So, here I sit, blitzed out of my fucking mind. Trying to mask the pain. Drinking to induce vomiting. If you're drinking, you're vomiting due to alcohol poisoning, not because your body is trying everything it can to stop it. Stop the day long quakes and year long aches. Stop the stabbing sensations and almost reminiscent of an orgasm, ever-present whole-body thrumming of pain, originating in the hips and radiating outward. That hell-hot heat permeating your bones. Waking you in tears at night, Making even the act of sitting or shifting your weight from one foot to the other excruciating. I'm so sick of hearing the green-stick popping. The gritty grinding halting my steps, holding me back. The shakes making it hard to even type at work. I'm genuinely upset that I'm not depressed because the depression pulled my attention away. What I wouldn't give to be in that place again, screaming at the static demons on the end of my bed and feeling that surge of adrenaline, negating everything else. In the fight, even against psychotic imaginings, you forget the pain your body is experiencing.
Yes, I know I'm whining. It's my 23rd birthday. I'll fucking anybody. Or kill me.
:( What's wrong with you? Back problems? You seem too young to be already falling apart.
Hips. I don't want to have them fixed yet so it really is just me whining.
Quote from: StoreBrand on June 17, 2010, 06:09:10 PM
Hips. I don't want to have them fixed yet so it really is just me whining.
That sucks total ass. What would they do to fix them?
I have a friend whose lower back, hips, and knees are all kinds of fucked up from having been a child gymnast. WTF do people do that to their kids?
Hip surgery (adding bone to create a larger roof and/or fix the angle) or hip replacement. I have no idea what the fuck is wrong with some parents. Mine weren't like that. I just lost in the genes lottery.
:( Sounds mighty debillitating.
I have a bunch of info on different food and such that can help with inflamation and pain because of all of my crap. PM me if you're interested and I'll send it to you!
Quote from: StoreBrand on June 17, 2010, 08:01:36 PM
Hip surgery (adding bone to create a larger roof and/or fix the angle) or hip replacement. I have no idea what the fuck is wrong with some parents. Mine weren't like that. I just lost in the genes lottery.
Oh, I didn't figure you were a former Mary Lou Retton or anything; it just made me think of someone else I know who's all fucked up at a young age, and it makes my mind boggle that anyone would do that to their kid.
You should do the surgery while you're still young and have the opportunity. Bone heals a lot faster when you're young.
I'm reserving my sympathy for people who DIDN'T suddenly decide that we were all scum, ask everyone to delete her contact info, then change the story to "the military made me do it", then reappear acting like nothing ever happened.
Get the surgery or don't. I, for one, do not care. I'm saving my sympathy (as opposed to pity, mind you) for the members of this board that have similar or worse problems, and haven't shat all over us. Jenne comes to mind...Her problems make yours look like a bad cold, and yet here she is in your thread, feeling bad for you, after you dumped on each and every one of us. Jenne is my friend, and I'm proud to call her my friend. You? You're just some internet emotion leech.
Enough said.
Quote from: Doktor Howl on June 17, 2010, 10:58:17 PM
I'm reserving my sympathy for people who DIDN'T suddenly decide that we were all scum, ask everyone to delete her contact info, then change the story to "the military made me do it", then reappear acting like nothing ever happened.
Get the surgery or don't. I, for one, do not care. I'm saving my sympathy (as opposed to pity, mind you) for the members of this board that have similar or worse problems, and haven't shat all over us. Jenne comes to mind...Her problems make yours look like a bad cold, and yet here she is in your thread, feeling bad for you, after you dumped on each and every one of us. Jenne is my friend, and I'm proud to call her my friend. You? You're just some internet emotion leech.
Enough said.
I must have missed this.
Quote from: Doktor Howl on June 17, 2010, 10:58:17 PM
I'm reserving my sympathy for people who DIDN'T suddenly decide that we were all scum, ask everyone to delete her contact info, then change the story to "the military made me do it", then reappear acting like nothing ever happened.
Get the surgery or don't. I, for one, do not care. I'm saving my sympathy (as opposed to pity, mind you) for the members of this board that have similar or worse problems, and haven't shat all over us. Jenne comes to mind...Her problems make yours look like a bad cold, and yet here she is in your thread, feeling bad for you, after you dumped on each and every one of us. Jenne is my friend, and I'm proud to call her my friend. You? You're just some internet emotion leech.
Enough said.
It's times like this that I think my bad memory must make me seem like some kind of mood-swing queen, because I only vaguely remember this AND thought it was someone else.
Quote from: Nigel on June 17, 2010, 11:04:24 PM
Quote from: Doktor Howl on June 17, 2010, 10:58:17 PM
I'm reserving my sympathy for people who DIDN'T suddenly decide that we were all scum, ask everyone to delete her contact info, then change the story to "the military made me do it", then reappear acting like nothing ever happened.
Get the surgery or don't. I, for one, do not care. I'm saving my sympathy (as opposed to pity, mind you) for the members of this board that have similar or worse problems, and haven't shat all over us. Jenne comes to mind...Her problems make yours look like a bad cold, and yet here she is in your thread, feeling bad for you, after you dumped on each and every one of us. Jenne is my friend, and I'm proud to call her my friend. You? You're just some internet emotion leech.
