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Sorry, yes, that was inconsiderate of me...

The title of the post was a little misleading. Happy birthday again. Hope you're feeling better now.

Ah, the trolls do so love the mire of filth in which they bathe... When they take a second glance, they shall find naught but butterflies, rainbows and unicorns, and they will know the true extent of my evil power.

EDIT: I shall visit the cats page, so that I might see this evil for myself.

This is true, Beast. With so many unoriginal trolls running around, I figure the best way to troll the place is to try to spread nice things. It's worked so far, I think... If I'm lucky it might even be infectious.

I'm going to follow Beast's advice as soon as I get back... Sounds like it might be fun. Hopefully it doesn't get me kicked off, but, oh well.

EDIT: Done

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20100629144250AAY1jQW

EDIT EDIT: And, I've already been told it's a racist term for an Italian, and called a hater. Thanks guys! lol

Though I doubt it really is, because I can find no such definition when looking it up.

It was in etiquette.

Thanks a lot, Pixie!... Now to find out what a spag is...

Odd thing, really. Someone posted a question on Yahoo answers "When everyone is taking a dump on your forehead for trying to have integrity, what do you do?"...

So I posted:

"With such a lack of detail, it is impossible, IMO, to answer your question.

Sometimes, though, it can be not so much integrity as willful ignorance and insensitivity, in my personal experience. I always look to myself first for the source of my problems, do a careful and brutal analysis. If I find something, I try to fix it. If I don't, I ask the dumping parties exactly what I did wrong, take that into account, and try to fix it. Take them very seriously.

Looking to yourself, first, for the source of your problems, is a key to not being a cosmic schmuk. This is a world which we all must share, and when we encounter adversity, we can either see it as a learning opportunity, or resist learning anything from it and continue smashing our heads into a wall.

Not saying you're a schmuk, everyone, in their own way, can be one at times... Only providing my two cents. Hope it is helpful.

In the case that the dumping parties are being schmuks, well, at that point you have to stand up for yourself and step on some toes... But one must carefully look at oneself first, if the offending party always blames other people for their own problems, then this is strong evidence that they may be a cosmic schmuk. If we all cooperate, we'll all come through this smoothly, and perhaps learn something totally awesome in the process.

Cultivate compassion and do good things, and that is what will come back to you."

Despite the fact that I have no idea what a cosmic schmuk is in the first place. Oh well, didn't somebody here say words mean whatever we want them to mean ? Noticed a parallel in the language of the question, and figured I'd just toss that in for the heck of it.

Anyway, enough of my own ignorant willfulness, time to save the world!... Or, do laundry, whatever the case may be.

And Dok, I'm reading the "total madness" thread... I see what you mean... I think it's starting to dawn on me.

Hmmm... I see.

Yes, I can see how that would be annoying. My personal view of it is that it can be a bit of a mixed blessing. Obviously, we wouldn't be how we are if our brain structure were just a tad bit different, there are advantages, and some extreme disadvantages, that go along with it. It can't be ascertained yet just what those are, only speculated upon, but people are learning more about it.

In the end, I'd rather be without it, but sadly, that's not an option. I'm sorry that I acted like one of those people... I'm actually still doing it, might be something I have to adjust over time, but, perhaps I will be a better person because of it.

There's nothing divine about it, but I feel that, as long as I'm stuck with it, I should try and enjoy the positives, and find ways to work around the negatives.

Oooh... My post was terrible, well, that's what drinking will get me.

I once ate all my meds I could get ahold of (only had access to two weeks worth, for good reason), downed a liter of tequila, called an ex-girlfriend and left a message saying "It's not your fault, but, catch you on the other side." (she wasn't the cause, just one of the people I wanted to say bye to). It seems an overdose on those meds causes you to make loud noises when you are breathing, so the next thing I knew I was jarred awake by EMTs dragging me onto a litter...

The catheter was perhaps one of the most painful experiences I'd ever had in my life.

