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Being one of those serious fanatics of the books, I'm really sad he died.  You're all right though... he should have finished it a long time ago.  I think the reason he's so long winded and spread out is that he's trying to cover all of the bases.

Action
Detail
Politics
Detail
Romance
Detail
Intrigue
Detail
Mystery
Detail

One of my friends read all the books and just left out the descriptions of hallways and rooms.  He liked it a LOT more then, because it cut out all the shit that you don't really need.  I personally liked the detail, because hidden in every description are hints about the cultures he's describing.  From a sociological point of view, the man's a genius.  The ways in which all the characters interact I find to be very true to life.  It's like a fantasy soap opera, but more accurate than telemundo.

Favorite parts of the later books are the interactions between Matt and Tuon... but those of you who read my posts already know that I'm a sap.

I think what also helped is that I started reading them when I was very young, puts more fervor into it for me.


-Nomad Ttam

You'll find that, unlike some places that will give you a pat on the back when you post your innermost feelings, around here we'll actually give you honest critiques.
You don't like it, no one made you post.

Heh.  Sucks to be you.
LMNO
-Optimistic Discordian.

I really appreciated the honest critiques.  Maybe my style of typing comes off differently than I mean it to.  I am not being angry at any of you, though I think that Triple Zero took some stabs at me.  That is what I was commenting on.  And I'm not always retreating to Discord from depression, it is One avenue that I take.

I'm trying to get a taste for this board.  Rants seemed like a good way to start.  Mine may never be as intellectual as the rest, but they are charged.  This one could be too personal for this venue, I understand that.  It just made me feel better, and I'll continue to post in this fashion if it continues to alleviate stress.

Live for Thyself!!  and pie

Nomad Ttam

Yeah, sorry about the line breaks thing... it's not because I don't care about you guys, really, you're my only family!  *tear

Just Kidding

Yeah, it's a bit emo angry and such, but um, you nobody made you read it.

I appreciate the feedback from those who took a moment to examine it.  It really was a bad morning and culmination of a bad few months, mainly having to do with women, but when don't our most "important" problems have to do with the appropriate gender?

All in all, it made me feel A LOT better, and I'm an extravert.  Part of my healing process is getting on the loudspeaker and telling the whole world that I'm mad as hell and not gonna take it anymore!  Generally in this case I meant my own shit.  I am the only reason I'm unhappy, and I can fall back into Discordia anytime I am hurt but realize that inscrutable fact.

Something about Cynicism always makes me feel better, and Discord provides you with that.  Right now I'm just leaning forward in my chair, waiting for the piano to drop out of the sky, or some personal armageddon... but I'm actually waiting with anticipation and excitement!  HAIL ERIS

Nomad Ttam

If you're gonna be a dick (Roger) then stop reading now!




why is it always so difficult... a constant question that I've never found an answer to.  You know I'm emotionally distressed if I'm talking to no one.  It means that with everyone I could talk to, there is some reason why I can't tell them everything, and I don't rant when I have to watch my tongue.  I guess that's a good sign that I'm not at the point where I truly don't care about anything.  Funny that a simple parking ticket can put me over the edge.  But I'm just dribbling over, I haven't blown yet.  This is my steam and it is thick and hot.  I'm feeling better already.  Probably because I'm not thinking so much.  This morning when I started to crack I literally just turned up the music until I couldn't hear my own thoughts.  Not healthy I'm sure.  I need the lottery or something.  The police academy more like.  It's not fair for them to put me through so much fear and doubt.  Then Biljana is doing the same thing, holding something amazing in front of me, but not telling me whether or not I'm ever actually gonna reach it.  A person could spend their whole life searching for the perfect blossom, and it would not be a wasted life.  Of course, in the end they are all perfect.  Maybe that's the waste, because they never let themselves see that, it's only their internal blocks keeping them from reaching the goal.  And the goal isn't really external, ever, it's within one's self.  That is why I fight so hard every day to maintain control.  It doesn't work, but I try... I realize that happiness is something I will find inside.  Some days I find it... and somedays not.  That's balance though, you can't be happy all the time.  I'm so afraid of being unhappy again that I'm not allowing the balance.  I have angry and I have elated.  Always I work hard.  Usually when I get to this point it is much easier to retreat into discordia.  Not retreat as much as embrace, and really remember what makes it gold for me.  Why is love always about the BBD?  Bigger Better Deal  You know, the only reason to leave someone is because you think you can do better.  Unless it's your goal to be alone.  Yes I like pina coladas and getting caught in the rain, I'm not much into health food, and I have half a brain (give or take).  That song always reminds me that no matter how well I know the apple, I still don't have the courage to scrape off the gold and find out if it's rotten inside, or solid gold.  Maybe it's just a hollow shell, or maybe Stella's really in there.  Do we ever really look to Eris for salvation?  I don't... and when I find myself looking to God for it, I get confused (hail Eris).  What the fuck am I really looking for?  I think it's about balance, but how do I know whether or not I need more discord in my life.  I'm tempted to say that YES FOR FUCKS SAKE I'VE HAD ENOUGH WOMAN! but that's what any schlub would say... and I'm more of a schlub than most.  So perhaps not, maybe there's more in store than Tia Poxa Kor for this pathetic whore.  FUCK THE APPLE and I'm sure you know how I really mean that...

Now I'm smiling!

--- How much must a man debase himself before it's appreciated?

   Listen,
Maybe my infernal writings were perhaps not up to the bar of high dischord society as it is held here on said board.  Maybe perhaps possibly per chance there is actually some acorn of intelligence or purpose in what I have chosen to send to you all.  Now, I'm not writing this to attempt to sound like I'm not and idiot, or that I'm some sort of special orator who is better than you... I just needed a chance to see what I was getting into.  It is strewn across the astral plane that you hate the 523FnordPOEE form of dischordianship where we all began, so ur hostility is appreciated, your manifesto read and maybe even agreed with.  I just simply don't have the time to read everything on this board or sort through it all in order to see it for myself.  And for Goddess' sake I just wanted some attention... it's cold and lonely in the deep dark night.

so, thanks for the love, I'm deeply impressed with the hostile form it presented itself in.  Maybe someday I'll be able to look down on people as well as the lot of you

btw- I never even read the principia, and I don't wear my underwear on top of my head either (no matter what you've heard)

I do however like long walks on the beach and rituals meant to summon Cthulu

Damnet, what's wrong with all of you???

    I got better advice from my guidance counselor when he told me:

             "Son, the appropriate to where briefs is along your waist, not on your head."

             "But Sir, this is a brief CASE not briefs!"

             "Don't impugn me boy!!! That there's a NUTCASE!!!"

And then he taught me how to masturbate my problems away




AND ANOTHER THING

       for all you seriously not serious Discords out there... don't forget that the newcomers are without a doubt better than you.  The more you think you know, the less you really know about discordia... and the same goes for firebreathing, I'm sure

btw- I pwned ur mom

All things written in the afore post are lies.

                       If you doubt the afore statement, then you are lying to yourself.

                                               If you are lying to yourself, then so am I... self.

Sometimes I wonder what Imma gonna do cause there aint no
                                                                   cure for the Confuflux blues!

bah