Pain

[Storebrand]

So, here I sit, blitzed out of my fucking mind.  Trying to mask the pain.  Drinking to induce vomiting.  If you're drinking, you're vomiting due to alcohol poisoning, not because your body is trying everything it can to stop it.  Stop the day long quakes and year long aches.  Stop the stabbing sensations and almost reminiscent of an orgasm, ever-present whole-body thrumming of pain, originating in the hips and radiating outward.  That hell-hot heat permeating your bones.  Waking you in tears at night,  Making even the act of sitting or shifting your weight from  one foot to the other excruciating.  I'm so sick of hearing the green-stick popping.  The gritty grinding halting my steps, holding me back.  The shakes making it hard to even type at work.  I'm genuinely upset that I'm not depressed because the depression pulled my attention away.  What I wouldn't give to be in that place again, screaming at the static demons on the end of my bed and feeling that surge of adrenaline, negating everything else.  In the fight, even against psychotic imaginings, you forget the pain your body is experiencing.

Yes, I know I'm whining.  It's my 23rd birthday.  I'll fucking anybody.  Or kill me.

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

What's wrong with you? Back problems? You seem too young to be already falling apart.

[Storebrand]

Hips.  I don't want to have them fixed yet so it really is just me whining.

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

Hips.  I don't want to have them fixed yet so it really is just me whining.

That sucks total ass. What would they do to fix them?

I have a friend whose lower back, hips, and knees are all kinds of fucked up from having been a child gymnast. WTF do people do that to their kids?

[Storebrand]

Hip surgery (adding bone to create a larger roof and/or fix the angle) or hip replacement.  I have no idea what the fuck is wrong with some parents.  Mine weren't like that.  I just lost in the genes lottery. 

[Jenne]

  Sounds mighty debillitating.

[Dysfunctional Cunt]

I have a bunch of info on different food and such that can help with inflamation and pain because of all of my crap.  PM me if you're interested and I'll send it to you!

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

Hip surgery (adding bone to create a larger roof and/or fix the angle) or hip replacement.  I have no idea what the fuck is wrong with some parents.  Mine weren't like that.  I just lost in the genes lottery. 

Oh, I didn't figure you were a former Mary Lou Retton or anything; it just made me think of someone else I know who's all fucked up at a young age, and it makes my mind boggle that anyone would do that to their kid.

You should do the surgery while you're still young and have the opportunity. Bone heals a lot faster when you're young.

[Doktor Howl]

I'm reserving my sympathy for people who DIDN'T suddenly decide that we were all scum, ask everyone to delete her contact info, then change the story to "the military made me do it", then reappear acting like nothing ever happened.

Get the surgery or don't.  I, for one, do not care.  I'm saving my sympathy (as opposed to pity, mind you) for the members of this board that have similar or worse problems, and haven't shat all over us.  Jenne comes to mind...Her problems make yours look like a bad cold, and yet here she is in your thread, feeling bad for you, after you dumped on each and every one of us.  Jenne is my friend, and I'm proud to call her my friend.  You?  You're just some internet emotion leech.

Enough said.

[Adios]

I'm reserving my sympathy for people who DIDN'T suddenly decide that we were all scum, ask everyone to delete her contact info, then change the story to "the military made me do it", then reappear acting like nothing ever happened.

Get the surgery or don't.  I, for one, do not care.  I'm saving my sympathy (as opposed to pity, mind you) for the members of this board that have similar or worse problems, and haven't shat all over us.  Jenne comes to mind...Her problems make yours look like a bad cold, and yet here she is in your thread, feeling bad for you, after you dumped on each and every one of us.  Jenne is my friend, and I'm proud to call her my friend.  You?  You're just some internet emotion leech.

Enough said.

I must have missed this.

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

I'm reserving my sympathy for people who DIDN'T suddenly decide that we were all scum, ask everyone to delete her contact info, then change the story to "the military made me do it", then reappear acting like nothing ever happened.

Get the surgery or don't.  I, for one, do not care.  I'm saving my sympathy (as opposed to pity, mind you) for the members of this board that have similar or worse problems, and haven't shat all over us.  Jenne comes to mind...Her problems make yours look like a bad cold, and yet here she is in your thread, feeling bad for you, after you dumped on each and every one of us.  Jenne is my friend, and I'm proud to call her my friend.  You?  You're just some internet emotion leech.

Enough said.

It's times like this that I think my bad memory must make me seem like some kind of mood-swing queen, because I only vaguely remember this AND thought it was someone else.

[Doktor Howl]

I'm reserving my sympathy for people who DIDN'T suddenly decide that we were all scum, ask everyone to delete her contact info, then change the story to "the military made me do it", then reappear acting like nothing ever happened.

Get the surgery or don't.  I, for one, do not care.  I'm saving my sympathy (as opposed to pity, mind you) for the members of this board that have similar or worse problems, and haven't shat all over us.  Jenne comes to mind...Her problems make yours look like a bad cold, and yet here she is in your thread, feeling bad for you, after you dumped on each and every one of us.  Jenne is my friend, and I'm proud to call her my friend.  You?  You're just some internet emotion leech.

Enough said.

It's times like this that I think my bad memory must make me seem like some kind of mood-swing queen, because I only vaguely remember this AND thought it was someone else.

Gin = Storebrand.  I normally wouldn't remember something like this from what was a casual user, except for the abrupt, callous manner in which she did it.  It sort of stuck with me.

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

I'm reserving my sympathy for people who DIDN'T suddenly decide that we were all scum, ask everyone to delete her contact info, then change the story to "the military made me do it", then reappear acting like nothing ever happened.

Get the surgery or don't.  I, for one, do not care.  I'm saving my sympathy (as opposed to pity, mind you) for the members of this board that have similar or worse problems, and haven't shat all over us.  Jenne comes to mind...Her problems make yours look like a bad cold, and yet here she is in your thread, feeling bad for you, after you dumped on each and every one of us.  Jenne is my friend, and I'm proud to call her my friend.  You?  You're just some internet emotion leech.

Enough said.

It's times like this that I think my bad memory must make me seem like some kind of mood-swing queen, because I only vaguely remember this AND thought it was someone else.

Gin = Storebrand.  I normally wouldn't remember something like this from what was a casual user, except for the abrupt, callous manner in which she did it.  It sort of stuck with me.

Huh. Well, what do you know. Weird!

[Adios]

Dok has an amazing ability to remember fail.

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

Dok has an amazing ability to remember fail.

It's a powerful magic he has, this Dok!