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Beyond the wall / Re: sappy election blog #14
« on: November 12, 2016, 04:38:04 pm »
Well yeah. I'm not going to pretend I'm as disaffected or discarded as millions of other people are right now, but it's definitely bizarre. The logic leading to the conclusion that it's OK to ignore the vulnerable is as impenetrable to my mind as my reasoning that it is abhorrent is to my demographic peers. I'm sure it has to do with my having escaped the small white town I grew up in and being slightly more traveled. People who saw the world as unjust and unfair when I went to high school with them are, today, smugly self-satisfied and unconcerned whatsoever with the plight of the disadvantaged, if not openly hostile to them. I think it must be what I call "the Tofu effect", where spending years in an echo chamber, even if it contradicts one's thinking, has an inevitable effect of changing one's worldview.

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Beyond the wall / Re: sappy election blog #14
« on: November 12, 2016, 02:33:58 pm »
What's weird for me is that I fit Nigel's description of Trump voters, demographically, to a T. White. Middle class. High school diploma, but little higher ed. Shit, I even have 2 kids and a stay at home wife. Not Christian, but raised as one. But neither Trump nor any other Republicanduring my conscious lifetime has appealed to me, especially not with any "boogety boo brown people!" argument.

It isn't weird because I don't understand exceptions to rules, but because I would think with so many otherwise matching data points, two things would be true: 1) I would at least understand why someone would go that way, and 2) I should be capable of relating to them in a way that seems more sincere than an "Ivy league elite" could. But no, they are as immune to my sincere pleading as to the condescension from Academia, and it just boggles my mind a little.

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Beyond the wall / Re: What Makes This Really Funny, part 2
« on: November 12, 2016, 02:11:44 am »
Not sure why the concept of resistance would even require adherence to some holistic set of philosophies, other than some well-defined but limited set of absolute tolerances. We don't have to agree on everything, or even on most things. We don't even have to agree on fundamentals like the nature of government, the morality of taxation, or what color the sky is on a cloudless day. Just a few items like "it isn't okay to cart anyone away to the camps" and "people shouldn't be beaten in the streets" and "every human being deserves to live".

It doesn't have to be a movement, we don't have to collaborate on elections, we don't have to join the same parties or go to the same churches. It isn't about progress at this point, it's about survival.

If we can't find enough people who agree on those things, and are able to recognize when they have been violated, then I suppose you're right and the entire concept of "resistance" is moot. But I really don't want to believe that's where we are.

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Beyond the wall / Re: What Makes This Really Funny, part 2
« on: November 12, 2016, 02:00:38 am »
So what is it? Do we hunker down, and try to ride out 2 years and hope a miracle happens in the mid-terms? Do we disconnect and let the world burn? Do we engage as publicly as possible, and expose every filthy act of this autocrat? Do we turn into cannibals and eat each other alive?

I'd like to think... no, I need to believe that, even without the benefit of public institutions, even in the face of open aggression from the masses, we are capable of resistance. And not just "posting some memes" resistance, but actual physically providing safety to as many as we can. Establishing a network of people who are willing to risk something for the safety of others during this time. If we're right, and the jackboots come marching, nobody's going to be able to stand on their own. If we're wrong, and this is all hyperbole, the worst that can happen is we build a more resilient network outside of cyberspace.

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So I get the distinct impression that the Neville Chamberlain Progressives, as well as our Conservative friends, do not grasp the actual gravity of the situation. What happened in this election is not the first round of negotiations. It was certainly not the Tea Party coming in and saying "okay we're ready to listen". This is not going to be easy, and it isn't going to be pretty, and the first side to be "nice" about it is the one signaling defeat.

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Beyond the wall / Re: sappy election blog #14
« on: November 12, 2016, 12:47:59 am »
Am alive. Barely. And hoping an autocrat in power might, if nothing else, lend a little of that spirit of 2006-2008 to this place.

