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Apple Talk / Re: So I caught a 30 day ban on Facebook, again...
« on: November 29, 2021, 04:11:39 am »
Oh and yes for the record I do prefer making Trapt fans cry to making Kid Rock fans cry but after that dipshit faceplanted into getting owned by furries in public on twitter no one admits they like that shitty shitty fucking band, so I have to take my peabrained nu metal goober types where I can find them

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Apple Talk / Re: So I caught a 30 day ban on Facebook, again...
« on: November 29, 2021, 04:07:24 am »
Participation trophies were EXCLUSIVELY a thing in the 90s or thereabouts, to my recollection. By the time I was in high school they had been phased out for a couple years and kids were already mocking the idea (it took a while for the adults to catch on).

Anyway Kid Rock hasn't been shit since Devil Without A Cause and even that album was bottom-of-the-barrel nu metal at the height of nu metal as the sellout genre du jour. He's not worth one teaspoon of my most generous shits, I just like to see his fans cry when I say Bawitdaba was a dogshit song from a dogshit album and it's STILL the highest achievement of that dogshit man's dogshit career

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Apple Talk / Re: I'm not here.
« on: October 02, 2021, 06:45:11 am »
Yeah. I donít have much to add except that one day I hope to be able to say Iím not here either.

I can already see you moving.

If it's any encouragement, my life and my career didn't actually start for real until I was in my late 30s.  Things change.  You change.

Hey, remember this?

I made it. Iím not here.

Thanks for writing this. Itís given me, during some especially dark and awful times, a goal to aspire to. When everything else seems unrealistic or foolish, I have a fallback, a reason to keep moving. Not to go some place in particular, but to go anywhere but where I have been sitting all this time.

And I did it.

And you were right about the anger, too. I do in fact still have it, but itís ... remembering things that used to wreck my week, and giggling to myself about how mad those fuckers would be to see me now. If they could. Itís not spite or hate or a grudge anymore. Itís not seething or brooding. Itís knowing I won. I donít need to show them what anymore, I already showed myself.

Itís a good place to be, not here.

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Apple Talk / Re: Last one to post in thread wins
« on: September 25, 2021, 05:45:00 pm »
Wait, you aren't real and this is a solipsistic hellhole? But that would mean...

Oh goddamn it. I'm the demiurge of the universe AGAIN??? This shit is getting OLD. Let me out of my own head, you pieces of shit!

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Apple Talk / Re: Open Bar: Curbside Pickup Only
« on: August 26, 2021, 05:36:01 pm »
Yesterdya the doctor had to do a blood draw to get my levels because HRT needs that shit so you don't drown in your own hormones. Then i started listing a litany of incresingly terrible symptoms I had been having that seemed related to the anxiety meds i'm on, and she was like "hmmmmm.... anemia maybe? we'll just get you tested for everything under the damn sun!"

5 vials of blood later, im sent home

It's been16 hours and Im still woblly as fuck. I double-fuck half the attempts ti fix my typos i make so Ive given up. i nearly threw my laptop into a rian puddle and nearly fell down the long flight of stairs between first and 2nd floors already just this morning.  I ate a whole pizza, a salad, a sandwihc, a plate of pancakes and two bags of chips between blood draw and now, alog with a shitload of 711 generic sports drink gatorade substitute they got cucumcber mnit flavor shits excellent you should try it, here I am weak and limpy and all half leaned on one side anyway despie it all. Drunk without the alcohol

and now I'm like hmmmmmmmmmmmm...... anemia maybe??? MAYYYYYBE????

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Apple Talk / Re: Last one to post in thread wins
« on: July 24, 2021, 09:41:32 pm »
Iím just waiting for the shit Iím struggling under to level off so I can bitch about not finding work and talk smack about the straight white guy thinking the disabled queers canít run a fucking co-op their lives depend on.

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Apple Talk / Re: Last one to post in thread wins
« on: July 23, 2021, 06:13:48 pm »
to keep content fresh, I recommend we pick a theme and each post our answer. How about social security numbers to start!
Oh that sounds fun, Iíll start:
170-00-000-0000-00000-000000-0000000-00000000Ö

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Apple Talk / Re: Last one to post in thread wins
« on: July 22, 2021, 01:04:44 am »
One day I'll post about The Mgt in here. Then you'll all be sorry. So will I, but it'll be for the greater good.

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Apple Talk / Re: Open Bar: Curbside Pickup Only
« on: July 01, 2021, 11:33:34 pm »
Itís me. Sorry, I just ooze the scent of money despite not having any.

I donít know why itís like this, Iím walking to CVS to spend my last five dollars on some sleep meds and some freak in an ugly tweed suit comes up and starts spouting off about viagra pills. Some guy joins almost every Discord server Iím active in and pings me to ask about if I might be interested mayhaps in some Cryptographic Monetary Stuff. Strangers ringing our doorbell to ask if We, Poor People, would be interested in Expensive Giant Vases. It goes on.

If you feed them to the Nessies, I wonít be too sad. But make sure to keep the marketing material out of there; we donít want them getting ideas.

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Aneristic Illusions / Re: Random News Stories
« on: June 30, 2021, 09:08:20 pm »
I hope someone is maintaining a publicly accessible list.

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Apple Talk / Re: Open Bar: Curbside Pickup Only
« on: June 30, 2021, 03:47:24 pm »
Creative geniuses are fungible.

The internet has brought in a golden age of access to, and ability to discover, new media. There is no shortage of talented people producing high-quality entertainment.  Sure, you won't find writers like Ellis hanging out in every coffeeshop, but he doesn't have a monopoly, or anything.  You don't feel like supporting one writer, for whatever reason, you can find another.


