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Feelin a lot like this lately

Started by Sir Squid Diddimus, January 24, 2013, 04:41:37 AM

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Mesozoic Mister Nigel

"I'm guessing it was January 2007, a meeting in Bethesda, we got a bag of bees and just started smashing them on the desk," Charles Wick said. "It was very complicated."


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LMNO

That movie clip freaks me out.

Squid, what sounds are your trigger?

Sir Squid Diddimus

I left messages on 3 different psychologists lines. Whoever calls back first, wins. That's how it is huh? Need appointment, leave message?
Shitty.

I made a list of trigger sounds (many I'm embarrassed about) but let's be honest here, this whole thing is kind of self humiliating.
I can't even eat dinner at the table with my family.

triggers include (but are not limited to):
mouth, nose and throat sounds:
smacking, chewing, swallowing, mincing, P's, S's, Th's, whistling, eating, hissing, crunching, sniffling, snorting, nose blowing, sneezing, phlegm, coughing, clearing throat, other thick goobery sounds.
clicking, tapping, rhythmic thumping, drumming, banging, kitchen sounds like pots and pans, silverware or ceramics.
singing (on or off key), humming, mispronunciation of simple words, laughing, heavy breathing, sighing, heavy slow stepping (clop clop clop)
rubbing hands/feet together, panty hose of fat legs rubbing, fat people talking about food, people mumbling at me or whispering, engines revving, heavy trucks, beeping while backing up, high pitched shrill voices, birds singing or screeching, dogs barking or whining, all sounds from children or babies: crying, laughing, talking.Children actually make me flee.
crumpling/crinkling, messin around with chip bags for too long, stammering, stuttering, tires screeching, cell phone notifications and other beeping electronics, sirens, flashing lights, phones ringing, loud motorcycles.

I've even noticed visual and other triggers like watching people eat, spitting, leaning back in chairs on 2 feet, fox news and the taste of artificial watermelon and apple

I have no idea why these things bother me so much but the shit consumes me. It's like my whole life is filled with rage, anger, frustration, wanting to scream or beat the hell out of people to make them shut up.
My blood pressure is getting out of control and so is my behavior.
This stuff all makes me want to die. every day.

But I never knew there was an actual thing for this. A name.
I always just though I was an unreasonable, raging twat.
Just found out I'm not alone.

The Good Reverend Roger

The sound of someone slurping with a straw sends me right up a fucking tree, so I feel your pain.
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The Good Reverend Roger

Quote from: Sir Squid Diddimus on January 24, 2013, 06:50:34 PM
I have no idea why these things bother me so much but the shit consumes me. It's like my whole life is filled with rage, anger, frustration, wanting to scream or beat the hell out of people to make them shut up.
My blood pressure is getting out of control and so is my behavior.

This is my life, but not because of straws.

It's because people acting stupidly drives me batshit.  Even - especially - when it's me doing it.
" It's just that Depeche Mode were a bunch of optimistic loveburgers."
- TGRR, shaming himself forever, 7/8/2017

"Billy, when I say that ethics is our number one priority and safety is also our number one priority, you should take that to mean exactly what I said. Also quality. That's our number one priority as well. Don't look at me that way, you're in the corporate world now and this is how it works."
- TGRR, raising the bar at work.

LMNO

Whoa.

All that, and your husband's music is perfectly ok?

Weird, indeed.

Sir Squid Diddimus

 :sad: no. I just tolerate it cause I love him.

LMNO

Ah.  I'd say that's a lot of love.

Sir Squid Diddimus

Well, he can limit his music to his headphones or his room and I can shut it out. I don't want to do or say anything to discourage him from being creative.

However he's the loudest food smacker, foot rubber, shoe stomper I've ever heard and it makes me feel horrible that something as simple as him walking across the house make me want to choke the shit out of him. Poor guy. Just tryin to walk and here I am picturing murdering him.
i feel like a jerk

P3nT4gR4m

Sound like shit Squid. How long you had this? Maybe it's not curable, like I think you mentioned on FB but most psychological things become at least a bit less annoying and a bit more manageable once you become aware of it in the context of a pathology.

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Sir Squid Diddimus

Since I can remember. My pillow used to keep me awake when I was small. Crunching all up in my ear.

I think it may be hereditary as well. I recall things my mom used to say about noises people made (my grandmother mincing) and watching her cringe when she spoke, and understanding.

Mr Squid discovered this and was like "omg this is YOU" and made me read up on it. the more I read the more I laughed, till I cried.

Anna Mae Bollocks

Some of that shit does it to me. I can't stand people smacking food, or sirens if they get too close.
A lot of this neurological stuff is poorly understood - I can't wear clothing with stiff tags, either, it feels like pins sticking in me and actually leaves a red rash, but I don't fit the ADHD profile.

Where's Nigel? She's usually got insights into these things.
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Mesozoic Mister Nigel

I'm gonna wrote a paper about your things, Squiddy, it's fascinating! I have a sensitivity to sounds, especially repetitive sounds, and I cannot deal with listening to someone eat in an otherwise quiet room, and oh my god the TV being on all the time and cell phone blinging (it drives me fucking CRAZY when someone has their phone on them and it keeps making noise... turn off the sound, fucko, you keep checking it constantly anyway and there are other people in the world who don't need to know you got a fucking text) and all that shit irritates the fuck out of me. But nothing near the level you describe, and plus I like music.

"I'm guessing it was January 2007, a meeting in Bethesda, we got a bag of bees and just started smashing them on the desk," Charles Wick said. "It was very complicated."