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Beyond the wall / sappy election blog #14
« on: November 11, 2016, 10:41:03 pm »
The last few days have sent me knocking all over the place. My headspace resembles a pinball machine, complete with shards of sharp, tinny music and incessant ringing bell noises. The election results put a pit in my stomach what has not budged since, no matter what levers I pull or what I try to wash the taste of the last 72 hours out of my brain with. I have browsed all of the idea outlets that have earned my attention and my time over the past 18 months, digital, physical, and personal. The sharp pangs of piercing disgust have multiplied at every turn, but at least they have dulled a bit and grown into a constant, droning melancholy eating at the edges of my consciousness. Hope has been reported missing. I have slept restlessly, and I not dreamed for what seems like a very, very long time.

I have tried the normal, human reaction, which is to attempt to wrap my mind around the events of the past week. But the standard issue "Facebook Leftist" repertoire of communal wisdom is impotent in explaining these. The extended set of explanations offered by various emotional wrecks, all of them scrambling over one another to arrive at the first sound conclusion, yields little better results other than a vague suggestion that "Liberals are too mean", which in my estimation is dangerously close to saying "Nazis are not too mean", and is thus suspicious brain food. I must admit that to whatever extent I still care to find a unifying theory as to why we as a culture have chosen this path, I am not much farther along in that investigation today than I was at midnight Tuesday night. Although, to my horror, it would seem that the most correct statement that can be made in relation to "why" this has happened, is simply to state the obvious: America has chosen Fascism.

We can all, I think, agree that the American Left failed in this election. But contrary to the maniacs who are doing whatever they can to convince us that the failure rests solely with the American Left, I find the sheer mass of this decision to outweigh anything the American Left is capable of, even in its heyday, which this certainly is not. I do not know exactly how to express this eloquently, so forgive me if I devolve into grunts and shrieks here, but America has chosen Fascism.

Some people want us to believe that this is due to the fact that "Progressives" are "too condescending". Which basically amounts to an argument that Liberals are bullying white people. It almost sounds reasonable, too, until you remember that the Fascists who won this election by being outright hostile to everyone who is not a white Christian male. So to accept the blame on behalf of "mean Liberals" is to first dismiss the humanity of the Right's targets out of hand, because if we can lose an election by being indifferent to the plight of whites but win an election by being openly hostile to people of color, the disabled, the elderly, and the queer, I really do not understand why I am supposed to feel guilty about the former, and appease those practicing the latter.

My initial reaction (which can be gleaned from my prolific shit-posting on Facebook throughout the event) was to place the blame squarely on so-called "Progressives" who managed to justify to themselves a complete lack of action on behalf of people who were in the sights -- and continue to be in the sights -- of the incoming Trump administration. And although I have learned that such initial reactions are often valueless, in this case I must conclude my instincts were fairly accurate. At its heart, whatever your belief about absolutely anything in this year and a half long endurance test, the most fundamental fact borne out on election day was that when it really counted, the "allies" -- WE "Allies" -- turned high tail and fled the field.

So in the coming days, months, and years, when every manner of horror visits the people of this country, one marginalized group at a time, I lack any faith that there is any coherent resistance at all. While we are busy worrying about sounding "condescending", whole neighborhoods will disappear. While we are wringing our hands about being "too uncooperative", our neighbors will disappear. While we sing the praise of a peaceful transition of power, the lights will go out, and the we won't know who to call. And someday, in a future that might as well be a century from today for many of us, when the lights come back on, and someone dares to hope again, where will we have been?

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Beyond the wall / Re: So, I think I'm about to be fired.
« on: January 27, 2016, 03:52:03 pm »
I have gotten a couple of offers, I'm just not sure I want to take that leap yet. If I mention I have gotten offers from elsewhere, it basically requires me to quit because it'll be plainly evident that I don't intend to stick around anyway. They might counteroffer, but they'll only do it to keep me on long enough to make my transition a smoother one. By that time the offer will almost definitely have been rescinded. So if I go to them with an offer, I just want to make sure it's one I'd be happy to take anyway.

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Beyond the wall / Re: So, I think I'm about to be fired.
« on: January 27, 2016, 03:13:08 pm »
I don't think I have violated any actual rules, but then this place hardly consults the manual anyway. Everything from wall decor to product launches is done by the seat of our pants. And my director has this thing where every time his ass is on the line for something, one of his reports gets the ax and suddenly he's a hero again. Oh and he just got one of those self-congratulatory trophies (an actual physical trophy award) that HR makes to make people feel special.

