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Bring and Brag / Drawing of Eris/Something
« on: November 10, 2012, 03:58:50 pm »


I have done a few of these (cartoonish ones with bright colors/simple and "funny") but this might be the best so far.
I did this one at work and I had a little hangover and so on, so it kinda sucks but I like it.

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Or Kill Me / The Ouroboros of You
« on: April 29, 2011, 01:47:58 pm »
This is me trying to write about the "thing" that can't be explained. As I have tried in previous three topics, so it's basically the same stuff but in a different package.
I hope there are at least few things in this that might give you some thoughts. :wink:

Oh and this is the last one. After this I'll be writing about dinosaurs.



THE OUROBOROS OF YOU (is funny once you get out)

It's all about cycles, loops and delusions.

I had a conversation with my wife.
I don't remember the details of the conversation, but I suddenly understood that I had created my depression.
Just like that. I can honestly say that I heard the classic "halleluja" choir during that moment.

I started to laugh.

It was so absurd and paradoxical insight that I laughed for two hours.
My wife got scared and was about to call the ambulance.
I stopped her and kept on laughing.

The more I thinked about it, the more I laughed.

There I was after all those years of suicidal depression and mayhem.
Here I was and I saw the world as it really was.

When I was about 14 years old I started to get the normal vibes of any teenager.
You know, wtfuckness, emotional odness and those surreal first glimpses of nihilistic insights (okay I know there are many who never have those, but anyways).

When I arrived to the age of 17, I thought I was the only one who understood the sad truth about life.
Life was shit and death would come and kill everybody. Happiness was a curse.
Happy people lied to themselves. They were therefor stupid and disgusting.
The only way to live was to burn fast and fuck everything up.
I could do that I thought and I was right.

Long story short: Everything went downhill and that made me feel like I had been right about life all along.
"I told you people, life IS shit! I win."

So what I realized was that I had created the whole mess.
My "depression" was just me seeing shit all around me.
You see, all this time I had been swimming in a river full of shit and I didn't even realize that I was the only one in it and running out of toilet paper.

It is very difficult to get people who are ruining their lives to see what they are doing.
They really can't understand what the hell you are talking about.
They are inside the "loop" of shit and for them there is nothing but the "loop". They ARE the "loop" so it is difficult indeed.
You are basically saying to them that they are wrong. Not just their actions, but their being. That is not an easy thing to take.
The people who shot themselves, like my half-brother just did, were in the loop of shit and could not get out in any other way.
They were trapped inside their own OUROBOROS OF SHIT.

What we think becomes us and what we are makes us think what we think.
So your mind is a snake eating itself and creating itself at the same time.

Whatever it is that you're thinking right now, traps you inside itself, because that's all "you" are.

A thought

after

thought.

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Or Kill Me / The Boredom
« on: March 24, 2011, 10:44:14 am »
I was bored, so I wrote this:

When you are bored, it is because you are not able to accept the moment. You just can't handle it.
You wish you were somewhere else doing something else.

Understand that no matter how hard you wish for that something else to happen, it is not going to fucking happen.
So hoping for something else to happen is pointless, useless and fucking stupid.

When you understand that the moment can't be changed, you will accept it.

Once you accept the moment, you will be bored no more.
Why would you be?

So the next time when you find yourself from a boring situation, remember:

Accept.

Just fucking accept it.

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Or Kill Me / A Little Daydream
« on: March 21, 2011, 01:08:42 pm »

"That stupid fucking government! It's ruining my happiness in life!"
- Me, three months ago.

"What the fuuuuck am I doiiiiiiing here?"
-Me, while listening to some "bleak shit" and thinking about all the things that were wrong with the world, three weeks ago.

"Oh... I got it!"
-Me, about three weeks ago.

When you were about five years old (or so), you did not give a fuck. You were alive and you did things.
After that you started to create YOUR OWN bullshit and that stuff has been tormenting your mind ever since.

It's you who makes everything so damn complicated for yourself. "What is death?" "How to live?"
"What do I want?" "Am I any good?" "Do I deserve this?"
"Am I missing something?"
YES YOU ARE. You are missing your life by thinking about it.

