My advisor has left for the day, hell, the building is nearly all empty by now. Only people left are die hard professors and graduate students like myself.
I've had a shitty day, to be honest. The physiology exam this morning was less than enjoyable, done more or less on an empty stomach, which was promptly followed by a 3 hour seminar and a lunch discussion with the speaker. And I'm feeling like an idiot the entire time. Not that this isn't a normal occurence for me.
This afternoon I was supposed to work on more of the bad ass physiology project but apparently the bacteria got thrown out so....I'm left sitting in my office, all my plans for today out the window.
WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING HERE?!?! I'm not getting a fucking thing done, I haven't done SHIT this afternoon. I have 8 samples and god knows how many microcaddisflies to identify before the end of the month, I have reading to do up the wazoo, I have a discussion to prepare for tomorrow, a lab to write for wednesday, there's a seminar tonight, and I haven't accomplished a damn thing.
The worst part is, I don't even feel good about it. I don't feel satisfied. I don't feel happy with sitting around feeling tired and depressed and anxious because I feel like my collegues just want to throw me down a hole. Complete paranoia I know, but I'm living in a shell of fucking isolation here. I have maybe one meaningful conversation a day and it just feels like all the minds around me are getting more and more distant.
If I go home, I'm just going to fucking masturbate, probably. Not that schlicking isn't fun, but its about as productive as what I'm doing here, which is to say, not at all.
Also, fuck you.
~Kai
What, no response? Not fucking angry enough for Or Kill Me? Not fucking inspired enough, not fucking creative enough? Sounding like the brain dead ennui of some noob?
Fucking do it yourself, then. I've jacked my brain off dry for this toxic cult of academia for one fucking day. I don't have any neurons to spare for wit, because I used them all memorizing how the peritrophic matrix works, and what occult algorhythms are best for divining a phylogeny.
Fuck you Kai.
Quote from: BabylonHoruv on February 15, 2010, 10:41:05 PM
Fuck you Kai.
No YOU, babylwhat the fuck ever. Come, why don't you expound upon the purpose of Diacylglycerides and Triacylglycerides in insects? Or how about why maximum likelyhood analysis is complete bollocks. Or perhaps you could describe for me the experimental setup to determine the proximate and ultimate reasons for "WHY THE FUCK ARE THESE MONKEYS ON MY PLANET"?
Any of those would be fine.
I find setting fires helps me get out of that mood. Short of actually burning the world building down, legal fires are also nice. Brings you right back down to earth, pulls you right back inside the human condition. Start a fire, watch it grow, stare into the flames, maybe meditate.
The venting in these threads is working quite well, actually.
But thanks for the tip. You want to be the first to burn? I hear the burning tiems have come again.
Quote from: Kai on February 15, 2010, 10:51:04 PM
The venting in these threads is working quite well, actually.
But thanks for the tip. You want to be the first to burn? I hear the burning tiems have come again.
I still have plenty of things to burn, it will be a while until I run out and set myself on fire.
Quote from: Kai on February 15, 2010, 10:45:23 PM
Quote from: BabylonHoruv on February 15, 2010, 10:41:05 PM
Fuck you Kai.
No YOU, babylwhat the fuck ever. Come, why don't you expound upon the purpose of Diacylglycerides and Triacylglycerides in insects? Or how about why maximum likelyhood analysis is complete bollocks. Or perhaps you could describe for me the experimental setup to determine the proximate and ultimate reasons for "WHY THE FUCK ARE THESE MONKEYS ON MY PLANET"?
Any of those would be fine.
Those two long words that insects have, I don't know what they are and Google won't tell me, so I won't talk about those.
As far as Maximum Likelihood Analysis, that I can talk out my ass about, so I will.
It's a useful technique as long as you know that your sample is actually representative, this is tricky though. Usually your sample is either gathered from a geographically limited area or has actually been bred in the lab, That means you are actually only gaining useful information about either that fairly limited geographic area (which may be very very small) or about the sort of conditions used to reproduce the sample in the lab.
So, maybe not complete bollocks, but at least partly tainted by taint.
Quote from: BabylonHoruv on February 15, 2010, 10:53:34 PM
Quote from: Kai on February 15, 2010, 10:45:23 PM
Quote from: BabylonHoruv on February 15, 2010, 10:41:05 PM
Fuck you Kai.
No YOU, babylwhat the fuck ever. Come, why don't you expound upon the purpose of Diacylglycerides and Triacylglycerides in insects? Or how about why maximum likelyhood analysis is complete bollocks. Or perhaps you could describe for me the experimental setup to determine the proximate and ultimate reasons for "WHY THE FUCK ARE THESE MONKEYS ON MY PLANET"?
