A warning.

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Everyone you know and love will die unhoused and sick.

You will see the rug pulled out from under you and you will be helpless. A lifetime of surviving in the end times will not be enough. You will understand hopelessness.

There will be no release for you, no matter how important you are to others.

If you are particularly fortunate, you will dance the tightrope of precarity to its very outer reaches, and you will have no one left for you as the next step is swallowed by void. You might see "small business owners" and other low-grade parasites falling into the great darkness with you. It won't help.

It's too late to change this. You had your chances three years ago. Now they know they can get away with whatever they want. They're lying to your face and telling everyone else that they're your friend. They are no longer pretending to be in opposition to the raving fascists on the "other side". The two man con is exposed, and they know it doesn't matter anymore.

Everyone you know and love will die abandoned and miserable, of plague and jackboots and starvation outside of Whole Foods. Every last one of them.

Me, those like me, we will all be forgotten in ten years. Don't resolve to remember -- you'll have more important matters to attend to then. Everyone will.

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If you are an American on this forum and think you might get out okay, that the above doesn't apply to you, this almost year old piece, I regret to inform you you are wrong. I am homeless, my body is shutting down, and there is a genocide machine aimed at my head. Musk has his child soldiers in control of the treasury, literally kids fresh out of high school, his personal workers, in charge of US Treasury computers. The controlled opposition is no longer even opposing, every single congressthing is voting for the worst people you know, unanimously. Yes, your favorites too. A prison in El Salvador exists that they said out loud will house American criminals, they will deport US citizens. Covid is still here, and other diseases are crawling out of the slime

You are all going to die too, under boots or in camps or to illness or to exhaustion, you are all going to die and your loved ones will die too. You will not be saved, no one is coming to the rescue. If you escape you will have the guilt, knowing how many people you know didn't

I'm definitely not escaping, my life has all but already ended. Everyone has given up on me, there is no future, no one cares. I will never complete a fucking thing before I die. No one cares about that either. It's technically not too late, but no one will do what I need: housing and being kept alive while I apply for a deadname passport, funding my exit. It's not happening, and I'm in decline so everyone who could or would will reason someone else deserves it more, someone who can live a healthy life instead of declining broken health and trauma from years and years of pain. Someone who has a chance to be normal and okay, maybe once was normal and okay

No one is going to be okay. Okay is lost. We will all die or be broken, no human body on this land is going to make it out alright

[Doktor Howl]

Permagos was just telling me that if we start veggie gardens, we can avoid all of this.

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And what are you doing other than taking jabs? I'm not saying you're doing nothing, but if you are doing anything else you seem dead set on making sure only Your People will benefit from it, because no one else is going to trust you. And you know, this is the kind of situation where any sort of petty in-fighting is going to make it worse. You're doing the fascist's work for them: demoralizing, fragmenting, etc. In some ways I feel like it's worse, because you're going to get pissed off at me for saying this and nothing will change I'll just be even more isolated and alienated and it's a waste of my fucking time but here you are, you came to ME to show THIS off.

Don't pat yourself on the back for being right in my thread. There is no time left for self-congratulations, and anyway I don't wanna see you fucking giddy about getting your dunks in while I'm bleeding the fuck out. You, yes you, are going to die horribly too.

What are you DOING?
Who are you HELPING?
Why do you want to look like you're gonna be the one purity testing folks this time while the ravenous maw of genocide comes down?
What good is this to anyone?

Like I'm only saying this shit because I know I AM GOING TO DIE. I have no reason to hold back in the hopes you might help, because you won't even if you can, and I don't know about your capabilities anyway, so I'd rather slap you across the face and say "STOP BEING USELESS" than die letting you believe you're doing anything remotely cool right now. I respect you more than to let you unwittingly help the fucking Nazis as I go the fuck out.

