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Today for shits and giggles I went on a tour of the Metro Waste Transfer Station.

Looks like my thing, totally. I am into urbex, but I refuse to trespass, which is a bummer.

Friday is the first day of non-consultancy and I've booked a visit to an exhibition on the history of sex in popular culture and a documentary about La Maison de la Radio in France. Cultural consumption alone would be a copt-out of course, but I take that as a sort of brain colonics, so to speak. Forcing something in as a form of purification. Not that I am into pseudo-therapies of any sort, of course.

Gosh, that's a horrible metaphor   

Anyway, I shall follow the advice of this thread: I will pick soon some medium-term difficult endeavour that I would normally nix for futile reasons.

Mesozoic, you have a book-worthy biography. I am awed and I high-five you over your ability and willingness to shape your own adventure and imagine a future self.

I take up right now two of the ideas you mentioned: I've just signed up for Ingress (something I wanted to do at some point and then forgot), and this:

whatever (nonharmful) pursuit violates your self-image the most, that is an avenue to explore.

Sounds both wise and strictly logical to me. I shall now catalogue what I am not and see where it goes. 

Ah shite, the brain can be so burdensome Good luck!

I was mumbling earlier over this strategy of yours. Picturing other people's flowers, it's pretty cool. A storybook of street flora ephemera, each with its own unknowable story and individuality. Uplifting.

On a side note, wouldn't be of sudden solace and healing to be around people who talk? I miss the kind of conversation that has for purpose only itself, instead of some external intent. Oh well! We'll go out, explore, take stock and move accordingly.

Mesozoic:

You have an amazing story!! Care to develop? Was the decision a gradual one or sudden? Was an interest that had already planted the seed in you beforehand, or did it strike you out of the blue?

Your advice is sound. Indeed, I've taken up stand-up comedy already, doing a course a couple of months ago and taking some gigs. It's too early to say if it suits me or not -- I have been taught so many rules and conventions, and they are still so fresh and unabsorbed in my mind that I can't quite go past them and still get a laugh. We will see.

I am not sure I can take a step as extreme as yours -- I love my creature comforts, plus basically what I need is an environment where I can be intelligently stupid and admire others doing the same, and I suspect that it's hard to find something that provides that and a livelihood as well. But I am open, and I just started exploring.


Q. G. Pennyworth: very good advice. Hope you're better now? Do you still take pictures?


(thanks to both!!! )

I need a fresh start.

My best friend of many years, a very young gay man, has de facto dumped me upon discovery of a sort of whitewashed Catholicism of his, plus the books of Peter Singer, and putting on a little face of smug moral superiority, telling me that feminists (like me) suck cuz they get so worked up upon first world problems and antitheists (like me) are oblivious to the solace of spirituality and blah blah blah (I simplify a little, but basically.). I used to bounce ideas with him on a daily basis, and I don't know anyone else with the openness that he used to have.

At work, I am a weary consultant that gets well paid to dish advice on the basis of vaporllke data, advice that will be systematically ignored and/or misconstrued. My current contract is a bit like herding a large litter of very angry kittens with a drinking habit. I've just resigned, effective in two weeks, and I plan to take a sabbatical for a few months.

I am an expat a' la I Hired a Contract Killer (the Kaurismaki movie), but I know superficially a bazillion of people.

Deep inside, I am more than a bit crazy but since a while such craziness has no outlet. I've decided to go back to my roots -- Discordianism is one of these. I'd like to hear advice from fellow Discordians on how to restart my poor battered brain. I don't plan to do anything extraordinary, I just need to stretch and exercise my underused Dadaist streak. Any advice is welcome, practical advice is very very welcome.