Nyborj, you don’t know my story so I forgive this transgression.
For the future, understand that I have been on the streets without a proper safety net for ten years, seen shit I won’t tell my best fucking friends about under pain of death, and have such a survival instinct that I am literally confounded by the concept of suicide: I do not know how to go about it.
I am not a tender snowflake. I can deal you grievous psychic damage in text alone if you have any “nope spots”, without making shit up or telling lies. The centipede nest in the abandoned house, the black mattress in the prison, that fucking thing in my second childhood apartment building, there is a long list of stuff to draw upon, and I’m still here.
Someone mentioning that we have options for opting out of civilization is not going to hurt my feelings. It is a fact I remind myself of often, because we all need a backup plan, and I don’t have many left.
I understand you may come from different places, where sensitivity is an important part of the community culture. Not here. But it’s important to note: We don’t hurt feelings for lulz, this isn’t some “lol PC culture gone too far lol” shit. No, we do it to tear the socially acceptable mask and the rote call-response rehearsed conversational script away and see each other, monkey to monkey, and have a REAL, HONEST chat. It’s adversarial, its vulnerability in the face of hostility, it’s not for everyone, but it’s our thing.
Don’t protect me from what isn’t a threat.