Can you kill death by thinking about it?
Can you change reality around you by thinking about it very hard?
Perhaps if you could just concentrate enough you could fly like a bird?
Is your past going to change if you think about it daily?
Do you have any fucking idea why you are thinking the stuff you are thinking?

Stop taking your thoughts so seriously. They are not serious. They are just thoughts.

There is only now and the rest is your mind making shit up.
If you find yourself thinking about the future or your past, stop doing that at once and then proceed to CREATE the future.

Or you can just keep on thinking.

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Or Kill Me / Are YOU on the PATH? I hope not.
« on: March 18, 2011, 12:59:30 pm »
Well hello. I'm not sure what this is. But it's something about bullshit, lies, delusions and the illusion of enlightenment. As in Buddhism and that stuff. I'm not saying that enlightenment is bullshit, but I'm saying that it is not real.
But here it goes:



"First I had no idea of enlightenment and I was happy, then I thought there was enlightenment and I felt like shit because I had not achieved enlightenment and then finally I understood that there was no enlightenment and I was happy again!
What a stupid fucking road to take."
- Me

It's all in your head.

I just got this "enlightenment" thing. That is that there is no enlightenment.
Once you get that, you are "enlightened".
After that, you will be hitting your head against the wall for a few hours, but it's worth it. :wink:

Did someone show you the true path, did you read about "it" somewhere or were you just bored and thinking about suicide, when suddenly you "knew" that there had to be at least SOMETHING out there to give you meaning and comfort in your daily struggle?
Who made it all up? Who believed it? Who found the evidence to support their claims?
Who suffered the most?

YOU DID.YOU DID. YOU DID.

There is no "path" to "enlightenment". There is just your imagination.
There is no difference between "out there" and "in here".

"Do not try to bend the spoon, it's impossible." :x

That quote above is the truth if you just read it like it is. Do not seek any hidden meaning from it.
You really CAN'T BEND the spoon with your mind.
No really, not even with all your knowledge from the Tibetan mystics and warlocks "from the mountains".
If you want to bend it like, for real, just USE YOUR FUCKING HANDS.

You were enlightened before you started to search the enlightenment.
Then you lost it, because now there has only been the search.
It's right there, you fool! :lulz:
You are just going and seeking and cursing, but there is nothing to be found!

Enlightenment is not about "bliss forever", halo's jumping from your head, third eye or The Ultimate Truth of the dragon-lords, but about realizing that the idea about the enlightenment itself is only YOUR idea.
All that time you were thinking about your own bullshit and searching for enlightenment, life kept on going and it did not care about your delusions.

But you are older now and much smarter, I hope. You are ready to kick the habit of bullshitting yourself.
Of course you are not, but let me keep on going with this rant anyway. Thank you.

Remember those first thoughts about The Meaning of Life?
Now that was THE MOMENT when your life started to suck, like holy shit that existence trip was hard man.
Before that, you just did not give a fuck.
You were ok. Then everything went downhill. It has been now what, five years of searching? Ten?
Twenty?

Zen is difficult because there is no Zen.

The old wise men/women don't speak much, because there actually is not so much to talk about.
They don't know much but they know at least that and that's the reason for them to live their lives in the "Zen way".
They just see life as it is.That's why they hit you with a stick when you keep asking stupid questions.
There are no answers.

KILL YOUR PATH TO ENLIGHTENMENT BEFORE THE PATH KILLS YOU!

Everything is already as it should be. You are searching for a thing that does not exist.
That's the best advice I can give.
One thing not to do is to force your way into the enlightenment. You can't force your way in it.
You can't even try. If you are trying to "get it", you will not get it.
And that is, once again, because there is nothing to get.

If you think you are "enlightened", you are not.

But I think anybody can "get it". You don't even have to be super-intelligence-god like me.
No I think that it is actually for the best if you don't know anything at all, when you are trying to not-trying to get it.
You get it?

And now finally when you do realize this all, you also realize that not all delusions are going away just like that.
Some of them are very tricky. You designed them that way.

You will still be you. Now some of you are going "Oh No! Say it ain't so! I can't stand myself! I'll do anything to get rid of me! Oh the torment, the pain." and that's quite normal reaction, but once you get that there is actually NOTHING WRONG with you and nothing TO FIX, you'll get over it. Or not.
You are you and as you, you shall stay. UNTIL YOU DIE.

