the long road to nowhere is only an on-ramp to the masturbation superhighway

[tyrannosaurus vex]

Edited to clarify intent:


I admire everything about this board, and appreciate everything it represents and everyone who has managed to become a part of it. You are all outstanding individuals. But after more than four years of trying, it is clear that there is a permanent disconnect between me and this board. I have always been here as a spectator, not a participant. I wish you all good luck and happy adventures in whatever you choose to do.

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

1. Way to rip off someone else's schtick.

2. We're not real people, just a TV show to you?

3. Fuck off.

[Cainad (dec.)]

And again...

and again and again and again.


It's like the writers only know how to draft up one kind of script for this guy anymore.



Later dude.

[Whatever]

So are you flouncing or trying to bore people to death? 

I don't understand why you're bitching. I don't see (and I looked) where you've made much effort to stop the stagnation that it appears only you can see.

[tyrannosaurus vex]

So are you flouncing or trying to bore people to death? 

I don't understand why you're bitching. I don't see (and I looked) where you've made much effort to stop the stagnation that it appears only you can see.

There is no stagnation. I'm not bitching or blaming. Read edit.

[Salty]

I guess it all depends where you're sitting.
From here you're a regular member who posts interesting and insightful things, things I've appreciated.
You seem a part of this place as many others. To me.

So you feel like an outsider here. So? So do many other people, maybe even MOST.
I definitely do. And that's silly. And good for the ego.

I may be one of the most far-removed member here, distance wise. It sucks and it seems like I'm posting into a big bacon shaped vaccum most of the time.

YOU said it when you said you can't leave because you can't leave.

Gonna go to another forum? One without our topnotch bickering and highclass drama and veins of PURE WIN?
Good luck.

[Whatever]

So are you flouncing or trying to bore people to death? 

I don't understand why you're bitching. I don't see (and I looked) where you've made much effort to stop the stagnation that it appears only you can see.

There is no stagnation. I'm not bitching or blaming. Read edit.

Nice you edit your total douche post and make it look like you are just too good and kind for PD is that it?


My favorite part, the only person you respond too is the fucking n00b. Do you think to warn me away? Scare me off? Or do you just not have the fucking balls to give the regular established members shit?


Just because I'm new to PD doesn't mean I haven't been down the god damned rabbit hole.


Don't think your shit doesn't stink just because you walk upright.

[The Good Reverend Roger]

Edited to clarify intent:


I admire everything about this board, and appreciate everything it represents and everyone who has managed to become a part of it. You are all outstanding individuals. But after more than four years of trying, it is clear that there is a permanent disconnect between me and this board. I have always been here as a spectator, not a participant. I wish you all good luck and happy adventures in whatever you choose to do.

Wait.  Because we aren't all set to hoist the black flag and start slitting throats, you're leaving?

Well, have fun storming the barricades.

[East Coast Hustle]

I like Vex quite a bit, when he's not bitching about pointless shit that will never change.

I suspect there are people who feel the same way about me.

Either way, we'll still be here when you get back. And you will be back.

[The Good Reverend Roger]

I like Vex quite a bit, when he's not bitching about pointless shit that will never change.

I suspect there are people who feel the same way about me.

Either way, we'll still be here when you get back. And you will be back.

Of course he'll be back.  Nobody ever actually leaves.  Nobody.

[Whatever]

I like Vex quite a bit, when he's not bitching about pointless shit that will never change.

I suspect there are people who feel the same way about me.

Either way, we'll still be here when you get back. And you will be back.

Of course he'll be back.  Nobody ever actually leaves.  Nobody.

Now I'm stuck between the Twilight Zone and Hotel California.  STUCK IN MY BRAIN over and over and over!!!

[tyrannosaurus vex]

So are you flouncing or trying to bore people to death?  

I don't understand why you're bitching. I don't see (and I looked) where you've made much effort to stop the stagnation that it appears only you can see.

