Fighting mental illness.

[The Wizard Joseph]

Had therapy today. We're going to continue with in-person sessions as long as there's no risk of exposure. She's fine with phone and virtual sessions, but she also understands that some of us HAVE to get out of the house. I'll be going weekly now, instead of bimonthly.

It's been suggested I get the fuck off of social media, and find ways to occupy my mind. Not necessarily crafts, since I can work with my hands and still dwell on shit, but work on other, more engaging materials like writing, or language studies, or something where I have to be focused.

Pleas Suu tell uz an history story! Be the brutal and teh bitchy. I haz need of educate.

[Suu]

Had therapy today. We're going to continue with in-person sessions as long as there's no risk of exposure. She's fine with phone and virtual sessions, but she also understands that some of us HAVE to get out of the house. I'll be going weekly now, instead of bimonthly.

It's been suggested I get the fuck off of social media, and find ways to occupy my mind. Not necessarily crafts, since I can work with my hands and still dwell on shit, but work on other, more engaging materials like writing, or language studies, or something where I have to be focused.

The most recent post I made just went moderately viral. We'll see how it goes. I have a friend who wants to read it as a spoken word project.

I'm also going to finish writing my dystopian novel, and then write a screed for TBH since people want me to.

Pleas Suu tell uz an history story! Be the brutal and teh bitchy. I haz need of educate.

[Hagtard Celine Dion Mustard]

The quarantine is mostly normal life for me. When I work, it's sporadic; I make a lot of money all at once instead of having a wage and regular hours. So I wind up spending weeks, months, being at home and doing whatever.

It does lead to madness; I'm mad. I'm fucking insane. But I'm starting to become comfortable with it, to the point where I've finally started to think that seeing a therapist would be a very good idea. I have personal and existential issues I'm pretty sure most psychiatrists aren't prepared to handle.

[Juana]

The depression/cabin fever is starting to creep in. I really need, I think, to make sure I talk to other people outside the family bc I'm starting to get to the point where like things upset me way more than they should and I'm trying not to think about how long we're going to have socially isolate.

[Doktor Howl]

The depression/cabin fever is starting to creep in. I really need, I think, to make sure I talk to other people outside the family bc I'm starting to get to the point where like things upset me way more than they should and I'm trying not to think about how long we're going to have socially isolate.

This is really where my misanthropy pays off, now that I think about it.

It's been QUIET.  People have finally SHUT THE FUCK UP.

Except for Kyle, but he will not SHUT UP, even when he is dead.  I shall have to hire a steamroller to smash his grave down once a month.

[Juana]

The depression/cabin fever is starting to creep in. I really need, I think, to make sure I talk to other people outside the family bc I'm starting to get to the point where like things upset me way more than they should and I'm trying not to think about how long we're going to have socially isolate.

This is really where my misanthropy pays off, now that I think about it.

It's been QUIET.  People have finally SHUT THE FUCK UP.

Except for Kyle, but he will not SHUT UP, even when he is dead.  I shall have to hire a steamroller to smash his grave down once a month.

I like people, so fair

[Cain]

Seriously, it's not affecting me at all. I'm not very sociable IRL (though I also have the advantage of doing a lot of socialising online anyway) but I don't feel like I'm suffering, really.

[Juana]

Lucky you, lol. I'm an extrovert, mostly, so that's why. I talked to my bff and Net today, so I'm feeling better than I was yesterday or before.

[P3nT4gR4m]

I'm happy enough in introvert or extrovert mode. I am enjoying taking the dog out for a walk on a sunny day and not seeing crowds of stoopids milling about doing retarded shit. There's also a fresh airness that you used to have to go way up north for and the constant drone of traffic is gone. My internal dialogue during these times no longer sounds like the narrator from fight club. In a year or so's time, when this is over I'm gonna miss it. But, fuck it, the party will be legendary!

[Hagtard Celine Dion Mustard]

It's never going to be over.

[Juana]

It's never going to be over.

That's the most actively unhelpful thing anyone has said to me on the subject. Thanks.~

[P3nT4gR4m]

It's never going to be over.

Don't be such a pessimist. Of course it will. Something worse is bound to come along.

[The Wizard Joseph]

It's never going to be over.

My one consolation is that at least one day YOU will be, and so the burden of bearing consciousness will eventually ease up a tiny bit.

[Doktor Howl]

It's never going to be over.

Optimist.

[Odibex Grallspice]

I've got a situation to explain and it probably doesn't relevant to you. you see, I'm really mentally ill and when this all started I was already only leaving the house once every two or three months. for drs appointments. outside of that, the only real-world social interaction I had was when I needed- need. when I need to sign for a package. I have everything delivered, groceries get left at the door.

so none of this was any kind of issue to me, and I really have no practical chances of becoming a Covid. the first it even bothered me was when TP became unavailable; many stores changed listing for essential items to "in-store only" - no idea what that's about.  the second was when a show I was watch suspended production. that got to me.

furthermore, to the little-to-no rl contact thing, all my online venues are now unviable. generally the only social experience I have is if someone responds to an YouTube comment I've left. this started in, let's say, a year and a quarter ago. I'd put all my eggs in Facebook, and when I kinda stopped posting there, or rather when I tried to start again -  they don't circulate your posts. and I didn't have the fortitude to persist through that. I deactivated a couple months ago.

I legitimately have almost no social contact and it's not all that bad. I know it's not healthy, and I'm not happy with it, but I'm kinda impressed it hasn't destroyed me. I dunno, maybe these meds don't let you get depressed. I spent a lot of time alone even when I was a kid so I guess I was uniquely qualified.

this all seemed related to the topic but I'm not super sure how. I'm in no position to tell people to do this or that, I don't do anything. I do suspect having no social contact makes it more unlikely I'll get around to doing the things I need to. buuut that was a problem before too. honestly I think I may've gotten somewhat more creative over the past year. I don't believe any of this is permanent for anyone, it's like putting a sponge back in water, it quickly returns shape. but, sure, if you're already having problems this can't help. it may be worth it in the long run though. it will grant perspective and change how people value their fellows. it really will. this is the sort of thing like defines generations and alters zeitgeists. who knows their might be a bit of licorice in for you as well. you enjoy licorice don't you?