...I've been toying the above theory for a while, now, but I don't know if I actually believe it.  Could you replace a Gen Urobuchi, or a Yoko Kanno?  My gut says no.

And I knew Ellis was an asshole, but I watched season 4 of Castlevania anyway.

I've found that the only truly irreplaceable artists are ones I don't have any problem with.

I wouldn't call artistic talent or vision fungible, but it's certainly less than irreplaceable. Enough people will rip off the shit anyone worth a good goddamn is doing that over a decade or so, you'll be able to find your own hyper-specific flavor of whatever it is. It will never quite be the same, but you can tailor your media consumption so specifically to you that it's somehow better this way. Usually, if they're worth ripping off, they can be improved upon, and eventually will be improved upon. So you give up familiarity for basically a higher quality remix of the same style that happens to hit every satsifying note involved.

I should note this only works if you're willing to give up TV and big budget Hollywood films. Those have quite short lists of all people involved and alive at any given point in time, so if one bad person is on TV or in a big name film, it will likely fuck up a half dozen other things too. However, like videogame development, TV and film are collaborative mediums, so you can just tell yourself they didn't do anything important. (I avoid auteurs, they're freaks and weirdos and kind of gross. The two exceptions to my rule of avoidance are kind of weird and gross, even, and not even in ways I like.)

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Apple Talk / Re: Open Bar: Curbside Pickup Only
« on: June 30, 2021, 06:35:24 am »
Speaking for myself, some kinds of hurt cut too close to the bone for me to deal with. Being near some kinds of people is as dangerous to me as if they were actually doing shit to me. I can acknowledge and understand cancelling creators. I do it myself. I donít think anyone here listens to Lostprophets or Ted Nugent, reads the really racist Lovecraft stuff (I mean yeah itís all racist as fuck but some of it is waaaay worse than others), or so on and so forth.

I wonít read anything new from Warren Ellis, but I certainly wonít condemn people who do. I do also think that if Faust is right about the context, framing it as Ellis being super important and of course heíd be back (which would be legitimately horrible) is fucked. And itís a recurring theme.

A content creator I like did a video about the polarization of viewpoints in online entertainment discourse as regards The Last Of Us 2, which I think applies here. It doesnít matter what your intentions are... if your online presence demands engagement, you will state the most extreme possible version of your beliefs.

Video here: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=v7wcvMIrK2w

Genuinely recommend watching it even if you donít care about video game bullshit, Sophie does more than video game content (usually extremely communist deep dives about other kinds of media!) and is one of the most insightful creators I know. For what itís worth, I also avoid almost all YouTube content as a rule, so... take this as you will. It broke through my resistance to its very existence.

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Apple Talk / Re: Open Bar: Curbside Pickup Only
« on: June 28, 2021, 12:32:48 pm »
No luck, friend.

My ďdietĒ is frozen meals and box meals and, if Iím real lucky and I saved up and Eris loves me extra that day, maybe Taco Bell. Iím poorer than ďdietĒ can accommodate; I eat what I get.

My health in every other respect is abysmal: Iím a smoker, Iíve been homeless a decade off and on, I havenít seen a doctor who took me seriously once my entire life, and I canít exercise meaningfully due to chronic fatigue, depression, and a host of undiagnosed digestive fun that combines with my non-diet to leave me alternating perpetually between food coma and hypoglycemia. If I caught a mild case of COVID, Iíd probably die instantly.

But your unlucky day doesnít end there: I have managed to momentarily unclog my sinuses multiple times throughout this ordeal and my taste and smell are unchanged entirely so long as there isnít a solid wall of ooze sludging my head up like a fatberg in London.

And, finally, today, I seem to be starting to recover. In particular, I have had my sense of smell and taste in full since late last night and I still have it this morning, because my sinuses, while still flowing like the blood of my enemies, are no longer stuffed wall-to-wall with malevolent slime monsters.

I donít have a breakthrough case of COVID, I have a really vile head cold. Worst one Iíve ever had, and Iíve had some doozies, but itís not in line with COVID ó the phlegm and sinus clogging are by far the largest symptoms.

In fact, theyíre the largest symptoms to the point where if it werenít for the fever and the fact I caught it from others, Iíd be forced to assume it was a brand new magical allergy, presumably to the infinite mold that endless late June rain brings to Chicagoland. The concrete is growing fuzz, I shit you not. The fire pit has turned green, and thereís no copper in its construction. Itís a Resident Evil 7 nightmare.

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Apple Talk / Re: Open Bar: Curbside Pickup Only
« on: June 27, 2021, 10:08:43 am »
Birds cannot be trusted.  They are not on our side.

I warned everyone.

In my own world, gearing up to rebuild a co-op that was poised to collapse 3 DAMN MONTHS after I joined it is tiring, and I have a horrible disease of some sort at a key moment.

Iím waiting to lose my smell beyond the sinus fuckery, because although I am fully vaccinated, itís extremely on brand for me to catch COVID, which I had a pretty hefty fear of, only as a breakthrough case... without leaving my house.

(In seriousness, I feel itís unlikely ó or else thereís a new variant in this co-op that is totally unaffected by vaccines. Cluster of 4 fully vaccinated people who all had different vaccines caught this horrible mess all at once with identical severity.)

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Apple Talk / Re: How to eliminate yourself as a force for good.
« on: June 20, 2021, 09:01:40 pm »
Pardon my ignorance, I tried googling IFF and I'm not sure I've got the right term. Does IFF stand for Identification Friend or Foe?

Yes.

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