It was a bad time all around, but, had I been successful, I'd have missed out on a lot. It was a hasty decision, and it was wrong of me. It makes me sad when people succeed at such an act. I feel bad for you, and your friend.

Thanks so much, Pixie. I was worried there for a bit... Usually, when I start posting somewhere I'm either the only person with a problem of some sort, or one of two or three. I can understand why people would be sensitive, but usually I'm the only one I have to worry about being sensitive, and I try to provide a positive example to spread the idea that people with a serious illness aren't bad people, and try to get them to understand.

I should have expected Principia Discordia to have likeminded people around, but I never expected it to be an issue.

I take it you guys have had trouble with this sort of thing in the past?

Sorry for the angry posts... Something I read somewhere last night ticked me off. Yes, I understand, I would be an asshole for watching, and the trouble would be, who gets to decide? It was really dumb of me.

... People (over the age of 22) with low morality scores should be given an instant vacation to happy land (undefined territory which will feature, mainly, assholes)... There, they can be a star in the new, hit reality show "watch assholes fight to the death". I'd watch it.

Dude, it's hard to tell if you're trying to save me from a fate worse than death, or consign me to one, but I get the impression you are helping me, so, really, thanks... If it turns out to be different... Well, I'll kill you in your sleep... Still, you do your research, don't you?

Anyway, I've been lectured, I know I did wrong, I'm sorry *prays to the rain god*... Still, thanks a ton, it definitely looks like you're being nice from where I'm sitting.

MODIFY: Social structure is meaningless to me, but I deleted my rant out of consideration to the rest of you.

I'd like to interject some spastic gibberish, but I'm almost paralyzed by what I just read....

Bureaucracy sucks. I don't like dealing with it, but usually I can subvert it with the strength of my personality and the fact that people still take me for a child.

Sad...

Very sad...

It was once put to me, in the best possible way I've encountered yet, by Infantry drill sergeants... "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem."... People, who yet could contribute much, are lost so frequently to the despair inside, depriving the rest of us of all their potential... Though the situation may seem dire, if one does not see the light at the end of the tunnel, one may make such a path for themselves...

To tell the truth, the thought crosses my mind daily, but, I've learned that is just one of those things, strong though it may be, it will pass, there will be moments in the sun, and those, really, are worth the slog through the swamps of Hades to attain. There are times where I lose my way, but I get by... There are times where I've attempted, and almost succeeded, but by the grace of fortune, I am still here... It is a trap which catches many, and this does not say anything awful about their character, but at times, logic can be the enemy.

Intelligence is no guarantee of survival, that idea is idealism... In many cases, it may be an obstacle, but, understand, the obstacle may be overcome... Not by simply being stupid, which, would likely not be the case of an intelligent individual, which, paradoxically, intelligence makes it HARDER to survive, especially with the difficulties normals and the illuminati have put into place to make sure that never shall the two meet, and not simply by force of will, because even the strongest will can be broken... It is, oddly enough, by fortune, that we find ourselves exactly where we want to be, either that, or we're delusional, and what is really happening is all part of the fiction in our heads.

Whatever, I've been lectured already for getting all nutty on the boards, I really need to chill...

But it is sad to lose an unknown individual to the void... I'm sorry for the loss. From personal experience, it is likely she was desperate, and didn't take much time to think, thinking that this would be the best way to solve any real or imagined problems she may have caused... It was likely a well informed decision, but a bad one, all things considered. I live every day as if it is my last, because it may very well be, this is not to say I throw caution to the winds, but I tell my loved ones I love them, and I say my goodbyes without saying goodbye. I want people to give a shit when it's all over... And I never know when that urge will take total control.

But I still know I have much to do... There is much that, well, people seem too totally ignorant to do without me. Were that not the case, I would end it immediately... It is too bad she decided to go so early, but life can be very painful for some of us... It may be impossible for you to understand, but there is no way you can live life behind these eyes. While I cannot speak for your friend, there are times where life becomes so painful, where the future becomes so dark, that there seems to be only one way out. I am deeply sorry, but I hope you understand that she did what she thought was best.