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It's beyond obsession.

I'm assuming you don't mean the rate at which energy is transferred, stored, or transformed?

It's whatever I understand to be power at the moment. For the longest time, I've seen a strong connection between responsibility and power.

It's beyond obsession.

Power is still my ultimate goal

Oh?

Go on...

"More, MORE, MORRREEE!"

You sure you aren't slapping a Jesus suit on Wilson?

Haha, it wasn't just him, and no. His perspective, among many others', gave me much more positive views of humans. Imagine, for years, feeling completely indifferent to everyone. All of a sudden, there was no reason to be indifferent. Eventually, I had more things I wanted than just power. Power is still my ultimate goal, but the road, and everything around the road, has caught my eye indefinitely. The decisions I make are much more important to me now - actions more deliberate. ESPECIALLY when they involve other people.

I'm not homophobic, but that doesn't matter. It's more along the lines of total inconsideration: I don't take offense to it, and so I neglected to take others' feelings on the word into account.

That's a reasonable approximation of sociopathy.  Just saying.

I've been thinking about that for years. For me, it's a mental effort. When I didn't have a developed, conscious filter, I was BEYOND rude. It was brutal. Thank god I started thinking about stuff like this a long time ago. I would go as far as to say, the things I started reading and watching, like RAW, saved my life. You couldn't imagine what my mind was like before introspection. But no one really knew that much. I didn't show it. But I've found, over the years, that being completely honest about the way I see things, allows people to better (more clearly) understand me. When they have a better understanding, I find that they react more positively.

Just saying whatever I want without regard for others' feelings has given me no positive results, regardless of whether I WANT to.

Obviously, I'll refrain from using terms associated with bigotry here from now on, since you all seem to feel so strongly about it.

We're funny that way.

This all did remind me of a thread, though (that I currently can't find with the fixed search-bar, that's new to me), in which someone talked about the idea of giving up power when one acts like their words don't have power. Saying someone shouldn't feel offended by your words is like saying your words don't have power was the main theme of the thread, if I remember correctly. I thought it interesting, but only glanced at it a long time ago.

So are you homophobic, or you just think "fag" is an appropiate term to be despective with?

Im assuming the latter, but correct me if im wrong 

Anyhow, you should know by now why in this forum thats not well looked upon.

I'm not homophobic, but that doesn't matter. It's more along the lines of total inconsideration: I don't take offense to it, and so I neglected to take others' feelings on the word into account. Most places I visit (Online or out in the world) require no filter of any kind. Obviously, I'll refrain from using terms associated with bigotry here from now on, since you all seem to feel so strongly about it.

I now understand the need for immunity from consequences.

My face hit the desk at school when I checked my phone earlier. Anyways, I'm sure you're spot-on.

I now understand the need for immunity from consequences.

FATALITY.  PAES WINS.

The unspoken sentiment behind "GO OUTSIDE" is "stop whining; nobody cares".

No complaints of any kind were made. But you're right, who cares?

You missed yourself using a homophobic slur? Does Crowley incorporate automatic typing too?

I thought he was referring to:

Bots AND bigotry.  It's the whole package!

Perhaps this needs to be said in terms you understand.



    What man is at ease in his Inn?
    Get out.
    Wide is the world and cold.
    Get out.
    Thou hast become an in-itiate.
    Get out.
    But thou canst not get out by the way thou camest
      in.  The Way out is THE WAY.
    Get out.
    For OUT is Love and Wisdom and Power.
    Get OUT.
    If thou hast T already, first get UT.
    Then get O.
    And so at last get OUT.




You heard the man.  Get out.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=umDr0mPuyQc 

Because it happened 6 posts ago?   

OH FUCK, I MISSED THAT ONE!! 

Spicex?

No, no, how about Wogex?

So, where are we going with this? I'm getting the feeling we're all about to call me a bigoted piece of shit. Why do I get that feeling?

Why not "Niggerex"?

Fuck, I don't know.

Did you just use 'fag' as a slur in referring to the company "Jagex"?

To the retired botting community, they will forever be known as "Fagex."

So, that's a yes.

Yes, why so ominous?

Did you just use 'fag' as a slur in referring to the company "Jagex"?

To the retired botting community, they will forever be known as "Fagex."

Sigh. I'm not gonna sit here and try convince you over the internet that I have a very real, very physical life - one that is very close to nature and society. I appreciate that you feel the urge to "help" me with whatever you think is wrong with me, though. It's the thought that counts, I guess.

And on the topic of "Gold Farming" as it's called in the world of RuneScape: There was a massive community dedicated to taking advantage of those so sucked into the game that they spent real money on it. Me and my friend (and thousands of other people) used a macroing program to automate the completion of specific aspects of the game. We would then sell the rewards to Chinese gold-farming companies for real money. Paid well, until Fagex started banning all the bots. With the fall of the botting community, fell the rest of the RuneScape community. You could go outside, do whatever the fuck you want, and come back to millions of in-game gold a week later, ready to sell for hundreds of real dollars.

A difference in perception then, I've concluded.

Regardless, all feedback from everyone has been helpful so far. I expected nothing less from this forum.

Is your existential angst useful to you? Try pragmatism: realise your solipsism is meaningless and reject it.

Reject it because it doesn't make sense? Or reject it because its, according to you all, "hurting me/making me feel angst?"

I see it as a possible (not plausible) way of describing my existence. Disregarding it would only serve the purpose of rejecting the scientific method AND pragmatism. I have found that some ideas contradict this existential description. But that doesn't mean that it is absolutely incorrect. If anything, I should remain agnostic on it all, and only delve deeper into the ideology to learn more about myself. This whole discussion, resulting from this idea of Solipsism, has introduced me to a plethora of possible conditions I may have, and has resulted in numerous ways in which I could alternatively view myself as a human.

It has been, overall, destructive and constructive - Both of which I describe in the most positive connotation. I am uninjured by this temporary ideology, much like the other infinite ideologies I will/have adapt/adapted. Function is my purpose, science is my method when I'm conscious of the effort.

My problem is that I speak with unjustified certainty. But that is because I've been taught to speak this way. I'm working on it. That is what confuses you, I think.

This is needlessly complicated.

I agree, but I lack the will to give it another go. I've explained as simply as I see possible at the moment. I might try to re-word/-write this later. No promises.