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#16
Apple Talk / Re: Open Bar: Curbside Pickup Only
August 31, 2023, 12:26:07 AM
Quote from: QuestionsTheSoil on August 30, 2023, 05:05:12 AM
Time is going by too fast. I'm about to turn 20 and have fuck all to show for it, Summer decided to fly by, and I have no idea what my next move in life is.
I really don't want to be stuck at this supermarket janitorial job until I die.
I guess not everyone gets to have fun, though. Somebody's life has to be a boring shithole.
And transes aren't allowed to be happy anyway

Defining yourself by what you do for money is your first mistake.
#17
Apple Talk / Re: Things I Have Said To Cops' Faces
August 31, 2023, 12:24:46 AM
Quote from: QuestionsTheSoil on August 30, 2023, 05:10:32 AM
How have you not been shot to death what the fuck?
I could never pull this shit off. I'm far too autistic and have way too much crazy-eye going on. I'm the type of person people are extra nice too after a shooting happens

Well, for starters I suspect I am older than you. Old age and treachery will get you a lot further than youth and autism optimism. I recommend tabletop and live action roleplaying until your mask improves.
#18
Apple Talk / Re: Open Bar: Curbside Pickup Only
August 20, 2023, 04:26:26 PM
First week at the new place! They might be fucking me on taxes but otherwise looking good. Had some time and energy to do some flyering, including putting Two Weeks up at the intersection in front of my old job, because I am a petty bitch sometimes always.
#19
In some ways, that's kind of what Holy Nonsense is doing. I've been called "not a real Discordian" plenty of times for the shit I included there.
#20
Not wanting to have kids is fine.

Not wanting people to feel pressured to have kids is fine.

Being shitty to people for having kids is cabbage behavior.
#21
Principia Discussion / Re: Eris Is In the News Today!
August 09, 2023, 05:24:58 PM
Year Of Our Lady for sure  :horrormirth:
#22
Apple Talk / Re: Open Bar: Curbside Pickup Only
August 03, 2023, 01:12:20 PM
Quote from: Saint K1000 on August 03, 2023, 12:51:56 PM
Hello! Is there an area where presentation is mandatory, or perhaps forbidden? Anything you recommand me to do as my first steps here? (besides uploading a pfp because that apparently doesn't work)


Take a look in the rant (Or Kill Me) and project board sections, vomit your guts up if you feel like it or just post mittens on things that vibe with you.
#23
Apple Talk / Re: Open Bar: Curbside Pickup Only
July 30, 2023, 03:51:54 AM
Quote from: Doktor Howl on July 30, 2023, 12:17:53 AM
Quote from: Q. G. Pennyworth on July 29, 2023, 01:23:50 PM
I PUT IN MY TWO WEEKS BITCHESSSSSSSSS!

Does this mean you get to have a life again?

9 to 5, no weekends, work is something I actually want to be doing and am good at (gonna be at a print shop, doing a little customer service a little design and possibly some typesetting). This is absolute lifechanging shit
#24
Apple Talk / Re: Open Bar: Curbside Pickup Only
July 29, 2023, 01:23:50 PM
I PUT IN MY TWO WEEKS BITCHESSSSSSSSS!
#25
Apple Talk / Re: Good night, funnyman
July 29, 2023, 01:22:50 PM
My uncle had a similar end, heart attack at a football game, so thoroughly gone the emt two seats down couldn't do a thing. Having seen the alternative enough times now, it's the way to fucking go.

Sorry for your loss, glad to hear it was a kind transition for him.
#26
Apple Talk / Re: Open Bar: Curbside Pickup Only
July 23, 2023, 11:17:56 PM
Quote from: altered on July 22, 2023, 06:33:35 PM
Updates:

Partner is NOT dying, AFAIK. She's having intermittent cognitive issues and aphasia as she goes through recovery (brain tumors suck) but it's been confirmed that to all appearances, she's fine. She thought she was dying because she misunderstood the doctor due to her aphasia.

That was still fucking terrifying, though.



I have started going gluten-free due to unintentionally giving myself a gluten challenge that began with about 1800 calories of sausage gravy and stuffing for breakfast, and ended with a near-emergency hypoglycemic episode two hours later. It's week two of this and there are some serious changes I've noted.

