So, I got cheated on. Broke up with her, she said she would commit suicide, bitch never did it, but that's not my problem.
The problem is that she was my reason to life. Well, not completely, more my reason for not going into complete hedonism.
TRIGGER EXISTENTIAL CRISIS
The fuck do I do now? Maybe seeking new meaning excessively is me over compensating for learning the true face of love and human nature, but fuck it. I need meaning anyways.
Nothing holding me back from doing anything I want. (except money) Hell, the first night after breaking up I realized I didn't have to be a big macho Dom anymore. I shaved my legs and went to a gay bar. It was an alright night.
Sure the door of being a sissy guy and cross dressing could be fun for few months, but it'll get boring in a few months. Then what? Furry? Bestiality? sex trafficking? The list will run out eventually, I've already done like 80% of most porn sites category lists.
Even if I don't use sex to justify life. Do I pride myself over mastery of a subject? That seems as tangible as sex. I could learn all about physics or computers, but someone will always beat me. Even if I viewed them as my comrade I would still feel jealous of them. Even then, sciences move so fast that as soon as I discover something it just opens the door for people to top me. I'd get a month of gratification at best.
Everything else I don't care to do.
All pleasure if fleeting, but that makes it pleasure because with out the shit times the good times wouldn't be good. What do I do when I run out of pleasures that I can do legally? Or when I have no motivation to pursue pleasure?
Is pleasure even a good enough meaning to life?
Stop comparing yourself to others, in fact, just ignore them completely.
Do stuff because it interests you and the act of doing it makes you happy, don't just do it because you get a happy from being better at it than others.
Pride is anathema to happiness.
Speaking from experience, hedonism is a dangerous standard by which to live. If you survive long enough, the focus naturally shifts from physical to mental pleasure, making it more sustainable, but chances are by that point you've done some permanent damage to yourself.
I suggest you find something you like to do, find a way to get paid to do it, become as good at it as you can and enjoy the ride that ensues.
ETA: and what RegRet said. Fuck ego tripping. It's counterproductive.
The Good Doktor recommends your course of action, on account of he didn't like the sissy guy comment much.
Same.
I think maybe Meunster meant the sissy fetish, given the context.
Quote from: Meunster on July 02, 2015, 06:54:43 AM
Sure the door of being a sissy guy and cross dressing could be fun for few months, but it'll get boring in a few months. Then what? Furry? Bestiality? sex trafficking? The list will run out eventually, I've already done like 80% of most porn sites category lists.
This is clearly meant rhetorically, but I'm going to post this document with 600 helpful suggestions anyway
http://supervert.com/elibrary/marquis_de_sade/120_days_of_sodom
Ah, yes, the teenage existential crisis. I had one of those myself, about a year back.
You could try not trying to justify life at all. I really think human life quite insane and completely illogical, but that's the beauty of it. 7 billion little confused creatures floating on a rock asking the same question; "why?" Truth is, happiness and pleasure are actually completely unrelated to life and "the bigger picture", if I can call it that. In fact, life isn't yours at all, not as a birthright or anything. It's a gift that can be easily revoked. Neither is there any meaning to it, besides that we put into it by searching for meaning - which also happens to be ultimately superficial.
And yet, life finds a way. So let it justify itself. That isn't order or a grand plan, that's chaos at its finest - both a big joke and a serious work of art.
Quote from: Theodore Rosenheimer III on July 09, 2015, 05:55:46 AM
Ah, yes, the teenage existential crisis. I had one of those myself, about a year back.
You could try not trying to justify life at all. I really think human life quite insane and completely illogical, but that's the beauty of it. 7 billion little confused creatures floating on a rock asking the same question; "why?" Truth is, happiness and pleasure are actually completely unrelated to life and "the bigger picture", if I can call it that. In fact, life isn't yours at all, not as a birthright or anything. It's a gift that can be easily revoked. Neither is there any meaning to it, besides that we put into it by searching for meaning - which also happens to be ultimately superficial.
And yet, life finds a way. So let it justify itself. That isn't order or a grand plan, that's chaos at its finest - both a big joke and a serious work of art.
Well said.
Quote from: Theodore Rosenheimer III on July 09, 2015, 05:55:46 AM
Ah, yes, the teenage existential crisis. I had one of those myself, about a year back.
You could try not trying to justify life at all. I really think human life quite insane and completely illogical, but that's the beauty of it. 7 billion little confused creatures floating on a rock asking the same question; "why?" Truth is, happiness and pleasure are actually completely unrelated to life and "the bigger picture", if I can call it that. In fact, life isn't yours at all, not as a birthright or anything. It's a gift that can be easily revoked. Neither is there any meaning to it, besides that we put into it by searching for meaning - which also happens to be ultimately superficial.
