So yes - while all this mattered deeply to me four years ago back when I thought I still had a chance to keep control of the forum I had invested a significant amount of time and emotional energy developing - I subsequently moved on to other things and got over it. I'm not looking to start old fights.
But I've been told that my continued presence here depends upon my actions, so I'm testing the waters with this thread - if the intensity of the feelings evident from before are still present, then I won't waste any more of your time since my presence could only cause disruption.
Either way, thanks for all the good times.