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I could always make another example out of him, but he's so pathetic it wouldn't even be worth it. Still, he might want to look at the histories of minuspace/LuciferX, rong and Fujikoma to find out what happens when someone /does/ get my attention. Maybe he could fuck off for another 6 years.

In the past hour, Khanate released without announcement a new album after almost 20 years of being disbanded and it FUCKS.

https://khanate.bandcamp.com/album/to-be-cruel

I'm losing my fucking mind.

I am reliving my childhood in music right now -- but as myself, with supportive communities and people around me, and a presence in the scenes that matter to me, and a personality that people can enjoy being around.

Nu metal, slam death, fucking Khanate, what's next? Aggrotech renaissance? I am getting a chance to do over my fucking childhood and I don't need to have a mid-life crisis to do it. These people and genres aged with me.

I can't believe how lucky I am in some ways.

ETA: Literally their best album to date. I literally wept at the end of the title track.

Like, Khanate is a 10/10 band, with no albums that fall below a 9 (Clean Hands Go Foul lands at 9, barely). If I graded their albums on a curve, this would be 10/10 /for them/, with their prior best (Capture/Release) landing at a solid, respectable 8/10. The first track lulls you into expecting more S/T, but from track 2 on they bring in all sorts of wild stuff from the back catalog and add new tricks.

I'm working on crawling out from under a rock. 2023 seems like an auspicious year for that. Or at least an interesting one.

I'll be glad to see more of you again. How are you?

Husband got hospitalized for complications related to long covid, we were genuinely worried that was gonna be it for him for a couple days there. Fortunately he is still The Protagonist in some goddamn story so he's mostly better with the treatment he's on. Work has been grinding me to a paste, I'm trying to figure out how to extract myself from this place but I suck at interviews and there are enough gaps in my general understanding of office politics/professionalism that I am at a disadvantage. Also got documentably sexually harassed by the last head of HR at the place, but there's nothing useful to be done with that. You know, American Dream shit.

Finished Andor and now I have a strong need to DO THINGS. I might want to tag you in on one of the bigger plans if we can secure some moneybags for it, you have exactly the right experience for a couple slots. I'm glad to see you found someone you're clicking with!

Depending on the deets of your project, I might have someone who can help fund things. We were going to work on videogame development, but we can't fucking find an artist and programmer now... Sigh. IDK if you're comfortable sharing, but let me know if you are.

I want to disappear that head of HR, but unfortunately my long-distance hypnosis powers don't extend to actually for realsies deleting humans, and my partners STILL haven't invented the teleporter.

I'm working on crawling out from under a rock. 2023 seems like an auspicious year for that. Or at least an interesting one.

I'll be glad to see more of you again. How are you?

Good! In personal news, I may be getting to an even better location than my current one in the coming months.

I just spent the past 5 days with a new partner who is effectively the best person for me imaginable, and I broke a 11 year dry spell as far as actually fucking goes, instead of just messing with people's heads long-distance and cuddling. They have a polycule house, they own that house, they pay a minimal amount of taxes and bills on it, they have enough people the pain is spread very thin, all of the people there are awesome (the metamour I foresee having the most problems with /might fight with me over doing dishes/, as in "let me do the dishes" "no, let me do the dishes"), they want to help me get back on HRT, etc., etc.

This might actually be what it takes to launch me from homelessness and destitution to a survivable future.

Also, it's really nice to spend 5 days being wanted by someone who isn't shy about that fact.

This is EXACTLY why software piracy is a moral obligation.

The docs are gonna die first, absolutely. But that won't stop trans people from existing, they'll just get their shit done in other countries.

So they'll have to start coming for us directly. I genuinely expect to find out a partner, metamour or dear friend got a loaded gun pointed at them before Christmas. Coin-flip odds the gun gets fired, and another coinflip between "warning shots" and "aimed fire".

No. Actually, you lied.

Seriously, we figure out slavery is wrong back in 1830 and jump into colonialism. We figure out colonialism is wrong and jump into hating the fascists and then the commies and fuck up countries like Iran and Afghanistan to prove a point. We figure out hating gays is wrong and jump into hating transgender.

Provably false. Literally a lie. You said something false on purpose to cover your ass after your pro-fascist statement got caught. You said something anyone can use their very own functional eyes to verify the falsity of because you got caught and you hope people won't pay attention to what you said, just what you say that you said.