You are not going to change into a angel-like creature of holy wisdom and endless happiness by understanding your "Buddha-mind" (a.k.a. bullshit-generator-creator).
Oh no, you will still be just yourself.
A simple human-being from planet Earth.
And you will learn nothing that could be considered as something special.
You will still have your addictions, flaws and your endless hate against stupid people and so on.
And that's a great thing.

You are your own worst tormentor and it is you who makes yourself feel like shit every now and then.
You create your own thoughts. You create what you feel.
This should be obvious and you know it.
It's all you and your delusional little mind so use it well.

Just forget the bullshit.

"Before I had studied Chan (Zen) for thirty years, I saw mountains as mountains, and rivers as rivers.
When I arrived at a more intimate knowledge, I came to the point where I saw that mountains are not mountains, and rivers are not rivers. But now that I have got its very substance I am at rest.
For it's just that I see mountains once again as mountains, and rivers once again as rivers."

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You don't have to download anything, the flash players should work. The lyrics should be full of typos so don't read them.

It would be great to hear what people think about our little project.

http://www.straechav.com/kingfear/whorum/read.php?11,2272

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Bring and Brag / Man fails (lyrics horrible as hell)
« on: June 10, 2010, 01:41:43 pm »
(melody stolen from backstreet boys slow song)


Some bitches try to make me feel
So gay
Feelings and all that they say
So gay
I tried to be a better man
But I think I am a failure
At that
So when I cast a shadow
On your bedroom floor
You better start running
Away

I really tried
I really tried to
Be
Better
Now and forever
Before the shot
I take it off
I just take it off

Now they say I知 a monster
But I知 not
I need some love
Some love with a touch
And if that痴 too much to ask for
Then it seems that my actions are not
So bad
Yeah I think I知 not so bad
After all
I did not do it twice
To anyone of them

I really tried
I really tried to
Be
Better
Now and forever
Still I did it without

Now listen to me my love
I値l keep this short
I promise
When I was out there
I saw someone
No she was not your mom
I went to her
And in her
In a lovely bed
Then I went to see a man
Now I知 here

I really tried
I really tried to
Be
Better
Now and forever
I have AIDS

THE END
 :sad:

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Bring and Brag / King Fear :: 2009 :: Sounds of Glass, Steel & Stone
« on: June 26, 2009, 09:03:26 pm »
New album out.
Genres : Industrial Rock, Industrial Metal, Doom, Ambient, Glitch, Grind, Classical and Something.

http://www.kingfear.com/

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Glitchy Industrial Metal with some Dark Ambientish parts here and there.

4 songs, about 15 minutes of mayhem and madness.
If you want to check it out, go to http://www.kingfear.com
Once there, go to Downloads. And there it is.

ps. I'm the vokills.

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Bring and Brag / We made this industrial metal album. Check it out.
« on: April 23, 2008, 01:30:57 pm »


http://www.kingfear.com/

The New Album: The Inexhaustable Hatred of Mankind

There are OGG and MP3.

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Or Kill Me / Are you addicted to electricity?
« on: April 01, 2008, 12:09:19 pm »
If all electricity would suddenly die, would you too?  :|


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Or Kill Me / Ask your mom. She knows.
« on: March 28, 2008, 08:19:24 am »
I asked my mom: Why did you stab your new husband with a fucking knife?

Mom answered: That fucker was reading the wrong magazine.

I said: You stab people for reading the wrong magazines? Fuck bitch, you are one grazy fuck.

Mom: Listen. My life has been so fucking hard that you cant tell me what to do!

Me: True, but i can say that what you have done is pretty fucked up. You should talk to doctor or something.

Mom: Fuck you, i know what i'm doing. Hang yourself! Die!

And it took about two months and she was in mental hospital. Schizophrenia. Again.
That was six months ago.

Latest news: About two weeks ago she stabbed her husband again.

True story, btw. The point? Well, you tell me.



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Principia Discussion / Welcome.
« on: February 08, 2008, 01:16:51 pm »
I am welcome. I come well.
Hello and snow-filled day to you too.
This is my first of these "text" things testings.
Could someone say something truly inspiring to me?

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