Jekyll and Hide and Go Seek

[Edward Longpork]

I know a young Sun God. The way he lives his life is inspirational to me.

When you see him at a party, he's friendly, energetic, outgoing, easy to approach, interested in what you are talking about, fun to be around.

When he's at work, he's the same guy.

I find this trait, dare I say, heroic.


You could say my psyche is more fragmented and compartmentalized. When I'm at work, I feel like a different person - and it's not always a fun person to be. The job demands someone who is detail oriented, professional, submissive. A lot of the traits which make me fun to be around must be tucked away.

A few months ago I was at a corporate training session for something or other. The guy in charge was basically just running a script. He was doing all the textbook things which make you a good speaker - enunciating, making eye contact, clear phasing, giving time to ask questions... but I couldn't help but feel that I was interfacing with a script, not a human. Anything which humanized him was tucked away deep behind those eyes. Maybe this is just my own hangup, that I feel alienated by the Persona.

But as I grow, it feels less alienating. I understand why you have to build a wall between the personal and the professional--it's a survival trait. I can't help but wonder what effect this has.

[Meunster]

Has the sun god guy been working for awhile?
At my script reading job for costumer satisfaction I felt very dehumanizied at first, but once I got the script down I was able to addlib some and let some personality show.

[The Wizard Joseph]

I sometimes wonder how we developed the capacity to compartmentalize at all. It is so strong of a trait that an entire persona can spawn from extraordinary distress to "carry the load". The mind and it's mysteries have fascinated me since childhood. I do not claim expertise upon that or any other subject. But I can say that the separation of mind within a person is to my experience much like any other form of flexibility. Some are more capable than others. This capability can be improved with much practice and healthy lifestyle choices. Everything has a breaking point. This also varies. I have no idea if the "professional" world can be considered objectively healthy or not. I suspect it's truly dependant on x factors within the individual's "black box". I wonder sometimes how truly individual, indivisible, or perhaps malleable the mind can be. Fuckin' mysteries man.

[minuspace]

To Reduce Stress:
http://time.com/3961416/chinese-workers-noface-masks/