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Peanut Butter Crunch doesn't taste as peanut buttery as it used to either.
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Certainly, I feel as though my own children feed on my life essence. The rest of them seem pretty cannibalistic as well. I wonder if that's what a chicken feels like right before it's turned into a bouillon cube...

I also like the idea of, right before giving my last breath, reaching out, grabbing the person closest to me and screaming: "I'M NOT GOIN' ALONE YOU SONOFABITCH!"

important is two letters away from impotent.

other than that   

pretty good stuff

x

edd

YOU'VE CRUSHED MY AMUSEMENT!
Man, I probably would have gone an awful long time without noticing that.
Thanks!

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Side note:
You fuckers! I've been here, two weeks or so? Yeah. Well, it gets harder to post, especially if I post little conversational things I haven't put a lot of thought into, even more so when I post something that makes me look like an asshole. I feel more exposed, like I have more to lose. Or something. I don't know. I like it here though.
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Step right up and pick a cause, any cause.

Find something to pour your wounded heart into, give it shape, keep it beating.

Make a Difference.

But what difference? What change will you impose? What is your concern?

Is it The Kids? The constant battle with The Man? Women's Rights? Health Care? Maybe just The Injustice Of It All?

Thing is...you have to pick, if you're going to care at all. You may get away moonlighting, but odds are you'll only get so far before burning out. Instinctively, we know this and settle on one or two issues and lay into them. But which to choose? What kind of basis do you decide what's important*?

Why, from your own experiences, of course. After all, why should you march and write letters and donate your weekends to stopping domestic violence unless you or someone you know was the victim of it? Oh, sure, you're not heartless, it's not like you just don't give a shit. But why should it take time out of your schedule, money out of your pocket? Right? And besides, you're giving your time and heart away to another cause, one that's just as important. Right? You can't solve all the worlds' problems, can you?

Nor should you. Too much pressure. You can turn into a real asshole trying to fix everyone and everything. I know.

So while you champion worker's rights or fight substance abuse or want to LEGALIZE IT! or what the fuck ever...

-Children are still starving to death/being beaten to death/neglegted to death/drugged to death/bombed to death/raped to death. Or worse: They're left alive after to grow with hate and bitterness and resentment and turn into, well, people like us. People "worse" than us. Sometimes, people "better" than us.

-Women still make less $ per $ than men, who so far have done a brilliant job on leadership. They're beaten by their lovers and denied healthcare coverage because domestic violence is treated as a pre-existing condition, which is to say not treated at all.  They're sex slaves in every single country. I don't mean sex-workers, I mean slaves.

-Gay people are not just kept from getting married, but kept from renting places to live, kept from employment, kept from walking down the street safely.

And this shit is just in America.

-In Egypt gays are just kept from living.
-In many places the world over women are kept from leading a life with their freedom or genitalia intact.
-Child soldiers, infant atrocities that I can't even type and don't need to.
-And of course, humanity's favorite, Oppression. We just LOVE to be the bigger monkey to as many smaller monkeys as possible. Even in civilized (pah!) society passive aggressive, beaurocratic, authoritative oppression reigns supreme. Even if you're self employed, you still gotta serve somebody.

And, my god, you all know this. You know how fucked up shit is. And yet, no matter what you've seen, odds are, there are people who have seen worse, have lived worse. Have not survived worse.

There is horror, subtle and extreme, at every level of human action. Much in the same way that disease worms its way into every aspect of the human machine, the body; so strong, so complex, yet so delicate and open to the harsh, unrelenting hand of nature. Don't get me wrong, I think there are great things about life and humanity and the fucking sunshine with the rabbits and the pink posies and all that bullshit too. Typically, I only find that when I'm out in the middle of nowhere, completely alone, without a sound that comes from a machine. Yet, I find things worth looking for inside of these vapid, stupid, selfish monkeys as well, but only every now and again. Drops in the bucket.

So, do I suggest that you take your cause and shove it up your ass?

No.

I like people who have something to care about. Even if it's something stupid. Even if it's really, REALLY, just an escape from the horror. Even if it's doing more harm than good (because who the fuck knows one single measure that does the opposite universally? Over-hydration can kill you FFS). Anything, any fucking thing but that slack-jawed, glassy-eyed, strained-neck-and-stooped shoulder look of those god-damned zombies. God DAMMIT how do those people not get the zombie metaphor? How can they not SEE IT? Fucking pisses me off. Sorry, lost track...