1: I'm eating less. Like, noticeably less. QGP can tell you how I used to eat, but yesterday I had, in order:
--1 quarter of a 10 inch pizza
--1 large bowl of black rice stir fry
--1 small bowl of chocolate ice cream
and after that, went to bed full and happy.

2: More energy. The past two days I have woken up to basically full functionality in under two hours of being awake. Yesterday I had no caffeine, and maintained a high-energy-high-brainfog state into the late night. Today I woke up in less than a half hour, and I'm having an energy drink because I suspect the brainfog has to do with insufficient B-vitamins (remember, I got actual fucking scurvy last year, so nutritional deficiencies are a big CHECK for me). Regardless, I'm HERE. I'm PRESENT. That's new! Especially given I woke up one hour ago.

3: Better sleep, or at least better absorption of sleep meds. Normally I overdose (3x recommended amount, doctor approved for me specifically) on sleeping meds and wake up in 5-6 hours. Last night, I did the same overdose, slept 9 hours, woke up feeling refreshed and healthy. I'm going to lower that to a 2x overdose for the next two weeks, and see if I can stop taking sleep meds altogether over time? But, genuinely, HUGE improvement.

4: Better mood? Not much, but no deep depressive episodes since I've begun this. Well, at least none if we don't count "my partner is going to die far away from me because of her shitty live-in partner", which even if it ended up being okay I sure don't count as a deep depressive episode, depression is kind of reasonable there. Also less easily frustrated, etc. Have I mentioned I don't have a doctor, so I'm not on any psych meds at the moment? Yeah, so this isn't a better absorption thing, this is a legitimate mood shift.

So uh, celiac disease seems reasonable to presume, or at least some level of gluten sensitivity.

Yay for partners not dying! Terrifying as shit but better than the alternatives.

And I'm glad to hear the current diet seems to be helping. TW Joseph had a hard dietary reset that seems to be doing him some good too. Fuck the fad dieters, but at least there's more options for the genuinely gluten sensitive these days.
#27
It's The Year Of Our Lady! I stuck up some posters around town this morning, I didn't remember the date it was just the first time I felt up to it in ages. Hail Eris indeed.
#28
Apple Talk / Re: Open Bar: Curbside Pickup Only
July 18, 2023, 02:39:37 AM
Quote from: altered on July 15, 2023, 09:02:06 AM
The hardest parts, no particular order.

1: I have never had to seriously grieve before. I do not know how to handle it.
2: We share a second partner, who is already in a permanent deep depressive state, and who I'm in poor shape to support, and who has no one the fuck else but me. I don't know if it'll survive this, and I don't know if I can survive a third loss so soon.
3: Oh. Right. I'm still recovering from a recent breakup, so this hit me harder than it probably otherwise would have.
4: I never got to fucking hold her.
5: No one's gonna remember all of her. There will be only one name on that grave, and it'll be the one that was never hers. No one's gonna remember Dara, Fox, Val or Nye. No one's gonna remember Cadera, or Laurel. This isn't just one person, it's a whole group sharing a mind. And no one will remember. My memory isn't worth a fucking thing, I don't even remember MYSELF most days. I can't write her story, I didn't know her long enough. She was isolated and alone most of her life. There's no way to properly reconstruct those lives now. There will be no history to write. Just a dozen people, one body, erased.
6: If anyone but me and her other LDR partners had given a single solitary fuck, this probably could have been avoided. 6 months after the diagnosis that she should have been on chemo, derailed by her trash-fire live-in girlfriend. Finally got on it, the course finished last month, and it was all too fucking late.

Anyway. Done shitting up the thread.

I did this one. Not all the details are the same, and I had better wedges into the places to make my voice heard, I don't want to discount the extra difficulties you're going through, but you're not alone in trying to mourn someone you loved that the world is doomed to remember wrong. It's hurts like hell. Write down everything you can. It doesn't matter if you never show it to anyone, it's important.
#29
Apple Talk / Re: Open Bar: Curbside Pickup Only
July 15, 2023, 05:59:55 AM
Quote from: altered on July 14, 2023, 11:35:05 PM
Partner is dying. Brain cancer caught up, chemo didn't take. I never even got to see her face to face. She didn't get her name change so they'll bury her with that fucking name.

Anything I promised here is on hold.

Fuck cancer
#30
Or Kill Me / Re: Like A Bad Wolf Eating Chips
July 12, 2023, 03:01:21 PM
I don't think this one's done yet but I've been gnawing on it for a while and it might benefit from some air