Any of those would be fine.
Those two long words that insects have, I don't know what they are and Google won't tell me, so I won't talk about those.
As far as Maximum Likelihood Analysis, that I can talk out my ass about, so I will.
It's a useful technique as long as you know that your sample is actually representative, this is tricky though. Usually your sample is either gathered from a geographically limited area or has actually been bred in the lab, That means you are actually only gaining useful information about either that fairly limited geographic area (which may be very very small) or about the sort of conditions used to reproduce the sample in the lab.
So, maybe not complete bollocks, but at least partly tainted by taint.
I meant in molecular systematics, but good to know it's bollocks in other areas as well.
also, I meant to say triacylglycerols and diacylglycerols. glyceride, glycerol, whatever. LIPID TYPES.
Quote from: Kai on February 15, 2010, 10:32:32 PM
My advisor has left for the day, hell, the building is nearly all empty by now. Only people left are die hard professors and graduate students like myself.
I've had a shitty day, to be honest. The physiology exam this morning was less than enjoyable, done more or less on an empty stomach, which was promptly followed by a 3 hour seminar and a lunch discussion with the speaker. And I'm feeling like an idiot the entire time. Not that this isn't a normal occurence for me.
This afternoon I was supposed to work on more of the bad ass physiology project but apparently the bacteria got thrown out so....I'm left sitting in my office, all my plans for today out the window.
WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING HERE?!?! I'm not getting a fucking thing done, I haven't done SHIT this afternoon. I have 8 samples and god knows how many microcaddisflies to identify before the end of the month, I have reading to do up the wazoo, I have a discussion to prepare for tomorrow, a lab to write for wednesday, there's a seminar tonight, and I haven't accomplished a damn thing.
The worst part is, I don't even feel good about it. I don't feel satisfied. I don't feel happy with sitting around feeling tired and depressed and anxious because I feel like my collegues just want to throw me down a hole. Complete paranoia I know, but I'm living in a shell of fucking isolation here. I have maybe one meaningful conversation a day and it just feels like all the minds around me are getting more and more distant.
If I go home, I'm just going to fucking masturbate, probably. Not that schlicking isn't fun, but its about as productive as what I'm doing here, which is to say, not at all.
Also, fuck you.
~Kai
Go out and see a movie, Kai. Or make a point of meeting someone new. In short, take a break...other than going home and staringa t the wall.
Dok,
Knows precisely how you feel.
If going for a hike is an option, I highly recommend it. It's fun and refreshing and makes you feel good physically. I know that you spend a good deal of time out in the field anyway, but it couldn't hurt to get out and move around in the outdoors.
Quote from: Doktor Howl on February 15, 2010, 11:42:05 PM
Quote from: Kai on February 15, 2010, 10:32:32 PM
My advisor has left for the day, hell, the building is nearly all empty by now. Only people left are die hard professors and graduate students like myself.
I've had a shitty day, to be honest. The physiology exam this morning was less than enjoyable, done more or less on an empty stomach, which was promptly followed by a 3 hour seminar and a lunch discussion with the speaker. And I'm feeling like an idiot the entire time. Not that this isn't a normal occurence for me.
This afternoon I was supposed to work on more of the bad ass physiology project but apparently the bacteria got thrown out so....I'm left sitting in my office, all my plans for today out the window.
WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING HERE?!?! I'm not getting a fucking thing done, I haven't done SHIT this afternoon. I have 8 samples and god knows how many microcaddisflies to identify before the end of the month, I have reading to do up the wazoo, I have a discussion to prepare for tomorrow, a lab to write for wednesday, there's a seminar tonight, and I haven't accomplished a damn thing.
The worst part is, I don't even feel good about it. I don't feel satisfied. I don't feel happy with sitting around feeling tired and depressed and anxious because I feel like my collegues just want to throw me down a hole. Complete paranoia I know, but I'm living in a shell of fucking isolation here. I have maybe one meaningful conversation a day and it just feels like all the minds around me are getting more and more distant.
If I go home, I'm just going to fucking masturbate, probably. Not that schlicking isn't fun, but its about as productive as what I'm doing here, which is to say, not at all.
Also, fuck you.
~Kai
Go out and see a movie, Kai. Or make a point of meeting someone new. In short, take a break...other than going home and staringa t the wall.
Dok,
Knows precisely how you feel.
Watching a talk on the benefits and detriments of future nanotechnology in the school theater.
Quote from: Kai on February 16, 2010, 12:03:18 AM
Watching a talk on the benefits and detriments of future nanotechnology in the school theater.
:x
Dok,
Bets it will have the same "benefits" as Monsanto has brought us with genetic engineering.