Next up is either:
an excuse for why that's a mistake (despite being deeply embedded in a list where literally every other item on said list has the same element of "unjust hatred" in common, you /can't/ make that mistake, that is a purposeful act buddy),
an accusation of the admins stealth-editing your posts (the crew here doesn't do that as a rule -- as a very hard rule, in fact),
or "sociological experiment" (please, i need my fix).

https://memorrhage.bandcamp.com/album/memorrhage

I don't normally post shit like this outside of the designated containment zones, but I was a test listener and provided first-round mix feedback for this album, which is (independent of my involvement) poised to fucking blow up -- the reviews are on point, and based entirely on pre-release previews that have gotten passed around. The next single is going to be Lunge, one of my favorite tracks in years. It's got hooks, it's got aggression, it's got alienation, it's the most exciting development in heavy music in years.

And it was written in two fucking months. Exit, Finesse, Old Wave, Lunge, Utility and Ex-Sprite are all single quality /for this album/ -- on an album where the weakest tracks are single quality for, you know, the average chart-topping release. Even diehard nu-metal haters are on board. It's must-hear. And I had a small hand in the final product, so that's why it's out of the containment areas!

Hey, Fallenkezef.

Hey buddy.

Did you think you could just sneak anti-fascism into your list of fucked up bigotries and exploitations? Did you think that no one would notice that?

Did you think no one would notice your attempt to diminish the /actual real genocidal actions/ being taken against trans people among all of this? Or that you tried to pretend like slavery and colonialism ended when they /provably/ have not?

Oh. Also. Did you think that we would forget you made incredibly fucked up statements and never fucking provided your promised responses to push-back against your weird eugenics-flavored views?



I will not roll over for people like you. I will not lay down and take it like a fucking dog while the boot steps down. I will not accept minimizing and shrugging off and the damn-near denial of provable real factual political reality in the real world we really live in, right now, visible with your own fucking eyeballs. And neither should anyone else.

You're trying to poison /my/ queer siblings with the idea that there's nothing to do but shrug and give the fuck up, that eventually it will all get better if we ignore it, and we'll probably survive because it's not that bad, after all, some few people survived much worse historical situations! You're trying to infect them with inaction and hopelessness and self-doubt with your insipid fucking claims. And I will not abide that behavior.

You are not an ally, you're a pseudo-centrist jackal trying to sap all the will and urgency out of scared, marginalized people, for whatever fucking reason. You're preying on people getting hammered with self-doubt and societal hatred and being disenfranchised out of all aspects of life on a scale unseen in the Anglosphere in almost 100 years. You're an opportunist, a scavenger, a fucking vulture, and whatever identity you think makes you share our struggle, you're not with us.

You aren't queer.

You're a turncoat, if you were ever in any kind of community with us at all. You're a snake. You're a traitor, and the time where I have any sympathy for traitors and sell-outs is long since past. You are not welcome. You will never be welcome again, if you ever were.

Get fucked.

Nah, it was normal black-bag police kidnapping bullshit. They released the kids later. It's not Nacht und Nebel tier, though it sure is headed that way.

This was a warning shot off the bow, essentially. Not even raising the stakes, just making the existing ones clear. "Know your place -- we can ruin you anytime." Showing that actually, consequences for using their fucked up hate-laws are not something that matters to them.

As for "what happens now"? Start pulling vulnerable people out of those fucking shitholes and sending them to safer places. Because they're GOING to go full Nazi. They haven't been hiding it for a long time now. So save the people who really need saving.

For everyone else, it's time to read about resistance movements in WW2 Italy, German-occupied nations, etc. Maybe throw in some Zapatista, Spanish Civil War, modern Palestinian resistance reading. Get real comfortable, extremely familiar with your history. Start figuring out how the real successful shit might look in a post-internet surveillance-world. You know, what-ifs.

You could always make them suffer, but I understand that there is science to be done.

(Also, I knew NM is exactly equivalent to Joule, but it's funny to overreact about.)

Nice, congrats man, I've heard of pounds per square inch used, why the fuck change it to foot? To make number bigger?

Realizing I hallucinated answering this:

PSI and foot-pounds are not the same kind of unit. PSI is a measure of pressure: how much weight you feel in pounds per unit surface area in square inches. Foot-pounds is a measure of energy: 1 foot-pound is the amount of energy required to move a mass of one pound one foot in distance.

PSI is good for tire pressure, you can't sensibly measure that in foot-pounds.

Foot-pounds are good for muzzle energy of a firearm cartridge -- PSI could be used sensibly and is used for chamber pressures, but chamber pressure doesn't tell you anything about how fast the bullet is going (a round could have enough pressure to detonate the gun it's fired through without actually moving that bullet very fast).

The respective SI equivalents are Pascals (pressure) and Joules (energy).

Newton-meters? Newton? Meters? Dok. Dok. Wake the fuck up. SNAP OUT OF IT.

It's Joules, man. Joules!

Anyway that is the best win-win-win ever conceived of.

(This isn't "vote for the bad guys" accelerationism, by the way. It's "vote with [REDACTED].")