But I actually have nowhere else to turn. Sorry about that.
I think I came the closest I've ever come to not wanting to log on to this place ever again yesterday. I actually started thinking about it, putting it in the planning stage. Of course, that wouldn't get far on its own, but it did show me something:
There's nothing else, as far as social interactions or community. That's a little fucking sad but I'm not dwelling on that detail. What I am is grateful. After I got back from being NOT HERE and meeting some of you I felt A) an intense sense of isolation, which had been there all along, I was just able to notice it. B) vindication that comes from knowing that just because there are no people around you that can only tangentially relate to in any meaningful way isn't your fault.
I've gotten so much better at dealing with people since being at PD. I've learned how to do my best to relate and interact with others. I put in the effort now. It still does little good IRL. Every day I feel further and further away from these people, people who are my friends. The ones who do nothing but stare at screens and gain political insight from hackneyed television shows.
It's better to focus on our collective meatyness, our inescapable and common truth of being composed of yet-uncooked mammal, but, you know...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zPY1rNg3sCM
Trust Alty to interrupt a perfectly good riot with common sense. :lulz: