You should be proud of yourself!

[Anna Mae Bollocks]

today I am doing a benefit advice training course and going to channel Nigel at my housemate's lazy non-cleaning-and-owes-us-£60-for-June's-bills-ass. He is more scared of payne than me. Today, I will show who you need to be afraid of at Casa Spag.

Yesterday i did a full day of debt advice training after drinking waay too much on Friday night and I made it through pretty well really... (I took it right up to the nose touching the wall stage of oh fuck I'm fucked up and managed not to collide with the wall).

also, yay for faith based charities that don't pray at every fucking intermission. here for the skills, not Jeebus, kthx.

Just remember, Pixie, in your heart you are TEN FEET TALL AND MADE OF TITANIUM. When you talk to them, don't forget that, and make LOTS OF EYE CONTACT, like TOO MUCH EYE CONTACT.

YES. THIS.

Ten feet tall, titanium, with fucking TALONS and FLAMES SHOOTING OUT OF YOUR EYES and shit.

It's FUN.

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

I spent nearly all of last night being complimented on my bone structure by near-strangers on the Internet. It's not much, and it's an accident of birth, but it gave me the warm and fuzzies.

Oh, and I finally complimented a girl I've been into for a while. Which is a huge step for someone with social anxiety like mine. Again, warm and fuzzies.

Yay!

So, some background: She's been a friend of mine on the Internet for a while, and I've always sort of had feelings for her, but I was terrified she wouldn't reciprocate, so I repressed them. But she's also always been very heavily teasing me about it in a way that I always assumed was sarcasm. Anyway, lately she's been flat-out complimenting me on my appearance, and I haven't had any idea how to interpret it. I've had a long history of being on the butt end of psychological abuse and mind games, so I don't really know how to take a compliment or when they're genuine. I finally assumed she meant it, and repaid her in kind, and that led to this really awkward and confusing conversation today in which I flat-out told her how I felt and beat myself up a bit over it, and you know what? She's totally into me too.

I'm not used to the idea of being loved, or even liked. For me, this is like meeting LeVar Burton in person. It's like being a hardcore Dawkins-wannabe atheist, and taking a trip to heaven, and finding out that it really is paradise, and a just one at that. I guess what I'm trying to get at is that it goes completely against my belief system and it seems too good to be true. Seriously, this is the best BIP-smashing I have ever had. Right now the entire inside of my head is like this.

THAT IS SUPER AWESOME!

[President Television]

I spent nearly all of last night being complimented on my bone structure by near-strangers on the Internet. It's not much, and it's an accident of birth, but it gave me the warm and fuzzies.

Oh, and I finally complimented a girl I've been into for a while. Which is a huge step for someone with social anxiety like mine. Again, warm and fuzzies.

Yay!

So, some background: She's been a friend of mine on the Internet for a while, and I've always sort of had feelings for her, but I was terrified she wouldn't reciprocate, so I repressed them. But she's also always been very heavily teasing me about it in a way that I always assumed was sarcasm. Anyway, lately she's been flat-out complimenting me on my appearance, and I haven't had any idea how to interpret it. I've had a long history of being on the butt end of psychological abuse and mind games, so I don't really know how to take a compliment or when they're genuine. I finally assumed she meant it, and repaid her in kind, and that led to this really awkward and confusing conversation today in which I flat-out told her how I felt and beat myself up a bit over it, and you know what? She's totally into me too.

I'm not used to the idea of being loved, or even liked. For me, this is like meeting LeVar Burton in person. It's like being a hardcore Dawkins-wannabe atheist, and taking a trip to heaven, and finding out that it really is paradise, and a just one at that. I guess what I'm trying to get at is that it goes completely against my belief system and it seems too good to be true. Seriously, this is the best BIP-smashing I have ever had. Right now the entire inside of my head is like this.

THAT IS SUPER AWESOME!

It's great, an hour ago I was getting all miserable and melodramatic over it. Best 180 of my life. This has, by extension, called all the rest of my depression and pathological self-hatred into question. I feel like getting shit done. Paralysis gone.

[LMNO]

That is some of the best news I've heard in a week. Good on you, sistah.

[GrannySmith]

President Television - that is really great!!

today I am doing a benefit advice training course and going to channel Nigel at my housemate's lazy non-cleaning-and-owes-us-£60-for-June's-bills-ass. He is more scared of payne than me. Today, I will show who you need to be afraid of at Casa Spag.

Yesterday i did a full day of debt advice training after drinking waay too much on Friday night and I made it through pretty well really... (I took it right up to the nose touching the wall stage of oh fuck I'm fucked up and managed not to collide with the wall).

also, yay for faith based charities that don't pray at every fucking intermission. here for the skills, not Jeebus, kthx.

