How do you program a broken mind? Rather, how do you unprogram? I'm having one of those nights where one part of me is saying "dude, if you were anyone else, I'd be laughing... heartily... at your utterly pathetic mindset," and the other is like "But I can't turn it off."
I'm posting a thread in here for two reasons:
1) This is the only place I know of that won't try to inspire me, and will ridicule me shamelessly if I deserve it
2) I'm looking for atypical advice
I'm not going to give you a lengthy soliloquy about my current state of affairs because, all in all, things are not so bad. I've utterly failed in so many avenues of my life, but I'm eating well, I have a full time job, and I'm living with a woman who actually likes me. Things are pretty good, I should say.
But I still have this internal Live Journal MCR attitude about everything that keeps my head firmly planted in my rectum. Example: today I Wake up, go for walk, write a little, get some, read a book, have a smoothie, then while cruising web I happen across a personal site of a girl I haven't seen in over a year and haven't dated in almost 3 years, see pics of her wedding and I'm all like "omg cut myself and light candles, where's the smirnov ice...?"
THis is lame. How to fix?
Quotehaven't dated in almost 3 years
remember why you broke up.
chances are she hasn't changed that much. people tend to get set in their ways.
http://www.understandingcalculus.com/preface.php
I dunno. Try something new. Something you might find hard and engrossing.
I don't think there's anything unusual about remembering positive times with an ex (and conveniently minimising the negatives), but it can really screw you up if you fall for the "hollywood romance" fable.
Or you can try the low-level approach - carry a pin around with you and prick your finger every time you find yourself thinking positively of her.
Dump your current girlfriend, and find one that you actually like and its not merely for comfort.
Not talking like a pussy helps too.
1) Do a google image search of "advice dog".
2) Take a breath of fresh air at what a poor choice really looks like.
3) Feel better.
Blow something up
smoked some pot, slammed some kratom and rocked out to Parr's Man in Motion.
I'm okay now.
but did you learn calculus?
i seriously agree with FP that you should learn calculus.
But calculus doesn't help you to figure out love.
(http://imgs.xkcd.com/comics/useless.jpg)
Maybe learn neuro science instead
Quote from: Triple Zero on November 22, 2009, 05:54:02 PM
but did you learn calculus?
i seriously agree with FP that you should learn calculus.
I already know calc. Scored a 4 on the AP exam, got into Markovian representations in college, and it all went to pot. Literally.
I'm like the Derek Coleman of life. So much potential, but I only give a shit during contract seasons.
It's actually a good metaphor if you know me.
So why did you freak out over ex-gf getting married? Is it because you have feelings for her, or is it because it makes you feel inadequate and behind the curve when other people in your life reach one of those major landmarks of "success" in adulthood, like getting married, buying a house, having a kid, etc?
If you are in love with your girlfriend, and it's the landmark/adequacy thing that's getting to you, I don't really have much good advice for you other than to say that those things are only valuable if YOU want to do them, regardless of the social status they may confer upon you.
My advice with any and all women problems are to listen to "Momma Sed" by Puscifer until you grow some fucking balls.
Quotewake up son o' mine
momma got somethin' to tell you
changes come
life will have its way
with your pride, son
take it like a man
hang on son o' mine
a storm is blowin' up your horizon
changes come
keep your dignity
take the high road
take it like a man
listen up son o' mine
momma got something to tell you
all about growin' pains
life will pound away
where the light don't shine, son
take it like a man
suck it up son o' mine
thunder blowin' up your horizon
changes come (changes come)
keep your dignity (keep your dignity)
take the high road (take the high road)
take it like a man (take it like a man)
momma said like the rain
(this too shall pass)
like a kidney stone
(this too shall pass)
it's just a broken heart, son
this pain will pass away
IKK: This is a fairly common occurence, especially among imaginative people. You're seeing a probability stream dry up, and you can envision what you life could have been like... Or even, you can see what happened in a different universe when the time track split. What's happening is that your mind had split with the reality you're in, and is trying to live in a completely different reality.
Real emotions are stirred up from a fake reality you've created, as you see the bride walking down just to start the wedding, and there's one more girl you won't be getting. So you start thinkin, then you start blinkin a bride maid looks and thinks that you're winkin. She thinks you're kinda cute so she winks back, and now you're feelin really fine because the girl is stacked. Reception's jumpin, bass is pumpin, look at the girl and your heart starts thumpin. Says she wants to dance to a different groove... Now you know what to do g, bust a move.
Quote from: LMNO on November 23, 2009, 01:19:07 PM
IKK: This is a fairly common occurence, especially among imaginative people. You're seeing a probability stream dry up, and you can envision what you life could have been like... Or even, you can see what happened in a different universe when the time track split. What's happening is that your mind had split with the reality you're in, and is trying to live in a completely different reality.
Real emotions are stirred up from a fake reality you've created, as you see the bride walking down just to start the wedding, and there's one more girl you won't be getting. So you start thinkin, then you start blinkin a bride maid looks and thinks that you're winkin. She thinks you're kinda cute so she winks back, and now you're feelin really fine because the girl is stacked. Reception's jumpin, bass is pumpin, look at the girl and your heart starts thumpin. Says she wants to dance to a different groove... Now you know what to do g, bust a move.
:mittens:
Young MC is no Redman, but he too seems to be full of good advice.
Late 80's hip hop is my Delphic Oracle.
Quote from: LMNO on November 23, 2009, 02:06:28 PM
Late 80's hip hop is my Delphic Oracle.
I'm more of a late 70s - mid 80s kinda guy myself.
Because it's like that, and that's the way it is.