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Found a problem with the LO formatting.  I don't say "THE" problem, because there will be more.

But my frustration levels have decreased.

That's good news! What was the specific problem you found?

Somehow, two elipses got stuck in a smaller font, and wouldn't respond to control-A/font change.

I deleted them and restructured.

Is an elipse a form of punctuation?

Yeah,  it's this  --->  "..."

Well then! So "quotes" is referred to as an elipse. Never knew, thanks.

Not sure if it's the fever, but that kinda looks like an unimpressed skull face.
Like Death was saying "Meh."



I got some writing done on a distinctly Discordian idea I jotted down months ago.
I just set to writing a story rather than elaborating the idea. I'm almost done with it,  but have to try the sleep thing again. I call it Apocrypha Discordia. I'll open a thread and dump what I have so far. Hope you guys like it.

AHEM

Molten water

OUT! Let us not muddy the waters further!

Found a problem with the LO formatting.  I don't say "THE" problem, because there will be more.

But my frustration levels have decreased.

That's good news! What was the specific problem you found?

Somehow, two elipses got stuck in a smaller font, and wouldn't respond to control-A/font change.

I deleted them and restructured.

Is an elipse a form of punctuation?

NOT DEAD YET

And not going to go willingly or gently!

I have an awful tendency to divert myself from expression to  introspection. There was a time in my life when I used to constantly berate myself for laziness. I've come to understand that it has more to do with fear and long established behavioral trends. When I agree to do something, like working or assisting somebody that asks me to, I put just about everything I can into it. This often results in notable success because I am actually very hard working and very far from untalented. The problem seems to lie in my unwillingness to commit myself to a course of action when I'm the only one I'd disappoint. It seems like maybe I distrust myself. My mood disorder plays a role there, but I also do not well trust my judgment.

There's a quote from Full Metal Jacket that comes to mind.
"SIR, I have realized that whatever decision I make will be the wrong one, and so I have decided to stick to my guns SIR!"
And then the character gets promoted, but that's just a movie. I'm not in training for anything.

I'm well able to conjure that mentality when the situation calls for it. In an emergency I am freakishly fast acting and even more swift of thought, but when I am in stillness and alone I seem to just barely be able to take care of myself and seek passive diversion or literally just sit and stare, for hours sometimes, at whatever is passing through my head and heart at the moment. The more extreme my mood (up or down) the more likely I am to do this until some duty or another calls or a person disrupts me. The only thing that seems to change is the nature of the crazy show in my head.

There's a part of me that even now wants to run screaming from PD, my friends, acquaintances, and groups on FB, and even Internet (or any) news outlets. It's a massive urge to stick my head in the ground and a long recognized and hard-fought enemy. I'm not sure I'm "winning", but I haven't given up. What makes this enemy powerful is that "I know" how shitty things are and that they WILL get much more shitty over time, not less, before there's even a hope of getting better.

The good news is that I also know that I don't really know that and recognize all too well the very real danger of choosing a comfortable denial over the "truth" I think I know. The latter is treatable.  I might learn something true that overthrows my ideas about reality or at least helps me fight better. The former is equivalent to choosing NOT to ever get better. In effect it puts me in hospice before I'm even really dying.

I may be
Many things,
But refuse
To pretend
That I'm done
Because I'm
Not Dead Yet.

So fuck it.
I'll go on.





Edit because capitalisation matters

How about basses powered by malten lava?

I have got the nastyvirus. Fever, cough, swollen lymph, sore throat, chills, muscle pain, faucet nose, all of it.

Getting a bit of writing done.  Was moved by "Not Dead Yet" rants and by that it's the only thing I can really do in my misery. Might be out for a couple days, that's how long it took the friends I believe I contracted it from to recover. Because I'm febrile I am contractually obligated to stay home at least until the fever breaks.

Found a problem with the LO formatting.  I don't say "THE" problem, because there will be more.

But my frustration levels have decreased.

That's good news! What was the specific problem you found?

Someone managed to crack a barrel of industrial grade oxidizer today. The shit's got a truly terrifying MSDS profile and they're not even wearing respirators and have people still working on sorting in the area. Stupid fuckers.

Just had me a weird series of events chain up. There's been about 8 shooting incidents with several deaths in LaX over about the last month or so and today a drive by happened. I was just pulling up to a local grocery and checked FB briefly after I had parked. A gamer buddy of mine happens to be a manager for the grocery chain and posted that this new shooting had happened near his home minutes prior. I took note and listened to the wind for sirens or reports for a minute while I absorbed the news. Went about my shopping.

As I was putting my purchases in my car I hear my name called and sure as heck it's my friend and his little daughter. We chat and I walk back into the store with him for a few as we do. Turns out they need a 3rd shift manager assistant worth a damn and all things considered comparable to what I'm doing now for compensation for somewhat LESS responsibility overall than I currently deal with and actual management experience to add to my work history. I am certainty going to apply and almost certain to get it between his recommendation and my several quite excellent letters of same from my 3 current bosses.

I had been considering leaving the area in my search for other employment, but if this pans out I'll happily stick around.

I think (but I'm not 100% on this) that Wordpad can still introduce artifacts into the formatting, under certain specific circumstances.

I know this means doing it all again, but have you double-checked with Notepad?  That's my only suggestion, sorry.

Yeah that's all I could think too. Pretty sure that a .txt file made on wordpad has formatting code in it that is occulted by the prog but should be visible in notepad. Other possibility that comes to mind if notepad doesn't work would be to try a prog from a different OS. I use a bare bones text app simply called Writer for doing longer posts here and elsewhere on my Android phone.


I had thought LO was already loaded. Do they have a tech support line? Probably not over Labour Day weekend... 

Got it downloaded and installed. Will futz with it when I get some free time this weekend.

Any tips?

 

This post is just me messing with the attachment option. Want to see if it works for pics.

Photo evidence is best evidence.  That said, i would recommend whistleblowing both after leaving and while in secure employment elsewhere.

Yeah. It's the biggest reason I'm looking for work at a new company. I hate to waste the nearly 3.5 years I've spent building union seniority and a good reputation, but I clearly can't keep letting myself burn out and hating my work environment. Figure it will take me a few months. Hope you enjoy your day off!