Sure, lets go with that, as long as you never look any closer, you wont have crushing disappointment
Oh... that's just not true. I just see a lot more bad than good by nature and have adapted conscious countermeasures so that I don't see TOO clearly and have my expectations about folks met... over and over. I don't do this to make myself comfortable. I do it because my negative bias is useless and hurts others for nobody's gain if unchecked.
Soo... like you, it would seem, I turn it on myself all too frequently. I'm trying to unlearn the habit of turning on myself.
Let me put my actual perspective on you here. I don't know much at all about you or how you do, but I'm thankful for this board and the things you do here to maintain it in a way that I have trouble expressing coherently. So stop hitting yourself please.