Enough said.
It's times like this that I think my bad memory must make me seem like some kind of mood-swing queen, because I only vaguely remember this AND thought it was someone else.
Gin = Storebrand. I normally wouldn't remember something like this from what was a casual user, except for the abrupt, callous manner in which she did it. It sort of stuck with me.
Quote from: Doktor Howl on June 17, 2010, 11:11:38 PM
Quote from: Nigel on June 17, 2010, 11:04:24 PM
Quote from: Doktor Howl on June 17, 2010, 10:58:17 PM
I'm reserving my sympathy for people who DIDN'T suddenly decide that we were all scum, ask everyone to delete her contact info, then change the story to "the military made me do it", then reappear acting like nothing ever happened.
Get the surgery or don't. I, for one, do not care. I'm saving my sympathy (as opposed to pity, mind you) for the members of this board that have similar or worse problems, and haven't shat all over us. Jenne comes to mind...Her problems make yours look like a bad cold, and yet here she is in your thread, feeling bad for you, after you dumped on each and every one of us. Jenne is my friend, and I'm proud to call her my friend. You? You're just some internet emotion leech.
Enough said.
It's times like this that I think my bad memory must make me seem like some kind of mood-swing queen, because I only vaguely remember this AND thought it was someone else.
Gin = Storebrand. I normally wouldn't remember something like this from what was a casual user, except for the abrupt, callous manner in which she did it. It sort of stuck with me.
Huh. Well, what do you know. Weird!
Dok has an amazing ability to remember fail.
Quote from: Charley Brown on June 17, 2010, 11:37:54 PM
Dok has an amazing ability to remember fail.
It's a powerful magic he has, this Dok!
I don't want sympathy. I said I was whining in the OP.
I never dumped all over the people on the board. I can dig up and resend that text. Does it really make sense for me to be back here if I don't enjoy reading the posts? Posts are reflective of the people who write them. I read Jenne's posts. You're right about her having a much rougher time. I'm assuming that's why she's so sympathetic to others. The same goes for any number of other people on here.
Because I like PD I talked about it at work. My supervisor didn't like some of the things I mentioned. We discussed it. He viewed my participation as support of the sentiment expressed on the board. I was an idiot and didn't read the guidelines myself. I withdrew and since you were the only one with any of my info I asked you to lose my PI. I made a point of telling you it had nothing to do with you, that I actually like the people on the board. You were still pissed. I apologized. You told me to fuck off and I did. When I came back I made what I thought was a mutual gentlemen's agreement to keep away from each other's posts since I'd already pissed you off. I don't post often and when I do it tends to be retarded, mundane stuff. I think this was the first post that wasn't just me passing on a link I thought people might be interested in or a "lol, I <3 hurling" kind of statement. Feel free to ignore me. I'm not going to fight you and you're obviously free to flame the hell out of me. I was actually wondering when it was going to happen.
tl;dr I'm a bitch. Don't read anything I post.
Actually, there was a proposition from you, IIRC, but no agreement.
But let me get this straight: Instead of giving that reason when you left, or when you texted me, you just shat on all of us. I remember a comment about "This board is trending a way I don't like" as the first reason you gave when you left. The increasingly bizarre reasons you gave via text were later on.
But I will ignore your existence from this point forward. Cheerfully. I have certain very basic standards for designating individuals as "people", and you fell rather short of the mark that day.
I don't know what proposition I made IIRC. I looked through all my posts and unless you're talking about that neurotic post I think I wrote during the blizzard I don't know where I shat on everyone but if I did I apologize to PD. I'd offer an explanation in PM but you've made it abundantly clear you want none of it. That's fine. I'll continue staying out of your threads and OKM/any other subforum you have to monitor.
Quote from: StoreBrand on June 18, 2010, 03:53:56 AM
I don't know what proposition I made IIRC. I looked through all my posts and unless you're talking about that neurotic post I think I wrote during the blizzard I don't know where I shat on everyone but if I did I apologize to PD. I'd offer an explanation in PM but you've made it abundantly clear you want none of it. That's fine. I'll continue staying out of your threads and OKM/any other subforum you have to monitor.
I monitor all forums. Feel free to post. I won't interrupt again.
Quote from: Nigel on June 17, 2010, 11:04:24 PM
Quote from: Doktor Howl on June 17, 2010, 10:58:17 PM
I'm reserving my sympathy for people who DIDN'T suddenly decide that we were all scum, ask everyone to delete her contact info, then change the story to "the military made me do it", then reappear acting like nothing ever happened.
Get the surgery or don't. I, for one, do not care. I'm saving my sympathy (as opposed to pity, mind you) for the members of this board that have similar or worse problems, and haven't shat all over us. Jenne comes to mind...Her problems make yours look like a bad cold, and yet here she is in your thread, feeling bad for you, after you dumped on each and every one of us. Jenne is my friend, and I'm proud to call her my friend. You? You're just some internet emotion leech.
Enough said.
It's times like this that I think my bad memory must make me seem like some kind of mood-swing queen, because I only vaguely remember this AND thought it was someone else.
THIS!!
I suffer from a severe case of CRS. :cry: