Discordia will always be more relevant to me personally than in any kind of “cause” or “movement”.
Yes, things in society are fucked up, yes “everyone” thinks that “everyone” else wants things to be this way, and there is nothing that they can do about it as individuals. Yes, they are wrong.
But all of this means nothing to me.
I am not an activist, I don’t go out of my way to try and convert people anymore. I used to, but then I thought it was mandatory or at least expected. Since I decided for myself that it wasn’t, I don’t do it. I don’t expect people to wake up unless they want to do it themselves, I certainly don’t expect it to ever make sense for them unless they do it in the hardest and unfunniest ways, but that may be my jaded and bitter inner self talking.
Discordia is not a movement, it is not a purpose, it is not a cause. It’s a state of mind. A state of mind that connects a diverse group of people who wouldn’t give each other the time of day if they met socially in other circumstances and didn’t have the call signs Discordia offers, the “fluff” like 23, Eris or Principia Discordia.
I like that. I like talking to people who I normally would never talk to, who would normally never talk to me.
Discordia is at times an excellent way of tying some of us together to work on projects that normally would never be worked on, like Paths and Shrapnel, PosterGASM and some of the weird and wonderful art projects that have grown out of these forums.
I like that. I like working with people on plans and projects that may have some relevance to how I think about my life, or can help decorate it in a way that makes me question what decoration is.
Discordia will always be relevant to me in some way because of this. Its worth far outweighs the effort of getting anything back from it.
I like models, I like art, I like exploring the weirder aspects of our psyches, and the even weirder methods of exploiting what we find.
I like to laugh, hate, cry and love, as we as humans are meant to, not as we have been conditioned to. As I’ve only learned to do with some intense soul searching and some pain. Discordia has been the chair I’ve sat down in when I’m weary, the desk I’ve used to write some of the most personal and important things I’ve ever written, it has been the mirror in which I’ve seen what I am, what I was and what I want to be.
And I’ve learned to not care what others are thinking about it all, except in specialised circumstances, for example: when I feel like it.
I know what I’ve learned, I’ve learned to question what I know, and I’ve learned to learn more, always learn more.
For me, Discordia is a question, an answer and everything else in between, and it is so huge that I could spend a lifetime exploring it.
Is Discordia relevent? Certainly for me, maybe for you.