Babycakes lost his grandmother when he was fourteen years old. She used to be a wiccan, you see, and she said she was a bad witch, and will she get into heaven? Will I get into heaven, if I become a witch? Babycakes wants to summon his grandmother, and make her tell him she's alright.
Babycakes is sixteen years old and nothing is wrong but her brain chemistry that keeps her up all night and makes her wish she'd just stop breathing, and can you give her something to keep breathing for? Babycakes loves you, but what she loves is a thing she built in her head and you will never be the same.
Babycakes lost his father and he is fine just fine and it doesn't matter if he cried at the funeral because grief is not a thing you magic away with rituals, and who cares if he didn't go to school today? Or yesterday? Or all last week? Babycakes just wants everything back the way it was.
Babycakes is scared she's pregnant, and she doesn't know how to find out and she knows if she is there's nothing to be done for it but just run away, and you can't get pregnant your first time, right? And she doesn't know when her period is supposed to be and she's so nervous it's making her sick, and being sick makes her nervous, and she just wishes he'd used a fucking condom like he promised.
Babycakes is hurt and scared and just starting out and already on the wrong path.
Sometimes we are all Babycakes.
When you kick Babycakes, you kick yourself. When you are kind to Babycakes, you are kind to yourself. When you befriend Babycakes, you create a loop that threatens the fabric of reality - an unstable bubble of time.
The only thing you can do is give Babycakes what it needs to get back on its feet, and then walk away.
Wow. Very nice.
My eyes got all leaky there for a second. Really nice.
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Poignant.