And yet, life finds a way. So let it justify itself. That isn't order or a grand plan, that's chaos at its finest - both a big joke and a serious work of art.
So far, you are my favorite new guy this week.
Quote from: Meunster on July 02, 2015, 06:54:43 AM
So, I got cheated on. Broke up with her, she said she would commit suicide, bitch never did it, but that's not my problem.
The problem is that she was my reason to life. Well, not completely, more my reason for not going into complete hedonism.
TRIGGER EXISTENTIAL CRISIS
The fuck do I do now? Maybe seeking new meaning excessively is me over compensating for learning the true face of love and human nature, but fuck it. I need meaning anyways.
Nothing holding me back from doing anything I want. (except money) Hell, the first night after breaking up I realized I didn't have to be a big macho Dom anymore. I shaved my legs and went to a gay bar. It was an alright night.
Sure the door of being a sissy guy and cross dressing could be fun for few months, but it'll get boring in a few months. Then what? Furry? Bestiality? sex trafficking? The list will run out eventually, I've already done like 80% of most porn sites category lists.
Even if I don't use sex to justify life. Do I pride myself over mastery of a subject? That seems as tangible as sex. I could learn all about physics or computers, but someone will always beat me. Even if I viewed them as my comrade I would still feel jealous of them. Even then, sciences move so fast that as soon as I discover something it just opens the door for people to top me. I'd get a month of gratification at best.
Everything else I don't care to do.
All pleasure if fleeting, but that makes it pleasure because with out the shit times the good times wouldn't be good. What do I do when I run out of pleasures that I can do legally? Or when I have no motivation to pursue pleasure?
Is pleasure even a good enough meaning to life?
Don't define yourself by who you are with. Don't define yourself by what you put your pork in, and what porks you.
You got cheated on and it sucks, what you are feeling is normal and wanting to go out and have loads of angry sex is a normal reaction.
My unsolicited advice comes with a caveat: its terrible. None the less, spend some time just being you, find what you enjoy doing on your own again, don't be defined by your partner.
Quote from: Mesozoic Mister Nigel on July 09, 2015, 07:59:27 PM
So far, you are my favorite new guy this week.
This week? My ego won't allow that, I'll have to shoot for favorite of the month instead :lulz:
Quote from: Theodore Rosenheimer III on July 10, 2015, 03:51:55 AM
Quote from: Mesozoic Mister Nigel on July 09, 2015, 07:59:27 PM
So far, you are my favorite new guy this week.
This week? My ego won't allow that, I'll have to shoot for favorite of the month instead :lulz:
You still have 21 days to make that happen, and I believe in you.
Quote from: Mesozoic Mister Nigel on July 10, 2015, 08:13:57 PM
Quote from: Theodore Rosenheimer III on July 10, 2015, 03:51:55 AM
Quote from: Mesozoic Mister Nigel on July 09, 2015, 07:59:27 PM
So far, you are my favorite new guy this week.
This week? My ego won't allow that, I'll have to shoot for favorite of the month instead :lulz:
You still have 21 days to make that happen, and I believe in you.
Remember that you don't have to achieve this by being awesome yourself, you only have to ensure that everyone else looks worse than you :evil:
Quote from: Q. G. Pennyworth on July 10, 2015, 09:11:17 PM
Quote from: Mesozoic Mister Nigel on July 10, 2015, 08:13:57 PM
Quote from: Theodore Rosenheimer III on July 10, 2015, 03:51:55 AM
Quote from: Mesozoic Mister Nigel on July 09, 2015, 07:59:27 PM
So far, you are my favorite new guy this week.
This week? My ego won't allow that, I'll have to shoot for favorite of the month instead :lulz:
You still have 21 days to make that happen, and I believe in you.
Remember that you don't have to achieve this by being awesome yourself, you only have to ensure that everyone else looks worse than you :evil:
:argh!: Stop corrupting new friends!
Don't listen to her Teddy, be the best you you can be!
Quote from: Theodore Rosenheimer III on July 09, 2015, 05:55:46 AM
Ah, yes, the teenage existential crisis. I had one of those myself, about a year back.
You could try not trying to justify life at all. I really think human life quite insane and completely illogical, but that's the beauty of it. 7 billion little confused creatures floating on a rock asking the same question; "why?" Truth is, happiness and pleasure are actually completely unrelated to life and "the bigger picture", if I can call it that. In fact, life isn't yours at all, not as a birthright or anything. It's a gift that can be easily revoked. Neither is there any meaning to it, besides that we put into it by searching for meaning - which also happens to be ultimately superficial.
