Why? Because YOU aren't yelling with me.
I cannot escape the propaganda. It's everywhere. And it pisses me off because it's starting to work. The yelling brings me back on the level. Try it sometime.
I'm pissed off because when I get home from work I don't want to think. And that scares me. I used to read all the time but lately I've found my eyes wandering over to the teevee and it keeps telling me to do things I don't want to do. So what's crazier? Rebuking the voices or OBEYING THEM?
Every day that goes by I feel a little slower. I feel a little dumber. And that pisses me off. It's taking more effort to get past the daily bullshit assault and that scares the piss out of me because it means that I am being worn down. I am LOSING. Are YOU even paying any fucking attention? Put down that In Touch magazine. For fuck's sake, why am I even trying? I can barely get through to myself any more so why bother with YOU?
I know why.
I am a parasite. I need YOU to feel superior. I know I'm losing and as long as I have YOU around I have something to feel better about. I can lie and say "it's not so bad because at least I'm not this schmuck" as I slide deeper into denial.
Why am I so pissed? Haven't YOU been listening?
I AM YOU.
"If you're not angry, you haven't been paying attention." Is something that comes to mind after reading that.