Just remember, Pixie, in your heart you are TEN FEET TALL AND MADE OF TITANIUM. When you talk to them, don't forget that, and make LOTS OF EYE CONTACT, like TOO MUCH EYE CONTACT.

YES. THIS.

Ten feet tall, titanium, with fucking TALONS and FLAMES SHOOTING OUT OF YOUR EYES and shit.

It's FUN.

YES!!!!! Every now and then I try to feel like that - it rarely works unfortunately...
One day I dream I will be able to perform a 100% honest turkey curse. then i imagine i will really by ten feet tall and made of titanium

[Q. G. Pennyworth]

I posted a video I've been sitting on for three months!

I don't know where to look for these?
Are we allowed to see it?
*Looks hopeful*

It's Anonymous stuff, dunno if it's anyone's cup of tea around here.

Yes, it totally is.

https://vimeo.com/61343844

Title and description are kinda dumb, and it's not my best work (had some major problems attempting to save it in good HD), but I'm still pretty proud.

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

I posted a video I've been sitting on for three months!

I don't know where to look for these?
Are we allowed to see it?
*Looks hopeful*

It's Anonymous stuff, dunno if it's anyone's cup of tea around here.

Yes, it totally is.

https://vimeo.com/61343844

Title and description are kinda dumb, and it's not my best work (had some major problems attempting to save it in good HD), but I'm still pretty proud.

Wow, dude, that was awesome! It was the first thing in a very long time that stirred in me feelings that I would describe as "patriotism"; not to my country, but to the movement, and to freedom.

Also, BEST SLOGAN EVER: "We will be the jerks that the world needs"  !

[Doktor Howl]

I posted a video I've been sitting on for three months!

I don't know where to look for these?
Are we allowed to see it?
*Looks hopeful*

It's Anonymous stuff, dunno if it's anyone's cup of tea around here.

Yes, it totally is.

https://vimeo.com/61343844

Title and description are kinda dumb, and it's not my best work (had some major problems attempting to save it in good HD), but I'm still pretty proud.

Wow, dude, that was awesome! It was the first thing in a very long time that stirred in me feelings that I would describe as "patriotism"; not to my country, but to the movement, and to freedom.

Also, BEST SLOGAN EVER: "We will be the jerks that the world needs"  !

Nigel:  She's a JERK, but she's the jerk America NEEDS.

TGRR:  He may be dead, but he's still YOUR ASSHOLE.

[Doktor Howl]

Some days continuing to suck oxygen is a triumph, you know?
Or actually tossing one's cookies in the toilet and not all over the place.
Life's hard.
I wanted to kind of celebrate little victories, give each other cred.

Today I rode 5 miles when I really wasn't feeling like it.
I meditated.
I was feeling hopeless and worthless again,  so I argued myself into an ok mood whilst showering.

How about y'all?

Down 2 jean sizes again, blood pressure more or less normal, feeling pretty good, physically.

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

I posted a video I've been sitting on for three months!

I don't know where to look for these?
Are we allowed to see it?
*Looks hopeful*

It's Anonymous stuff, dunno if it's anyone's cup of tea around here.

Yes, it totally is.

https://vimeo.com/61343844

Title and description are kinda dumb, and it's not my best work (had some major problems attempting to save it in good HD), but I'm still pretty proud.

Wow, dude, that was awesome! It was the first thing in a very long time that stirred in me feelings that I would describe as "patriotism"; not to my country, but to the movement, and to freedom.

Also, BEST SLOGAN EVER: "We will be the jerks that the world needs"  !

Nigel:  She's a JERK, but she's the jerk America NEEDS.

TGRR:  He may be dead, but he's still YOUR ASSHOLE.

I love it!

[trippinprincezz13]

I posted a video I've been sitting on for three months!

I don't know where to look for these?
Are we allowed to see it?
*Looks hopeful*

It's Anonymous stuff, dunno if it's anyone's cup of tea around here.

Yes, it totally is.

https://vimeo.com/61343844

Title and description are kinda dumb, and it's not my best work (had some major problems attempting to save it in good HD), but I'm still pretty proud.

Awesome job! Ditto on what Nigel said about feelings and such.

[Pergamos]

I cheered up a friend who is having a hard time right now.

[Left]

I cheered up a friend who is having a hard time right now.

[Q. G. Pennyworth]

Thanks everyone for the high praise!

[Salty]

CPD - That is super awesome.

I rode 26 miles with a bike trailer across this god forsaken town.

Then again, when you take the trails and avoid the traffic it feels a lot less god forsaken.