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Beyond the wall / So, I think I'm about to be fired.
« on: January 27, 2016, 06:10:09 am »
Jobs, like every kind of interpersonal relationship, are terrible and unrewarding. I have been dating my current employer for almost 4 years now, and the shine has worn off a bit. It's difficult to ignore the toxic political atmosphere, and I can see that my work - although it's as good as it's ever been - is motivated more by the flailing reflexes of a drowning spirit than by anything like a desire to succeed or make progress. My department, aside from being a pile of similarly flailing, dysfunctional Aspies, is currently being ground into mush beneath the wheels of a particularly large bus. We have "struggled to meet key metrics" and "become somewhat lax in our duties". That's "we" the department, not the royal we, mind you.

I have no very specific evidence that I am about to be canned. On paper, everything is great. Performance review for 2015 was a solid 4/5 (5/5 is considered impossible except for people in Sales), no write-ups, no coaching. But the last couple of weeks there has been a whole lot of "make sure you write down what you do and how to do it so others can cover you," a lot of emails not being replied to, projects going unreviewed, and general gruffness from Teh Mgmt. Markedly lower levels of eye contact. Responsibilities that were mine according to paper, given to other people.

Also, last week there was a Particularly Bad Fuckup, which could reasonably be considered at least partly my fault, and it came a time of great hawkish watching that arose from the previous week's Particularly Bad Fuckup during which I inadvertently exposed the complete ineptitude of my superiors to their superiors.

Now, I am a paranoid person by nature. And it is true that the prospect of job hunting has been on my mind for some time now, to the point of submitting my resume to a few places. I can't really discern whether my cabin fever is bleeding into my "what the fuck is happening" cortex, or if I'm picking up something serious. If it does turn out to be all in my head, I should probably start taking Xanax. If it isn't, something stronger may be in order. Either way, if you happen to be a billionaire with nothing better to do than pay me large sums of cash in return for computer and network services (or, to be honest, any kind of service), I will not summarily dismiss any offers.

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Beyond the wall / Re: Music Suggestions
« on: November 19, 2015, 05:29:54 pm »
Metallica's "Call of Cthulu" on repeat until you find out the real reason Cliff Burton crawled under that bus on purpose.

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Beyond the wall / Re: free stuff for you
« on: November 19, 2015, 12:47:21 pm »
Default quota is 10 GB which can be expanded if needed (but no promises). Also the encryption adds some size to your files.

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Beyond the wall / Re: free stuff for you
« on: November 19, 2015, 01:10:44 am »
anything illegal, immoral, or stupid like Nickelback mp3s.

That's like 90% of everything on my HD.

Except the Nickleback mp3s, that's like, only 10% at most.

I expected more from you. Like, at least 15%.

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Beyond the wall / free stuff for you
« on: November 19, 2015, 12:05:30 am »
i run a server that has features similar to dropbox (file sync/share etc). if you are a person who would like a way to share/host files without some lame ass ad-driven bullshit and/or care about privacy (all the files are encrypted and as the server admin even i do not have access without your keys, and it has been some time since the last NSA raid. also the server is behind a valid SSL certificate), i will make an account for you if you ask. might be ok for hosting propaganda and assorted nonsense.

truth in advertising: this is really so i can get some experience managing this particular platform. there's no cost to you. the only caveat is i'm not claiming to be some mega corporation with 100% uptime and i'm not responsible for backing up your data. if my hard drives crash your shit goes with them.

just don't spam up my drive space with anything illegal, immoral, or stupid like Nickelback mp3s.

oh and the domain is www.disc0rd.com which is awesomer than dropbox.

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Beyond the wall / I found a bunch of crap on my computer
« on: November 16, 2015, 07:33:51 pm »
mostly half-finished pamphlets and rants. Very low quality guaranteed. I have no idea who authored most of it.

Here's a link: https://www.disc0rd.com/index.php/s/4VEqMVsk2q7uFJe


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