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As I march steadily toward a career in science I find myself at home.

Nobody cares how you dress as a scientist. If you never shave regularly, or there's food on your clothing, or your hair is a greasy curls, and your glasses are filthy, everyone assumes that's OK because you're too busy thinking. And, to a point, they're correct. It's just I'm usually waffling back and forth between terror thoughts and shit like this:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l6FvyLdNG6Y

I've gotten real socially awkward in the last few years. The other day I got really excited about the fact that Charles Whitman used that fucking M1 carbine to kill most of those people, fucking Marines, man, wow before I  realize the classmates speech outline I was reviewing was actually about the importance of play to the development of a healthy, well-developed mind. And THAT'S why she suddenly started gathering her papers and turning away from me.

The important part of this small story is I didn't even put it all together until hours later. 

I make a pointed effort to avoid thinking about VX and it never works for long.

One of my classes this term is Social Problems. It's going to be a heck of a bummer, but I love talking about that kind of stuff. It's basically Liberal-Snowflake Critical Thinking 101.

At one point we were discussing social movements that enact change. The first example given was M.A.D.D., Mothers Against Drunk Driving.

For the second example, the teacher wrote B.L.M. and asked us what it meant. The overwhelming majority of my classmates said: "Bureau of Land Management".

We're no longer the Worst Forum on the Internet.

Sad!

View them as an opportunity and it's more fun.

Been practicing your blood curdling scream lately? Bet you haven't.

Heh, we had a teenaged girl sleepover the other night. That's probably what's caused the new nosy neighbor to show interest.

There was much screaming and assorted animal noises and OMGs along with the fire. one of them kept signing "I will always love you" at full volume every so often.

Then they made a large pentagram out of scrap wood.

You know, girl stuff.

Meanwhile, the Trump is continuing to make the best deals

http://www.thetimes.co.uk/article/germany-dismisses-white-houses-intimidating-300bn-bill-for-defence-dl7dk629k

Donald Trump handed the German chancellor Angela Merkel a bill — thought to be for more than £300bn — for money her country "owed" Nato for defending it when they met last weekend, German government sources have revealed.

The bill — handed over during private talks in Washington — was described as "outrageous" by one German minister.

What's the plan here? This is just insanely stupid on so many levels I can't even.

That, combined with naming names when shaming hard-line conservatives for disloyalty, and the laundry-list of derp Trump seems to carry with him, should make for the best/shortest US Presidency EVER.

BUT THAT'S NOT ACTUALLY LIBERTARIANISM, ALTY.  AS A REAL SCOTSMAN, I OBJECT TO YOUR SLANDER.

This is their M.O.
It's like they all take a class on how to not understand logical fallacies.
And that one in particular, they just hammer into it as hard as possible, like being wrong is their endgame.

For a while I ignored my rage, thinking it would not shape my experiences. Then I would have small, short, intense bursts of rage.

Then I embraced it, fed off it, let it out at every opportunity. This led to bad decision making and severe burnout after a few years.

Now I look for ways to channel it, especially without strenuous work like massage to take the fight out of me. I think I will funnel it into my hatred for libertarians.

The GOP seems a lot like a dog that actually caught the car it was chasing, much to its own surprise, and has no idea what to do with it now.

What kind of fucking morons spend 7 years whining about the ACA and then have nothing lined up in the way of replacement OR Republican approval in the house?

Oh right.

They're trying so hard to shove everything back into Pandora's box as thought it were possible.

Hey new Spag! Welcome.

Turns out that for Biochem I need to learn ALL THE MATHS.

I have to cram College Algrebra and Elementary Functions into this summer so I can start Calculus in the fall and continue the Calc series through the year.

Then next year, it'll be Physics W/Calc.

It's daunting, but what I have found most helpful is to funnel the feelings I get when clearing out a Dwemer ruin into getting an A. It works!

So I decided I want to go for my BA so I went for it and finally applied for UCSB this semester! I'll find out some time this spring if I'm accepted or not. As for major, it was pretty much an equal toss up between archaeology, art history, or Asian studies for me, but I went with Asian studies because it was the easiest thing to apply to and it meshed well with my previous skill set. 

So now I'm back at community college finishing up my IGETC requirements. Two of my classes are going fine and I really like them, but the two that I'm taking online - Statistics and Critical Thinking - are a miserable slog.

It's been a whirlwind six months, honestly. I got a new job, entered a new relationship, broke off said relationship, was hospitalized twice - once for salmonella (lol) and then for a spider bite (lol wut), my grandma died, and of course all this craziness going on in the world just contributes to the general stress level. Now it's the middle of the semester now and I just feel kind of burnt out and unable to bring myself to care.

I'm trying to drum up the motivation to apply myself since these two classes are utterly crucial for me, but...blargh, just blargh.

That's awesome, I hope you keep plugging away at it.

I was having a hard time with math, but recently turned the corner on it after about a month of daily Kahn Academy sessions. Burn out is super lame, the last couple of papers I turned in were really half-assed, can't be bothered to give a fuck.

Strokin'!


Bob Saget Ruins a Slice of Pizza

Wow. Both of those, just wow.

The period that never came.