And yet, life finds a way. So let it justify itself. That isn't order or a grand plan, that's chaos at its finest - both a big joke and a serious work of art.
Fuck off Camo I'm going through something.
Queen Gogira is a bad person, who does bad things.
Quote from: Doktor Howl on July 11, 2015, 01:33:21 AM
Queen Gogira is a bad person, who does bad things.
Sir! I may be terrible, but calling me a person is uncalled for!
Quote from: Q. G. Pennyworth on July 11, 2015, 01:53:41 AM
Quote from: Doktor Howl on July 11, 2015, 01:33:21 AM
Queen Gogira is a bad person, who does bad things.
Sir! I may be terrible, but calling me a person is uncalled for!
I snickered good-naturedly.
Quote from: Q. G. Pennyworth on July 11, 2015, 01:53:41 AM
Quote from: Doktor Howl on July 11, 2015, 01:33:21 AM
Queen Gogira is a bad person, who does bad things.
Sir! I may be terrible, but calling me a person is uncalled for!
Just because you have no skeleton doesn't mean you aren't a person.
Quote from: Meunster on July 02, 2015, 06:54:43 AM
Sure the door of being a sissy guy and cross dressing could be fun for few months, but it'll get boring in a few months. Then what? Furry? Bestiality? sex trafficking? The list will run out eventually, I'velready done like 80% of most porn sites category lists.
What aboit sounding?
Quote from: Meunster on July 02, 2015, 06:54:43 AM
So, I got cheated on. Broke up with her, she said she would commit suicide, bitch never did it, but that's not my problem.
The problem is that she was my reason to life. Well, not completely, more my reason for not going into complete hedonism.
TRIGGER EXISTENTIAL CRISIS
The fuck do I do now? Maybe seeking new meaning excessively is me over compensating for learning the true face of love and human nature, but fuck it. I need meaning anyways.
Nothing holding me back from doing anything I want. (except money) Hell, the first night after breaking up I realized I didn't have to be a big macho Dom anymore. I shaved my legs and went to a gay bar. It was an alright night.
Sure the door of being a sissy guy and cross dressing could be fun for few months, but it'll get boring in a few months. Then what? Furry? Bestiality? sex trafficking? The list will run out eventually, I've already done like 80% of most porn sites category lists.
Even if I don't use sex to justify life. Do I pride myself over mastery of a subject? That seems as tangible as sex. I could learn all about physics or computers, but someone will always beat me. Even if I viewed them as my comrade I would still feel jealous of them. Even then, sciences move so fast that as soon as I discover something it just opens the door for people to top me. I'd get a month of gratification at best.
Everything else I don't care to do.
All pleasure if fleeting, but that makes it pleasure because with out the shit times the good times wouldn't be good. What do I do when I run out of pleasures that I can do legally? Or when I have no motivation to pursue pleasure?
Is pleasure even a good enough meaning to life?
Well, pleasure isn't a finite resource. You're just getting bored easily.
Attachment to pleasure can become a trap. Your ego is a tyrant; it deceives you into thinking that Ego is the entirety of the Self.
It'll have you running on the treadmill until you can no longer distinguish between rewards and motivation.
Like, sure, orgasms are good. We all want to feel good. But letting those impulses dictate all your behavior is how we get lost in the fog of Operant Conditioning. If you're not careful, you'll lose yourself in the never ending quest to consume pleasure.
Recommended meditation: give pleasure to others
Read all of Ecclesiastes ch 2 if you can find the time. As close a Solomon gets to nihilism.
Synopsis:
Wise & fool both= worm food, and so they are equals in value if not ability. Pleasure and sorrow are both empty because they're temporary, and so it goes.
Long term plans, even families are tragic and pointless because you'll be dead. Enjoy the simple things you have in the moment because tomorrow is just as bad and you might not even see it.
I'm amazed he finished writing the thing, but you don't have to take my word for it.
Most of Ecclesiastes in fact, except the bits at the end where he starts backpedaling (wtf Ecclesiastes 7:28!? Eight lines ago nobody was righteous!)
Quote from: Prelate Diogenes Shandor on July 15, 2015, 04:20:00 AM
Most of Ecclesiastes in fact, except the bits at the end where he starts backpedaling (wtf Ecclesiastes 7:28!? Eight lines ago nobody was righteous!)
You forgot about Solomon's vast nuclear arsenal and geopolitical ambitions.
:magick: :rpger:
Your argument is invalid.
Is it bad if even I can't tell if the things I say are an example of Poe's Law or not?