« on: February 21, 2017, 02:16:01 am »
I'm gonna take a softer approach, because I do see some of myself in TWJ's approach.
I'm not violent. I hate violence. I hate expressing anger. As a child, I didn't scrap with the other children, get knocked down, and then grab their hands as a bonded friend.
When I lost my cool and got angry, I would fight to win. No-- I would fight to MAKE IT STOP AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. This carried over into relationships, where I was unable to have "relationship fights" verbally because when I got angry enough to lose it, I would be utterly awful.
Basically, I'm a huge asshole when I get violent. And I hate that. If I was in Fight Club, every fight would end up with one of us looking like Jared Leto, afterwards.
So I would love to live in a world where punching nazis was not the best option. I would pray to live in a universe where rational debate and moral positions could be explained and accepted. Quite literally, punching anyone is my least favorite option.
And yet. The world I want is not the world I live in. This is hard for me to accept. I want it not to be true.
But here we are. In this world, the extrapolation of not punching nazis is demonstrably worse than punching nazis.
Me not wanting this to be true does not change the universe