Quote from: Kai on February 15, 2010, 10:32:32 PM
My advisor has left for the day, hell, the building is nearly all empty by now. Only people left are die hard professors and graduate students like myself.
I've had a shitty day, to be honest. The physiology exam this morning was less than enjoyable, done more or less on an empty stomach, which was promptly followed by a 3 hour seminar and a lunch discussion with the speaker. And I'm feeling like an idiot the entire time. Not that this isn't a normal occurence for me.
This afternoon I was supposed to work on more of the bad ass physiology project but apparently the bacteria got thrown out so....I'm left sitting in my office, all my plans for today out the window.
WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING HERE?!?! I'm not getting a fucking thing done, I haven't done SHIT this afternoon. I have 8 samples and god knows how many microcaddisflies to identify before the end of the month, I have reading to do up the wazoo, I have a discussion to prepare for tomorrow, a lab to write for wednesday, there's a seminar tonight, and I haven't accomplished a damn thing.
The worst part is, I don't even feel good about it. I don't feel satisfied. I don't feel happy with sitting around feeling tired and depressed and anxious because I feel like my collegues just want to throw me down a hole. Complete paranoia I know, but I'm living in a shell of fucking isolation here. I have maybe one meaningful conversation a day and it just feels like all the minds around me are getting more and more distant.
If I go home, I'm just going to fucking masturbate, probably. Not that schlicking isn't fun, but its about as productive as what I'm doing here, which is to say, not at all.
Also, fuck you.
~Kai
Do what I did...
take 2 days off (weekend) and stay in bed.
Quote from: Doktor Howl on February 16, 2010, 12:09:25 AM
Quote from: Kai on February 16, 2010, 12:03:18 AM
Watching a talk on the benefits and detriments of future nanotechnology in the school theater.
:x
Dok,
Bets it will have the same "benefits" as Monsanto has brought us with genetic engineering.
Well, nanotubules of a particular length and width can certainly mimic asbestos.
On the other hand, there are good applications. Little information on the risks of particular materials though, because every nanoparticle of a different size shape and surface area, structure, etc, has a different effect in biological systems, some none, some massive. No stereotypes can be made about them in general, unlike in pesticides where they are toxic overall.
More research is needed. Seems to be the easy way out, but it's true.
Quote from: Kai on February 16, 2010, 01:02:22 AM
Quote from: Doktor Howl on February 16, 2010, 12:09:25 AM
Quote from: Kai on February 16, 2010, 12:03:18 AM
Watching a talk on the benefits and detriments of future nanotechnology in the school theater.
:x
Dok,
Bets it will have the same "benefits" as Monsanto has brought us with genetic engineering.
Well, nanotubules of a particular length and width can certainly mimic asbestos.
On the other hand, there are good applications. Little information on the risks of particular materials though, because every nanoparticle of a different size shape and surface area, structure, etc, has a different effect in biological systems, some none, some massive. No stereotypes can be made about them in general, unlike in pesticides where they are toxic overall.
More research is needed. Seems to be the easy way out, but it's true.
I was referring to Monsanto's use of genetic engineering to strangle farmers via "patent violations".
Quote from: Doktor Howl on February 16, 2010, 01:06:21 AM
Quote from: Kai on February 16, 2010, 01:02:22 AM
Quote from: Doktor Howl on February 16, 2010, 12:09:25 AM
Quote from: Kai on February 16, 2010, 12:03:18 AM
Watching a talk on the benefits and detriments of future nanotechnology in the school theater.
:x
Dok,
Bets it will have the same "benefits" as Monsanto has brought us with genetic engineering.
Well, nanotubules of a particular length and width can certainly mimic asbestos.
On the other hand, there are good applications. Little information on the risks of particular materials though, because every nanoparticle of a different size shape and surface area, structure, etc, has a different effect in biological systems, some none, some massive. No stereotypes can be made about them in general, unlike in pesticides where they are toxic overall.
More research is needed. Seems to be the easy way out, but it's true.
I was referring to Monsanto's use of genetic engineering to strangle farmers via "patent violations".
Oh, most probably.
Kai, what interests do you have other than insects and masturbation? Is there anything you do to unwind after you've finished work? If there isn't now, was there something in the past? Are there any hobbies you've been wanting to try? I normally find table top rpgs to be a good way to relax, or reading fiction, but anything that can engross you in something other than what you have to work on constantly is good.
I do a lot of reading, play the classical guitar, and computer related stuffs.
I've done a little bit of everything in the past but right now there's not really the time for it. Which reminds me, I still have to finish my Behavior lab in the morning.
I've been running instead of walking to and from the bus, which has been nice.