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Started by Junkenstein, July 09, 2020, 06:38:37 PM

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Scribbly

Things are slowly getting better.

I am continuing to wrestle with my insurance to get towards a point where I can cut down the cost of my treatment considerably. It has been an agonisingly slow process and I'm still nowhere near the end of it, but I do now have the bit of paper that says I am Officially Trans.

Work continues to be very difficult but it has been for years at this point. It is also necessary that I stick with it until the insurance has sorted everything at a bare minimum. Nowhere else offers this level of coverage in the UK, so I'm locked in with this company for the foreseeable. Which is fine. I've started taking steps to make myself more secure here, and if this is what I wind up doing for the next 5 years or so as I milk this policy for everything it is worth ... I can live with that.

It helps that work have also given us a generous two year pay deal and an extra £500 to cover Christmas. Financially, things should ease up for me a lot next year, especially if the insurance works out.

Holiday season is going to be a nuisance. Housemate's partner is coming to stay from the 5th Dec - 5th Jan and we do not have the room to comfortably sustain that. They are also really pushing hard on the 'I want to socialise and do tons of things all the time' angle. Which would be fine under normal circumstances. But I am very tired, I mostly want to hermit and get through the season. I may have to try and explain this diplomatically.

I haven't made any progress on writing or reading projects. But I am still here. I have a plan. I'm going to stick to it. Things will get better.
I had an existential crisis and all I got was this stupid gender.

altered

Good to hear things aren't all awful, Scribbly.

I also have issues with work, though it's finding work in my case.
"I am that worst of all type of criminal...I cannot bring myself to do what you tell me, because you told me."

There's over 100 of us in this meat-suit. You'd think it runs like a ship, but it's more like a hundred and ten angry ghosts having an old-school QuakeWorld tournament, three people desperately trying to make sure the gamers don't go hungry or soil themselves, and the Facilities manager weeping in the corner as the garbage piles high.

Saint K1000

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Still very much a newbie, please be nice.

Faust

No it's a broken chmod permission, I'll take a look this week
Sleepless nights at the chateau

Doktor Howl

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Molon Lube

altered

Been busy dealing with shitty life things (like actually running out of food, like for real) but I found the time to do mix feedback for the past two days. It was for the Memorrhage LP2 coming out some time in 2024.

Garry released the first track on LP2 as a single recently, and it's a decent example of what to expect. Really aggressive, unafraid to experiment, maximalist as fuck.

https://memorrhage.bandcamp.com/track/downstone-2

I did vocals on two tracks and synths on another, so expect to hear more.

Taking a moment to just talk shop: I heard one  "hey what the fuck" moment in the entire thing, during my test listen through laptop speakers (I test through a variety of devices to ensure I pick up the biggest balance of listening environments), and it was on something that was kinda strange to begin with. Everything else, my feedback was nitpicking single hairs in a dog kennel. I couldn't even manage that for the headphones listen, that shit sounded magical.

And I don't think a big-bucks, big-name industry-titan producer could have done anything but wreck the fucking thing. All the trends in metal these days are hide the cymbals in a narrow, character-free frequency band, bury the bass guitar in the low end of the regular guitar -- even, especially if the bass is doing its own thing, pump the mids on the guitar track even after the band spends so much time scooping them on their amp settings, compress the drums until the toms sound like kicks and the kicks sound like a training bag in a boxing gym and the snares sound like bursts of white noise, never use reverb for a GOD DAMN THING, I hate it, I hate it all, and this shit is a breath of fresh air.

Musicians, learn to produce your own stuff! It's mostly vibes, it's not hard, and you will do a better job showcasing your stuff than some man who copy-pastes the EQ settings from his last big project for a paycheck.
"I am that worst of all type of criminal...I cannot bring myself to do what you tell me, because you told me."

There's over 100 of us in this meat-suit. You'd think it runs like a ship, but it's more like a hundred and ten angry ghosts having an old-school QuakeWorld tournament, three people desperately trying to make sure the gamers don't go hungry or soil themselves, and the Facilities manager weeping in the corner as the garbage piles high.

Bruno

"Officially Youtube Verified US Immigration" channel:

https://www.youtube.com/@USImmigration/featured

255k subscribers

Feels like they're trying to pass themselves off as an official us government youtube channel, but I can't tell if they are up to something nefarious, or just trying to make passive income from some AI generated content.
Formerly something else...

Chelagoras The Boulder

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Quote from: Doktor Howl on November 17, 2023, 12:59:58 AM
Quote from: Chelagoras The Boulder on November 14, 2023, 06:37:54 AMhey yall, still alive somehow. Spent pretty much this entire year living in a bad Mexican soap opera. I'll probably go into more detail when i have more spoons.

Good to see you.

But it's worth mentioning this board is a misery fest at the moment, so you are once more in a Mexican soap opera.

Altered is having a rough go, my mother just went into hospice care, and Scribbly (previously known as Demosquid) is also not dancing any fandangos. CNO seems to be doing alright.

And aside from one or two pinealists, that's all that's left.  Everyone else drifted away (by which I mean "ran") when wossername's ring wasn't properly kissed.



Damn, I'm sorry to hear everyone is going through it. Sincerely, I hope the best for you all

As for me, well in a nutshell, my dad allegedly raped my mom at the end of 2022 and my family has been slowly falling apart for a year and change now. This is made worse by the fact that my mom is a narcissist and is pushing everyone away even as she relies on us to help maintain her health. My dad has fucked off to Arizona to live with my sister and leave the rest of us to clean us their collective mess. This might be slightly more than a nutshell, but I'm also leaving out a lot of WILD shit, including my mother trying to sell my other sister's wedding gown, and also insisting on driving despite an expired license and cataracts. I might make a thread about it, idk.
"It isn't who you know, it's who you know, if you know what I mean.  And I think you do."

QuestionsTheSoil

My life is really going nowhere.
Fuck me
Lunatic Zoomer Garbage and Unholy Androgyne
I have questions that can be answered with bottles of teeth
I sift through the broken ideas of the anomalous subconscious

Doktor Howl

Quote from: QuestionsTheSoil on February 09, 2024, 03:42:52 PMMy life is really going nowhere.
Fuck me

It's not you.  It's the entire world.
Molon Lube

Cain

Mine's felt like it's been going nowhere since late 2019 (aka the long 2020).

I'm just vibing now and enjoying my creative projects, like my DMing.

The Wizard Joseph

I have been gone from here for a long time, but I am here now. I have some things to say here in the twilight, I guess. I don't know that there's time left before this escahton gets rolling, but it's time to start saying things again.
You can't get out backward.  You have to go forward to go back.. better press on! - Willie Wonka, PBUH

Life can be seen as a game with no reset button, no extra lives, and if the power goes out there is no restarting.  If that's all you see life as you are not long for this world, and never will get it.

"Ayn Rand never swung a hammer in her life and had serious dominance issues" - The Fountainhead

"World domination is such an ugly phrase. I prefer to call it world optimisation."
- Harry Potter and the Methods of Rationality :lulz:

"You program the controller to do the thing, only it doesn't do the thing.  It does something else entirely, or nothing at all.  It's like voting."
- Billy, Aug 21st, 2019

"It's not even chaos anymore. It's BANAL."
- Doktor Hamish Howl