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Confessions of an Undiscovered Hero
« on: September 25, 2009, 11:26:55 pm »
I live in a world where I believe smoking a cigarette (a stimulant) relaxes me. I harbour a desire for a relationship I could have had, once, believing that it would be perfect now. I can feel in my bones that I am special - above all the rest of the people that populate my world. Only fate has stopped me from being recognised for it.

I live in a world where achievement is subject to a law of diminishing returns. To keep the same pace of success requires ever greater effort. Eventually, getting out of bed in the morning will be a victory. I idolise and despise victims in equal measure because I am a victim myself. I too have been ground down by a world that refuses to see me, but I'm better than those other victims because I know how much effort I put into each and every success.

I love my illusions. I love everything about them. I hated them to begin with because they were made by those "others", but I tailored them to fit me (another success! Seriously, you should read my C.V. sometime, it's a catalogue of unrecognised genius and heroism). I have total control over that which controls me, honest.

My opinions are the only ones that matter. That really matter. I like a bit of variation, but I block out everything that is too far removed from my own ideas. Far easier to label them immediately and file that shit away than to argue it down. I know I'm right already, and that this opposition is merely the "others" trying to break me down again. It's easier to continue watching TV shows that agree with me, and reading authors that say what I want them to say (I'd rather read myself, of course, but those lucky bastards got published despite being obviously inferior).

If only it wasn't so difficult to gain my successes. To gain that inspirational spark. To seize back my potential from those who oppose me. Come the day I am recognised for what I really am, I will grind the "others" faces in my previous indignities. All I have to do is wait here to be discovered...

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Re: Confessions of an Undiscovered Hero
« Reply #1 on: September 25, 2009, 11:53:39 pm »
:mittens:
"YOU SAY CULTURAL MARXISM LIKE IT'S A BAD THING"

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Re: Confessions of an Undiscovered Hero
« Reply #2 on: September 26, 2009, 01:32:38 am »
Nice.  Most people think that way.  Even us.
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Re: Confessions of an Undiscovered Hero
« Reply #3 on: September 26, 2009, 02:03:30 am »
Shhhh. Relax. Let the spiders do their work.

Everything will be fine in the mornng.

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Re: Confessions of an Undiscovered Hero
« Reply #4 on: September 26, 2009, 03:42:30 am »

I think its called self delusional narcissism.
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Re: Confessions of an Undiscovered Hero
« Reply #5 on: September 26, 2009, 03:44:19 am »
I think someone might have missed the point a little.

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Re: Confessions of an Undiscovered Hero
« Reply #6 on: September 26, 2009, 05:42:07 am »
It could be worse, you could get a little of the limelight, and then your problems would really start. This keeps going through my mind whenever I see this thread now: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jv6mEv_rDdE (Bowie on Extras)

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Re: Confessions of an Undiscovered Hero
« Reply #7 on: September 26, 2009, 06:12:00 am »
:mittens:  Aw, Payne...self-reflection is a serious ride into sad-dom.  But damn it makes for some awesome writing.

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Re: Confessions of an Undiscovered Hero
« Reply #8 on: September 26, 2009, 01:36:56 pm »
To be clear. This is NOT actually about me. It's written in the first person, but it's not actually what I myself am thinking or feeling.

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Re: Confessions of an Undiscovered Hero
« Reply #9 on: September 26, 2009, 02:58:41 pm »

I think its called self delusional narcissism.

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Re: Confessions of an Undiscovered Hero
« Reply #10 on: September 26, 2009, 03:29:56 pm »
To be clear. This is NOT actually about me. It's written in the first person, but it's not actually what I myself am thinking or feeling.

:crankey:
So you're saying that it's about "a friend" or something?

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« Reply #11 on: September 26, 2009, 04:11:37 pm »
To be clear. This is NOT actually about me. It's written in the first person, but it's not actually what I myself am thinking or feeling.

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So you're saying that it's about "a friend" or something?

No, I'm saying it's about someone unspecific. I tried to write it as "he lives..." and "we live..." etc, none of them worked, so I went with the "Attn: LMNO" thread style and made it first person. It's not about me or anyone I know.

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Re: Confessions of an Undiscovered Hero
« Reply #12 on: September 26, 2009, 04:18:01 pm »
No Payne, every artist who ever uses the first person must necessarily be referring to events in their own life!

I liked it, by the way.  The "I could've been a contender" attitude, when mixed with laziness and disdain for others, is especially toxic and prevalent, in my opinion.

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Re: Confessions of an Undiscovered Hero
« Reply #13 on: September 26, 2009, 04:21:26 pm »
No Payne, every artist who ever uses the first person must necessarily be referring to events in their own life!

I liked it, by the way.  The "I could've been a contender" attitude, when mixed with laziness and disdain for others, is especially toxic and prevalent, in my opinion.

Of course, I was just Doing It Wrong. I should have made the lead character English, and have him be punched in the face CONSTANTLY, so that fictionpuss would have something to relate to.

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Re: Confessions of an Undiscovered Hero
« Reply #14 on: September 26, 2009, 04:22:28 pm »
To be clear. This is NOT actually about me. It's written in the first person, but it's not actually what I myself am thinking or feeling.

:crankey:
So you're saying that it's about "a friend" or something?

No, I'm saying it's about someone unspecific. I tried to write it as "he lives..." and "we live..." etc, none of them worked, so I went with the "Attn: LMNO" thread style and made it first person. It's not about me or anyone I know.
I know - I really liked this piece. Your insecurity about the first-person was just too delicious to ignore though.