And if that's a bridge too far for you then I'd rather die knowing I have proven to my satisfaction that there is no good in the hearts of man, that even the people who partly made me into the person I am today, who shaped my values in deep ways, are nothing more than stupid, petty, and evil in the face of the end, forgetting their histories and their own lessons in favor of getting to stomp on someone.

[Doktor Howl]

And what are you doing other than taking jabs? I'm not saying you're doing nothing, but if you are doing anything else you seem dead set on making sure only Your People will benefit from it, because no one else is going to trust you. And you know, this is the kind of situation where any sort of petty in-fighting is going to make it worse. You're doing the fascist's work for them: demoralizing, fragmenting, etc. In some ways I feel like it's worse, because you're going to get pissed off at me for saying this and nothing will change I'll just be even more isolated and alienated and it's a waste of my fucking time but here you are, you came to ME to show THIS off.

Don't pat yourself on the back for being right in my thread. There is no time left for self-congratulations, and anyway I don't wanna see you fucking giddy about getting your dunks in while I'm bleeding the fuck out. You, yes you, are going to die horribly too.

What are you DOING?
Who are you HELPING?
Why do you want to look like you're gonna be the one purity testing folks this time while the ravenous maw of genocide comes down?
What good is this to anyone?

Like I'm only saying this shit because I know I AM GOING TO DIE. I have no reason to hold back in the hopes you might help, because you won't even if you can, and I don't know about your capabilities anyway, so I'd rather slap you across the face and say "STOP BEING USELESS" than die letting you believe you're doing anything remotely cool right now. I respect you more than to let you unwittingly help the fucking Nazis as I go the fuck out.

And if that's a bridge too far for you then I'd rather die knowing I have proven to my satisfaction that there is no good in the hearts of man, that even the people who partly made me into the person I am today, who shaped my values in deep ways, are nothing more than stupid, petty, and evil in the face of the end, forgetting their histories and their own lessons in favor of getting to stomp on someone.

I just stopped caring.

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In situations like this, apathy is acquiescence.

I'm not going to go on some huge thing about how you're an evil person. We both know you've done good things, it's why I even bothered pushing back on this in the first place. It's a waste of our collective time to start yet another pointless unresolvable beef just to try and get my fucking licks in on someone who I respect.

Just, I'm here in bed physically feeling the fever go down after I, no joke, took a toothpick and actually ripped open a huge swath of my gums to drain the infection. I don't know how long I have until it's too late and it's all over forever. I never really, properly had a chance? I have been condemned by disability, illness, bad luck and people who don't get how precarity works and horrible timing, quite possibly the worst time for someone Like Me to be alive. And I am one of the lucky ones. And that's just, like... you don't care anymore.

I'm not attempting to change your mind and make you care here, either. Like I said, it's a waste of time, and even if there weren't other problems we both need to focus on, you have made it clear many a time your stubbornness is legendary, and you see it (and I generally, usually agree) as an asset. Just explaining my perspective: even if it's not what you MEAN, what, to me, it seems that you're saying, is that I and everyone else in my position or worse just isn't worth it. And that fucking sucks and I really have to hope you are all alone on this one. I know you aren't, but ... I have to hope. Because otherwise there will be a lot of dead bodies that deserved better that far too many people decided weren't worth the trouble. Histories, modes of living, stories, communal understandings, full epistemologies, will be lost forever, the total death and erasure of small worlds, and people deciding: yeah, that's whatever. Which maybe means that I will be one of the last people who believe in truly fighting for better things. A grim thought.

And that's all I have to say.

[Doktor Howl]

In situations like this, apathy is acquiescence.

(stopped reading right there, given your last post.)

Yeah, that's too bad.

I thought I made it as clear as possible 9.5 years ago that I am not anyone's stress ball.

I am not anyone's coping mechanism.  I am not available for that shit.  I will in fact never again be available for that shit.

If I were to do something about the fuckery going on - and I am not saying I am - the VERY last thing I would do is post about it on the internet.

So you can take your outrage and sell it to someone who might be in the market for that sort of thing.