There is no stagnation. I'm not bitching or blaming. Read edit.

Nice you edit your total douche post and make it look like you are just too good and kind for PD is that it?


My favorite part, the only person you respond too is the fucking n00b. Do you think to warn me away? Scare me off? Or do you just not have the fucking balls to give the regular established members shit?


Just because I'm new to PD doesn't mean I haven't been down the god damned rabbit hole.


Don't think your shit doesn't stink just because you walk upright.

never said my shit doesn't stink, and i'm not saying i'm too good for pd. who i reply to has nothing to do with post count, it has more to do with whether you're saying i have something a reply for. your post showed up as i saved my edit, btw, it wasn't done for your benefit. and none of this was done for anyone's benefit except my own. i'm not here to talk shit, place blame, tell you all what's wrong with you or why it doesn't apply to me. that shit has been said by practically everyone here to everyone here, and it isn't my point at all.

i don't even have a point, except to say that i have developed an apparent inability to communicate with this board without being misunderstood and misrepresented, sometimes intentionally, but always to the point that no discussion ever takes place when i'm involved. it isn't a judgment against this place or myself, just a recognition that this just isn't working out for me right now and it's a waste of time to stick around just to watch a community i admire immensely but can't, for whatever reason, bring myself to be a part of anymore.

this thread was never intended to be anything but a respectful goodbye that i felt was appropriate after having made it such a big part of my life for almost 5 years. again, however, my words were mistaken for insults and my attempts to explain myself only dig a deeper hole, further underscoring my inability to convey a fairly simple thought without riling a bunch of your feathers.

Niamh: I don't even know you are, but I hope you figure out that PD can be more than people finding witty ways to be spiteful and mean and tear each other down, it's also the greatest engine for creative and subversive thought that I've found on the Internet. You might think the modus operandi of everyone at PD is Internet Tough Guy, but I don't really see it that way. PD swings from gangbusters productivity mode to internet drama mode. I'm not leaving because of the drama or because of my inability to contribute to the productivity, but because I can't even tell the difference anymore.

TGRR: Actually this isn't about the other thread, except that the other thread kinda solidified my feelings to the point of action.

ECH: I'm glad you think that about me. And I probably will be back, for that matter I will probably just go into lurker mode for a while.

Nigel: You have a smile as genuine as every opinion you voice on this board. I'm sorry we ended up clashing so much, because good friends who know how to tell it like it is are rare. Also, I like your cheekbones.

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

Vex, I don't think we've clashed that much, honestly. And I like you quite a lot when you're not being as emo as you are right now. I think you "belong" as much as the rest of the misfit toy collection that's congregated here, and I think the board will be poorer without your particular variety of dissent.

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

That said, if you're bored, you're bored, and you should find something else to do that entertains you until such time as the dynamic here feels stimulating again.

[ñͤͣ̄ͦ̌̑͗͊͛͂͗ ̸̨̨̣̺̼̣̜͙͈͕̮̊̈́̈͂͛̽͊ͭ̓͆ͅé ̰̓̓́ͯ́́͞]

Do what you have to do Vex. There's a debilitating strain of nihilism that gets passed around here which everyone gets from time to time. I imagine a vigorous asshat like yourself will recover soon.

If you're also getting confused IRL, you might consider getting your head checked. I think I was borderline psychotic when I lost my shit with Nigel. Seriously, I was barely fighting off beliefs that people were coming after me in a grandiose and delusional way. If I hadn't had anyone to talk to about it I probably would have made mistakes that were even harder to live down.

It was most likely PTSD related, which is good to know and helpful for me to manage it if it returns. I really should write some of it down because a lot of it is kind of funny in retrospect. At one point, which also involved sleep deprivation, there was a crowd of naked people crouching on top of each other in the dark on the opposite side of the wall, pressing their ears against it and barely perceptibly moving to get a better position to listen to me.

Anyways, I hope you figure your shit out soon Vex and return to poomp with the forum.