Doh... Possible first post, gaurenteed to be completely usesless.

[Doktor Howl]

Glad to see that I have stumbled upon such an entertaining and informative group. I can only hope my own posts will be as useful to the community, as opposed to being tedious bullshit, which, it looks like they are fast approaching.

With the exception of the standard "ME SO CRAZY" claim, you seem to be doing fine so far.

[Fujikoma]

Ah, well, just getting you all prepared for the day I eventually flip out (it WILL happen, unfortunately) and say some REALLY wild shit... Better you see it coming. I'll try to keep that sort of talk to a minimum.

And thank you for your compliment, Dok... I wasn't expecting that.

[Doktor Howl]

Ah, well, just getting you all prepared for the day I eventually flip out (it WILL happen, unfortunately) and say some REALLY wild shit... Better you see it coming. I'll try to keep that sort of talk to a minimum.

And thank you for your compliment, Dok... I wasn't expecting that.

I don't know why.  I am a fairly predictable guy.  Push button A, get result B.  Problem is, some people have trouble with the concept that pushing button C doesn't get the same result as button A, if you catch my drift.  Every human being is a creature of habit to some degree.  The important part is observing those habits.¹

Thing here is:  We have a few people with (or who have had) genuine mental illnesses, myself included (nasty brain virus a little while ago, made me paranoid and delusional).  These mental illnesses make them quite miserable, and bragging about being a (presumably self-diagnosed) "psychotic" is kind of like telling a guy in a wheelchair "Wow!  I wish I was a paraplegic!  I'd never have to look for a chair!".



¹  Just kidding.  I'm actually a total bastard.

[Fujikoma]

I see. I'm not bragging, though.

Anyway, I am sorry if that kind of thing is offensive, and kind of pointless of me to even bring it up... I get your point, and this hopefully won't be an issue in the future. Thank you for taking the time to correct me.

[Doktor Howl]

I see. I'm not bragging, though.

Anyway, I am sorry if that kind of thing is offensive, and kind of pointless of me to even bring it up... I get your point, and this hopefully won't be an issue in the future. Thank you for taking the time to correct me.

It's all good.  If Pix had seen it though, there'd be nothing but blood on the walls and horrible streamers of flesh suspended from the blades of her ceiling fan, in what we call a "Southampton Maypole".

She's a brutal little thug, and she does love her malky.

[Fujikoma]

In an effort to keep the situation from worsening, I have located words that some might find offensive and eliminated them. I hope that helps.

[Doktor Howl]

In an effort to keep the situation from worsening, I have located words that some might find offensive and eliminated them. I hope that helps.

Wise move.  Pixie sees all.

[Fujikoma]

I'm also not self-diagnosed, I was found playing matador with traffic on the interstate one day by a bunch of cops, with no memory of how I got there (though, I'm not certain what that has to do with anything, I was under a lot of stress, looking for a job on foot, sat down for a minute, and then *poof*, there I was in the road). I was diagnosed bipolar. I am currently self-medicated, as, well, they cost money, MHMR will no longer treat me due to a substance abuse problem and only one doctor there was qualified to deal with that stuff, as well, the meds caused me other problems that I didn't find acceptable (though I have seen them work very well for others).

I am sorry to hear about such misfortune. I've been seeing doctors my whole life because of behavioral issues, and it was always something different, but wrong... First it was a social anxiety disorder, then it was a cognitive disorder (which got me kicked out of the Army), then I just stopped looking for answers. I've spent my whole life wondering why people seem to have such an easy time with things which cause me great difficulty, I've lost friends, relatives stopped talking to me, I've only been able to develop working coping strategies recently. It's been trial and error up to this point, now, I'm a bit better off, but, I still have my moments.

[Doktor Howl]

I'm also not self-diagnosed, I was found playing matador with traffic on the interstate one day by a bunch of cops, with no memory of how I got there (though, I'm not certain what that has to do with anything, I was under a lot of stress, looking for a job on foot, sat down for a minute, and then *poof*, there I was in the road). I was diagnosed bipolar. I am currently self-medicated, as, well, they cost money, MHMR will no longer treat me due to a substance abuse problem and only one doctor there was qualified to deal with that stuff, as well, the meds caused me other problems that I didn't find acceptable (though I have seen them work very well for others).

