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hey butts

I've already posted here before, but I suppose I should formally introduce myself.

I'm nonheroick. Job title says Chaos Magician but I'm guessing its somewhere between telling lies and making art.
What I says tends to be short and sweet. I can't tell the difference between sarcasm and seriousness, but that's okay, because even if I could I would (/not) take it all seriously anyways.

I, myself, have spent a long time struggling with the balance between disassociating and creating my own reality. I have a mild form of schizophrenia, and from a young age disassociated very heavily, causing myself to do many actions that I myself did not feel in control of. Once I realized that I did have control over my actions, and that I had control over the thoughts that I had in my head, I went in the opposite direction and began feeling like reality controlled ME.

In the past few years, I came to realize that reality is somewhere in-between subjective and objective. Chaos is around us always, always throwing unexpected events in our way, but we have the power to control them through our thoughts and how we see the world. However, believing that we can completely take over reality and change it is where some pass over from wisdom to lunacy. This is usually characterized by (in my own experience) feeling that nothing is real, or solid; letting entire hours pass by staring at the wall or ceiling without any sort of gnosis/intention; an inflated ego which believes that i can pass through walls or make miraculous jumps off of buildings unharmed.

I guess the moral of the story is root yourself in reality first before you make any adventures creating your own reality. However, these roots should be growing and rapidly absorbing, not stagnant like stone stakes.

I am interested in your beliefs and would like to subscribe to your newsletter.

No such newsletter exists yet. I will consider making one.

Here's how I make meatloaf

1. meat (turkey or beef)
2. celery
3. mushrooms
4. whatever other veggies are left in the fridge
5. panko (electrically puffed bread crumbs, often used in asian cooking) or sometimes i'll take bread slices and soak them in milk before combining with the meat
6. Worcestershire sauce and a bit of soy sauce
7. a bit of milk

sauce:
1. ketchup
2. Worcestershire sauce
3. this stuff we have in the cabinet... its called unami sauce. It tastes like asian barbeque sauce.
4. brown sugar

bake it in a broiler pan because nobody likes excess grease
done

The only ways to "change reality" is either thru a change in the interpretation of the meaning of it or thru taking action.

Both can be seen as basically the same, e.g., in practical occultism (magic(k)).

Precisely. And this can not be done aimlessly. Or else you may fall into the trap of believing you are more powerful than you really are. There's a reason that they say one "goes mad" with power.

I, myself, have spent a long time struggling with the balance between disassociating and creating my own reality. I have a mild form of schizophrenia, and from a young age disassociated very heavily, causing myself to do many actions that I myself did not feel in control of. Once I realized that I did have control over my actions, and that I had control over the thoughts that I had in my head, I went in the opposite direction and began feeling like reality controlled ME.

In the past few years, I came to realize that reality is somewhere in-between subjective and objective. Chaos is around us always, always throwing unexpected events in our way, but we have the power to control them through our thoughts and how we see the world. However, believing that we can completely take over reality and change it is where some pass over from wisdom to lunacy. This is usually characterized by (in my own experience) feeling that nothing is real, or solid; letting entire hours pass by staring at the wall or ceiling without any sort of gnosis/intention; an inflated ego which believes that i can pass through walls or make miraculous jumps off of buildings unharmed.

I guess the moral of the story is root yourself in reality first before you make any adventures creating your own reality. However, these roots should be growing and rapidly absorbing, not stagnant like stone stakes.

Yyyyeeeahhhh. And right now there's some precious little twat in Partially Examined Life or whatever it's called, trying to proclaim that because in HIS personal experience and intuition "bitch" is no longer primarily leveed against women, it wasn't a gender-based slur.

I think I made this point before, but when "bitch" is used against a woman, it's usually a reaction to some perceived unfeminine quality (aggressiveness, assertiveness, generally not being sweet and accommodating). When a man is called a "bitch" it's to insult him for being a pushover or a whiner, i.e. "unmanly."

Yeah, it's kind of misogynistic either way that it's being used.

This kid in the group, he seems like a 19-year-old philosophy major.

19-year-old philosophy major? He doesn't happen to be a Subgenius...? I know one of those.