I DO want you to pick a cause, any cause, and care about it and defend it and make it your own.

But I DO want you to notice the teeth around your neck while you struggle and flail; and though it may take a long time, I want you to notice that your struggles are in vain. The teeth will snap shut.

Or worse, the teeth might miss and leave your body serene and intact, but your mind scarred forever.

I want that you to know that. That's my cause. Well, one of them.






*It is a constant source of my own amusement that important is TWO letters away from impotent.




Edit: for htmfail and other assorted fail.

One of her campaign promises (that she BROKE) during her race for governer she was to bring Creation Science (sciencelol) to alaskan schools. *sigh* I was really looking forward to those parent-teacher conferences. I still remember the sweet, sweet pain in the eyes of all those hippies when she won.

I was also looking forward to AK becoming the new Capitol during her icy reign.  Which makes sense, need to keep an eye on them ruskies.

...the governments of most countries will never legalise it as they cannot tax it.

wtf are you talking about? legalization = taxation... because of regulation.

It would not only be a source of income for the government, but also would get rid of the drug cartels.

i wish someone knew how much moeny drug cartels make per year compared to, lets say, Wal Mart or Microsoft. Sometimes i think that the "war on drugs" is kind of the "republican vs. democrat" 2 man con sort of thing.

That shit grows everywhere. Or rather, it can. And while they might be able to track and find the source of high-quality strains, there would be so much backyard, ditch and amatuer bathtub/closet shit they won't have time to comb through those who have a script/licenses vs those who don't. And they don't like that. Plus, the govt. already gets money from the well-targeted busts they do, not to mention the stabilization that large piece of the black market does for our economy. It's literally money you can grow that just pumps into the economy.

Alcohol is way easier to make than weed, and people still buy their beer at the store.

Oh yeah? I wouldn't really know since I've never brewed/distilled my own booze nor grown pot. But, I'm sure you speak from experience and will take your word for it.

Curiosity compels me: If you throw a beer bottle into a ditch, how long does it take to sprout a 12-pack?

FWIW, from lurking I've found you to be one of the most interesting people here and I hope you stay.

 
Oh that makes me so happy.

funny...they legalized automobiles and yet, Ford still sold the Pinto for years.

True. But then, growing cars has always provided a challenge.

whoops. Misread teh thread. And on my 50th post too.

funny...they legalized automobiles and yet, Ford still sold the Pinto for years.

True. But then, growing cars has always provided a challenge.

...the governments of most countries will never legalise it as they cannot tax it.

wtf are you talking about? legalization = taxation... because of regulation.

It would not only be a source of income for the government, but also would get rid of the drug cartels.

i wish someone knew how much moeny drug cartels make per year compared to, lets say, Wal Mart or Microsoft. Sometimes i think that the "war on drugs" is kind of the "republican vs. democrat" 2 man con sort of thing.

That shit grows everywhere. Or rather, it can. And while they might be able to track and find the source of high-quality strains, there would be so much backyard, ditch and amatuer bathtub/closet shit they won't have time to comb through those who have a script/licenses vs those who don't. And they don't like that. Plus, the govt. already gets money from the well-targeted busts they do, not to mention the stabilization that large piece of the black market does for our economy. It's literally money you can grow that just pumps into the economy.

Oh god! The hate! IT BURNS!

This won't involve spoons, will it? I only ask because I saw this horrible video once.

NOBODY LIKES A SMARTASS

Better than a dumbass.
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Says the one who is dumb enough to live in Palin-land. 

SHE IS THE FUTURE SHUT UP!

Sorry. I mean, you have a point.

I BET YOU'D EVEN BE THE SORT TO VOTE FOR HER


WOULDN'T YOU?   

Yes*, but only because I'm an Agent of Chaos[tm]! Please, have mercy!


*No.

This won't involve spoons, will it? I only ask because I saw this horrible video once.

NOBODY LIKES A SMARTASS

Better than a dumbass.
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Says the one who is dumb enough to live in Palin-land. 

SHE IS THE FUTURE SHUT UP!

Sorry. I mean, you have a point.

This won't involve spoons, will it? I only ask because I saw this horrible video once.

NOBODY LIKES A SMARTASS

Better than a dumbass.
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This won't involve spoons, will it? I only ask because I saw this horrible video once.