ASK ME ANYTHING!
Whatever about the first two, those problems can wait. When will you know about number three? :sad:
They moved my biopsy from this afternoon to tomorrow afternoon because my nurse practitioner had to take the day off. After they pluck out a chunk of my cervix, it will take about 2 weeks to hear the response from the lab.
I hope it's something else, which it could well be, you're very young to be getting that. The waiting is the hardest part, make sure you call them if they don't call you.
I'm definitely positive for what's called LSIL, or low-grade lesions caused by a high-risk strain of HPV.
So yes, I have HPV.
Yes, it's already started to eat away at my cervix.
Now they need to see how far along it is and how I need to be treated. According to my pap and all of the paperwork I got in, I'm 2 stages below carcinoma. On a scale from 1 to 6 on an pap smear, I'm a 4. When they called me, they said that they didn't know how far yet, and that the paperwork would tell me. So yeah...Things can change though. Fast.
HPV can go away on it's own in about 2 years, or it can upgrade to HSIL, or jump for no reason from LSIL to CIS (Carcinoma in situ). I've already met a few women who have had cervical carcinoma in their 20s, so it can happen. The fact that I'm not a skank DOES help.
I assume you are going to go back and shoot all of your ex's just in case, right?
Quote from: Faust on June 20, 2011, 04:21:39 PM
I assume you are going to go back and shoot all of your ex's just in case, right?
I will never know who gave it to me, it doesn't show up on a man's STD screening. Considering that both Herbert and General Stuart were relatively promiscuous in college, and Dartmouth Fett was a downright whore, who the hell knows. Though since I already have lesions, that could rule out DF. I didn't have them last year, but that doesn't mean the virus wasn't present.
My bet is on GS. His ex before me was a bit of a skank.
Also: Condoms don't do shit if it's already on your skin.
I won't insult you with a get well soon, but do whatever it takes to remain safe, sane and strong.
Sanity is limited at this point. That's for sure. The breakdown I had last night proved that.
Take care of yourself. :(
I was almost okay until Herbert sent me a message.
Then I just came to the conclusion that something is VERY wrong with me if men I love leave me for teenagers.
No. That is not a problem with you. That is a problem with them, them who are stupid assholes who need to DIAF.
Quote from: Alty on June 20, 2011, 05:58:43 PM
No. That is not a problem with you. That is a problem with them, them who are stupid assholes who need to DIAF.
I like that motorcycle you're riding, Alty. It just looks RIGHT.
Suu...I'm so so sorry, Babe. Give yourself a break. And I hope you get some rest today. Keep your strength up--you'll get through this.
Oh I'm giving myself a break.
I'm relaxing and working on throwing my kitchen knives into a cardboard box, that way if DF DOES decide that he has testicles and wants to visit me this weekend, I can show him my new skill.
He's still in a knee brace, so he's not running very fast.
Hang in there. Keep up the hope.
Quote from: Your Evil Stepmother on June 20, 2011, 05:56:57 PM
I was almost okay until Herbert sent me a message.
Then I just came to the conclusion that something is VERY wrong with me if men I love leave me for teenagers.
I think there's a really fine line to walk between recognizing self-sabotaging behavior, and "blaming the victim", as it were. That said, I think there is enormous value in examining how you approach relationships, and trying to find out whether there are patterns you can break.
There are lots of good men out there... hell, look at the men here, and the men you're friends with! But when you primarily seem to be attracting damaged, ambivalent, or immature men, it might be a good time to sit down and ask yourself why, what some early red flags might have been, and what you could do differently... not IN the relationship, but in choosing your relationships.
I'd lend sympathy, but being male, I'm "inherently a douchebag", so I figure it wouldn't count for much.
just let me know if you want to borrow the throwing knives or spikes. For entertainment only,of course
Quote from: Richter on June 20, 2011, 06:13:21 PM
just let me know if you want to borrow the throwing knives or spikes. For entertainment only,of course
Funny you should mention.
(http://i15.photobucket.com/albums/a356/theonlyang/258299_10150219141513143_510548142_7371465_6745518_o.jpg)
The big ones went in on the backspin, I need to adjust my throw, otherwise those little fuckers are PERFECT.
Ack, just caught all 4 on the backspin, wtf.
I tried to go for the door to see if I could, but the knife couldn't penetrate. It DID leave a nice gash. I figure, hell, I'm probably not getting my deposit back because my landlord is a tool, I may as well make a target.
Actually, you got a dartboard in your magic bag?