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This book almost makes me want to finish reading Crowley.

If the wounds were bleeding and the person receiving the mouth to mouth also had bleeding wounds, sure. 

Thats what I was getting at. It wasn't supposed to be something that happened on purpose.

I don't need to research biology to make it fit with "reality". Its a freaking story.
Plus, what are people on a Discordia website doing telling me about realism?

Think about it-- you die, but come back, but you come back with something horrid, be it AIDS or even H1N1. How miserable would the rest of your life be? The only way such a bitter person could "get back" at life, is to inflict pain on others. Spreading the disease. Im sure its happened somewhere at least once. But i've never heard a story about it, and it popped into my head the other day. Lets cast Edward Norton as the main character, and Johnny Depp as his cracked out friend who is the only one knows the truth. Hell, Ed could smash Johnny's face apart in order to keep his secret safe. What a horrible thing to add to his misery, but people seem to be self destructive when they're on the brink of insanity.

Yeah im know its not that mind blowing for the likes of us, but compared to alot of the garbage that makes it to the top sales lists, i think it could have potential. maybe i should just write something completely random, and that would get more attention than anything i try to write thats grammatically correct.

Well life is crazy enough, I don't know if I believe anything anymore. I know illuminatus is filled with all sorts of crazy ideas, but ive seen even more just as crazy ideas on the internet. There was so much that this book talks about that I wonder how much of it is actually fiction at all. Considering alot of it IS "true".

except its not quite as deep. basically, this guy dies. he faints and hits the floor and dies, but then someone brings him back. what he discovers though, is that in the process of mouth to mouth, he gets infected with aids. and so the near death experience, combined with now having aids, makes him resent everything. he becomes extremely bitter and cynical, since he can no longer enjoy the things in life he enjoyed most, and to him, it was sex.

eventually what happens, is that he decides to take out his fury on people who deserve it most. this story could also be told from a female point of view, but effectively what i brainstormed was that they go out and give aids to everyone who deserves to die.

what do you think? does it have potential? should i even bother going any further, or has it been done?

what sort of philosophical arguments do you think this theme expresses?

One of my big questions is, and I know this is a tough question, but does any of this actually help me to have a better understanding of anything? Or is it just mean to to confuse the fuck out of me? Im sure the answer is a little of both, and I know what reaching new planes of awareness is like, but how many of those layers do you pass through? I must confess, all my learnings have been crunched, thanks to Illuminatus. I feel like it helped put alot of things in order, and yet it tears other things apart. Like the Cult of the Yellow whatever, and all the other counter-illuminati movements. Like someone said, good and evil is a two way street, and the illuminati built the road. If the illuminati is really out for good, but is all evil, and the discordians are actually the destructive ones, but the illuminati engineer and benefit from such chaos, they are all working together even when they try not too. Does anyone here feel like the pieces actually fit, or all you all as crazy as Hagbard now?

I can tell I am going to have to start at the beginning again as soon as I finish first reading. Im nearly finished the fourth trip, Hagbard and Malik are talking about whether or not they are saving the world.

I was afraid of that.

I read Principia Discordia last year. I actually felt whole new levels of awareness snapping in my brain this last week as I am learning new things, and its all cascading, or compounding, or compressing, or something. Its pretty tough stuff to handle, and this world is more complicated than anyone dares to face. Im a bit confused on some levels. So you have the Scientists, the Freedom group ( which is the discordians, fighting against the scientists ) and theres also a nothingness group in there somewhere. Is everything else pretty much just offshoots of those three, or is there an alternative to the apple/pentagon options? Also, are humans 'cursed' to know "good and evil" because of our physiology? aka no way to escape it? maybe this question is dumb because I havent finished illuminatus already, but the last two weeks have been fucked, and this whole year has been fucked, and what the fuck!!