I am sorry to hear about such misfortune. I've been seeing doctors my whole life because of behavioral issues, and it was always something different, but wrong... First it was a social anxiety disorder, then it was a cognitive disorder (which got me kicked out of the Army), then I just stopped looking for answers. I've spent my whole life wondering why people seem to have such an easy time with things which cause me great difficulty, I've lost friends, relatives stopped talking to me, I've only been able to develop working coping strategies recently. It's been trial and error up to this point, now, I'm a bit better off, but, I still have my moments.

Ah, okay, so you're one of the walking wounded, along with Pix, Dok Vitriol, myself, and others.

[Kai]

I'm also not self-diagnosed, I was found playing matador with traffic on the interstate one day by a bunch of cops, with no memory of how I got there (though, I'm not certain what that has to do with anything, I was under a lot of stress, looking for a job on foot, sat down for a minute, and then *poof*, there I was in the road). I was diagnosed bipolar. I am currently self-medicated, as, well, they cost money, MHMR will no longer treat me due to a substance abuse problem and only one doctor there was qualified to deal with that stuff, as well, the meds caused me other problems that I didn't find acceptable (though I have seen them work very well for others).

I am sorry to hear about such misfortune. I've been seeing doctors my whole life because of behavioral issues, and it was always something different, but wrong... First it was a social anxiety disorder, then it was a cognitive disorder (which got me kicked out of the Army), then I just stopped looking for answers. I've spent my whole life wondering why people seem to have such an easy time with things which cause me great difficulty, I've lost friends, relatives stopped talking to me, I've only been able to develop working coping strategies recently. It's been trial and error up to this point, now, I'm a bit better off, but, I still have my moments.

Ah, okay, so you're one of the walking wounded, along with Pix, Dok Vitriol, myself, and others.

PILLS HERE.

[Fujikoma]

Hahaha!... Those durned automated "teammates" would run halfway across the map, like they had some kind of magic nose for pills... The music changes, incomming attack

Louis: PILLS HERE!
Francis: Grabbin' pills.
Zoey: PILLS HERE!
Bill: Oh god-fuck NO!

Yeah, I mostly stick to melatonin, DMAE, THC and alcohol these days, though the alcohol is a REALLY bad idea, it makes me feel better for a little while... Over the counter stuff, nothing too dangerous, except the melatonin might be dangerous, it helps with sleeping and keeps my mood a little more positive. DMAE is just a precursor for choline and acetyl-choline, and that seems to keep me rather stable for some reason I really can't figure out. THC keeps me mellow, and distracts me from negative emotions, but it's not like I use it all the time, only every once in a while, when I feel I REALLY need it.

I could go into more detail as far as things I've seen and done, but I think I've said enough for now... Some of it... Is really, really embarrassing, and I don't want to even think about it, much less talk about it.

[Doktor Howl]

Lorezapam, here, in ever-increasing doses.  It's the only thing that lets me sleep without horrible fucking side effects, but I'm developing a tolerance to it at an astounding rate.

[Fujikoma]

Sometimes I have to get shitfaced drunk just to go to sleep... Otherwise I'll stay up for days. Then, sometimes, getting drunk enough to sleep causes me to sleep for days. It's not like that all the time, though. Sorry to hear you're developing such a tolerance.

[Doktor Howl]

Sometimes I have to get shitfaced drunk just to go to sleep... Otherwise I'll stay up for days. Then, sometimes, getting drunk enough to sleep causes me to sleep for days. It's not like that all the time, though. Sorry to hear you're developing such a tolerance.

Well, if it does the trick, who gives a shit if I'm addicted?  It's like being addicted to insulin.  You gotta have it (I simply don't sleep at all without some form of valium/synthetic valium), you gotta have it.

[Pope Pixie Pickle]

Rispiredone here!

low dose, am starting to adjust pretty well to it...

Anyway, Fuji, your ok with me.