay fucked on paper.
Also, I don't know about now, but when I was diagnosed, they were calling everyone bipolar or add.
All i really needed was self discipline and control. I AM NOT SAYING my story is typical. It's not.  BUT,  It's not the only  one like it, either. And at your age , I needed that thing you call evil, "hope".  Nobody likes being terminal.

[putz]

Nobody likes being terminal.

True story -

I was at work one day, when a cow-orker asked me what I was smiling about.  I honestly awnsered "I was just thinking about what I would do if I found out I had terminal cancer."  For me, explicit knowledge of my impending demise would be a liberating thing.  I mean, what's the point in making a five-year plan if you know you've only got six months to live?

[Felix]

That basically sums it all up.

[The unimportant one]

OK, nobody likes chronic ilness. Terminal was the wrong word.