I'm Tired

[Q. G. Pennyworth]

Thank you, Trip.

Dok, you want me to respond to you here, or in the other thread?

[Mistre]

I know how you feel, Queen '-'

[Doktor Howl]

Thank you, Trip.

Dok, you want me to respond to you here, or in the other thread?

I'd really rather you didn't bother, QG.  You've said enough already.

[Q. G. Pennyworth]

You know what? I was going to drop this because you asked, but you just dragged me into your shit with RWHN in yet another thread, so too fucking bad.

You have now three times gone off on me for colluding with someone you've got pre-existing drama with, and not one of those times did I deserve it. I was never part of any of these vendettas, you just lumped me in with people you don't like because I said something you misinterpreted (in the case with the Cram ones) or didn't find funny (I like dry pedantic humor, sorry you don't). And then you tell me to fuck off when I called you on the passive aggressive "I'll just take my writing elsewhere" bullshit. And got me mad enough to take a short break. And it shoudln't have gotten to me not because you are a puppy but because I've been on the internet for long enough that a "fuck off" shouldn't mean a damn thing and you've flown off the handle at enough people around here in the very, very short time I've been around to make it clear that your fuse is a little short.

And then, when I tried venting in the rant section specifically about how I don't have the energy to deal with peoples expectations of me, you immediately respond with what looks like an extremely condescending comment congratulating me on giving in to The Machine or Them or whatever you want to call it. Piling on more implied "you should be better" when I've just gotten finished saying I can't handle the bullshit. When I've already admitted that I am in an incredibly irrational, angry head space and I'm just trying to get it out.

I don't think that I need to apologize for either 1) a remark you didn't like that happened to coincide with similar remarks from another user you don't like or 2) comparing my reaction to your behavior to a reaction to a different, equally common and unremarkable behavior. I did not intend for anyone to read that comparison as calling you a puppy, in hindsight it's possible that I could have worded it in such a way that it wasn't taken like that. So, I am sorry for the poor wording.

When you came on here and told folks you were in a bad headspace, I don't remember anyone yelling at you for the behavior you said you were having difficulty controlling. 

[Doktor Howl]

You know what? I was going to drop this because you asked, but you just dragged me into your shit with RWHN in yet another thread, so too fucking bad.

You have now three times gone off on me for colluding with someone you've got pre-existing drama with, and not one of those times did I deserve it. I was never part of any of these vendettas, you just lumped me in with people you don't like because I said something you misinterpreted (in the case with the Cram ones) or didn't find funny (I like dry pedantic humor, sorry you don't). And then you tell me to fuck off when I called you on the passive aggressive "I'll just take my writing elsewhere" bullshit. And got me mad enough to take a short break. And it shoudln't have gotten to me not because you are a puppy but because I've been on the internet for long enough that a "fuck off" shouldn't mean a damn thing and you've flown off the handle at enough people around here in the very, very short time I've been around to make it clear that your fuse is a little short.

And then, when I tried venting in the rant section specifically about how I don't have the energy to deal with peoples expectations of me, you immediately respond with what looks like an extremely condescending comment congratulating me on giving in to The Machine or Them or whatever you want to call it. Piling on more implied "you should be better" when I've just gotten finished saying I can't handle the bullshit. When I've already admitted that I am in an incredibly irrational, angry head space and I'm just trying to get it out.

I don't think that I need to apologize for either 1) a remark you didn't like that happened to coincide with similar remarks from another user you don't like or 2) comparing my reaction to your behavior to a reaction to a different, equally common and unremarkable behavior. I did not intend for anyone to read that comparison as calling you a puppy, in hindsight it's possible that I could have worded it in such a way that it wasn't taken like that. So, I am sorry for the poor wording.

When you came on here and told folks you were in a bad headspace, I don't remember anyone yelling at you for the behavior you said you were having difficulty controlling.

1.  My response in this thread was intended as "Why are you letting yourself get put in a cage for other peoples' benefit?"  That got a "fuck you".  Fair enough.

2.  My earlier "fuck you" was based on the fact that after you derailed my thread, we talked about it and I got more than a little upset when you thought it was funny, mentioning that you'd been on a "kick of destroying jokes with science for the last 2 weeks".

3.  Implying that someone has no individuality or isn't human is about the only insult that will set most Discordians off.  The way you bolded the "you" in the puppy comment came across very strongly as "You cannot be held to the same standards as an actual person".

4.  This is the 3rd time today that people have accused me of having mood swings or a short fuse (the other two are coworkers).  You People make no sense.

[Q. G. Pennyworth]

I never meant to say or imply you're not an actual person. I don't think it should be insulting to recognize the fact that different people have different tolerances for bullshit, any more than it would be insulting to recognize that some people can't handle tragedy well. My tolerance for everything is incredibly low right now and it's scary and upsetting and I'm frankly hurt that my attempts to explain that my head is broken and it feels bad got me yelled at by several members of the forum. It probably could have been done more artfully, but if I was in a space where I could do that I probably wouldn't need to vent right now. Yes, I am a screaming monkey.

[Doktor Howl]

I never meant to say or imply you're not an actual person. I don't think it should be insulting to recognize the fact that different people have different tolerances for bullshit, any more than it would be insulting to recognize that some people can't handle tragedy well.

I see that now; the original statement didn't look that way.

My tolerance for everything is incredibly low right now and it's scary and upsetting and I'm frankly hurt that my attempts to explain that my head is broken and it feels bad got me yelled at by several members of the forum. It probably could have been done more artfully, but if I was in a space where I could do that I probably wouldn't need to vent right now. Yes, I am a screaming monkey.

I'm sorry about that, though I think it was your response to my response that got the yelling, not the OP.  What I had said was intended to mean that you can't let people cage you with their expectations, and apparently that was taken the wrong way, the same as I took your puppy comment in a manner which you did not intend.  So, again, sorry.

[Q. G. Pennyworth]

For what it's worth, I'm sorry too.

Hopefully I'll be bipedal again in the near future.

[Doktor Howl]

For what it's worth, I'm sorry too.

Hopefully I'll be bipedal again in the near future.

Everyone lowers themselves onto their knuckles once in a while.  I know I do, more often than most people that know better.